Among the Malaysian legal practitioners, The Royal Speech was kinda like inspiring and full of bravery. It speaks out da malformation of their legal system. Undeniably, the voice of change has been ongoingly raised for the government to realise how sick the legal system is due to direct and indirect interference by them. But I supposed its just circling n hanging in the air – waiting and weakening.
Our neighbour, however, has been far too advanced than us (I believe). Dats Y they stand higher and stronger than us, allowing them mapping themselves proudly on the globe. Its not dat Im not a patriotic neither a non-nationalist (alrite2, I’ll watch 1957: Hati Malaya soon ok? Fair Enough!!) but its just da truth dat you and I got to bear, for my eyes cudn’t lie, my mouth cudn’t deny and my ears will never die.
History tells, we started from the very same point. We grew from da very beginning, sharing similar chronological events prior independent. But till dis moment of time, we have gone too far in our separate ways. Its like two twins were born together (obviously from da same mother laaaaaaaaaa kan …if not takkan jadi twins), but end up one’s been extremely taller from the other.
The Malaysians in many cases, r hardly to accept changes. We prefer to live things in day way it is, as long as it doesn't deteroriate 'our life'. 'Our life' referring 2 da individual bearers. So long it is yet 2 cause dangers/harm 2 others (which r not related 2 'em directly or indirectly), we tend to adopt da 'wait n see' culture. HOW BAD.
One of the most remembered disasters by the Malaysians, was da catastrophic flood, washing large parts of a Southern State in Malaysia. Da whole vicinity was sanked due to heavy rain PLUS A POOR DRAINAGE SYSTEM, despite countlessly advice and warnings signed 2 da authority 2 improve. And Godswilling, by just 4 nites of continuous downpour, we realised dat sumting ought 2 b done n worst, it shud be done ages ago.
We never learn dat "time waits 4 no man"
In fact, my rumbles wud juz be rumbles. A meaningless sayings 2 da authority. At least 2 draw da attention of my fellow readers. I can't do much 4 a change I'm afraid =( but wif da all I have, I'll do wif da best dat I can =)
Those two speeches below-attached are da evidence on my rumbles today. I’ve enclosed two different excerpts touching on the ground of justice and judiciary. I wud like to acknowledge ‘LifeInside’ for sparking dis idea to me. U always be a great inspiration for Asignofthecreator to live on. Coincidently, its just happened not too long after the 14th Malaysian Law Conference took place.
My motives are noble n clear – I am not blaming much on da current jokers who shape the silly – lelucons into the holliness of law neither da current law maker cum enforcer for enduring this ‘unofficially-accepted’ cancer in our judiciary, but just to highlight how serious we have gone wrong to our future inheritors. We deserve a better country where JUSTICE is upheld under the name of LAW and let dere be no suppression, interference and influence from other parties. ( u know wat I mean dun ya) PEACE
FOR A BETTER MALAYSIA
XXX
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Why Singapore Is What It Is
Pic is courtesy of LifeInside
Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew was the keynote speaker at the opening of the International Bar Association’s annual conference last night. This is his address.
TO UNDERSTAND Singapore, you have to know how we were suddenly thrown out of the Federation of Malaysia in 1965 and became an independent state. Peninsular Malaya had been Singapore’s hinterland ever since the British founded Singapore in 1819.
We faced a bleak future. We had no natural resources. A small island-nation in the middle of newly independent and nationalistic countries of Indonesia and Malaysia, each determined to cut Singapore off as the middleman. To survive, we had to create a Singapore different from our neighbours - clean, more efficient, more secure, with quality infrastructure and good living conditions.
We sought to provide an environment that our neighbours did not provide - First World standards of reliability and predictability. Important for investors and economic growth is the rule of law, implemented through an independent judiciary, an honest and efficient police force and effective law enforcement agencies. Had we not differentiated Singapore in this way, it would have languished and perished as a shrinking trading centre instead of becoming the thriving business hub it is today.
I studied law in the Cambridge Law School and am a barrister of Middle Temple, an English Inn of Court. I practised law for a decade before I first took office in 1959 as prime minister of self-governing Singapore. Therefore I knew the rule of law would give Singapore an advantage in the centre of South-east Asia where the law was often what was decided by the leader, whether a president or prime minister, often an ex-military man.
Singapore inherited a sound legal system from the British. Clear laws, easy access to justice and an efficient legal system provide the basis for citizens to compete equally in the market and to grow the economy.
A stable and predictable legal environment facilitates the enforcement of contractual rights and protection of property rights. The common law heritage and its developed contract law are known to and have helped attract investors. Our laws relating to financial services are similar to those of leading financial centres in other common law jurisdictions such as London and New York. As these are the two leading financial centres in the world, their laws govern most financial transactions worldwide. They are used freely in Singapore.
Since 1959 we have adopted English as our working language. While we have kept key English legal principles; after the United Kingdom joined the European Union, it adopted EU laws and doctrines. We have not followed them. Instead we have amended our laws to fit our needs and circumstances.
The independence of our courts is protected by the Constitution that prevents removal of judges from office by the executive. We established our final Court of Appeal in place of the Privy Council as our courts would be more familiar with our own legislation and local conditions and culture.
We still look to English precedents and examples, but increasingly we look also to those of United States, Australia, New Zealand and other Commonwealth countries. Even civil law countries have given us useful concepts and ideas, especially those adopted and incorporated as part of UNCITRAL trade laws.
Needs-based legislation
WE have special legislation to meet our needs: A multi-racial and multi-religious society is prone to conflicts. Race, language and religion in Singapore have to be handled sensitively, especially during elections. We have enacted the Religious Harmony Act and set up the Presidential Council for Minority Rights. We created Group Representation Constituencies to ensure minority representation in Parliament.
For good industrial relations, we enacted the Employment Act and Industrial Relations Act to provide the framework for our tripartite system of industrial ties, a system for collective bargaining, and an Industrial Arbitration Court to resolve industrial disputes.
For law and order, we have strong deterrent sentences for offences such as drug trafficking, kidnapping, unlawful possession of firearms. The Immigration Act provides for caning sentences to deter illegal immigrants and overstayers. For national security, the Internal Security Act allows for preventive detention, an effective response to terrorists.
By the 1980s, the system of courts we inherited from the British could not cope with the increasing volume of work. It needed to be modernised and to make use of IT. This also needed a chief justice who is not only legally qualified, but also has managerial and administrative experience to reform the system.
It was Chief Justice Yong Pung How (1990-2006) who had practised law for over two decades before he became a merchant banker and finally chairman of Singapore’s largest bank. He restructured the system, instituted new procedures, used IT in the courts, increased the number of judges and courts and selected the most able and balanced of those at the Bar to become judges.
The World Bank, in a report this year entitled Judiciary-led Reforms In Singapore - Framework Strategies And Lessons, stated: ‘Over the past 15 years, Singapore’s judicial system has been transformed from one that many viewed as characterised by inefficiencies, delays, and inadequate administrative capacity to one widely seen as among the most efficient and effective in the world.’
Attorney-General Chan Sek Keong, who has since become Chief Justice, will maintain these standards. Good governance, a sound legal framework and judiciary have resulted in stability and economic growth.
Transparency and integrity
OUR emphasis is on meritocracy, the building blocks of sound governance and integrity in our judiciary and legal system. The integrity of our financial systems withstood the turbulence of the 1997 Asian financial crisis that caused several of our neighbours’ banking systems to collapse. Singapore’s firm regulatory framework has facilitated economic progress.
Corruption, endemic in parts of the world, was seeping into Singapore in the 1950s when elections had introduced elected ministers in the transition to internal self- government. In 1959 when we took office in the first fully elected government, we moved swiftly to rid ourselves of corruption before it could become endemic.
Transparency International, a civil society organisation against corruption based in Berlin, has repeatedly listed Singapore among the top five of 163 countries. And the only one from Asia in the first five. Our system does not tolerate corruption and we have avoided the problems of widespread corruption that have plagued Asia. Our Corrupt Practices Investigation Bureau (CPIB) annually tabulates the cases brought against officers and executives from the public and private sectors. In two cases, it led to the conviction and prison sentence of a junior minister. Another, a Cabinet minister, committed suicide after being investigated for corruption.
Three factors enabled Singapore to escape the poverty that plagued the region: First, clean and efficient government; second, the character and capabilities of the leadership in charge; third, an industrious people, eager and quick to learn to be productive and gainfully employed.
Defamation
POLITICAL leaders in Singapore take action against opponents who make statements against them that impute dishonesty and lack of integrity. Situated in a region where ‘money politics’ is part of the political culture and an accepted way of life, any allegation of corruption in Singapore must be taken seriously.
It leads to an investigation by the CPIB, and/or an action for defamation against the person making the allegation to clear any doubts on the integrity of the government. As a result, people in Singapore do not equate their political leaders with second-hand car salesmen.
Economic competitiveness
INTERNATIONAL surveys of economic competitiveness of countries always include the legal framework and the administration of justice as key criteria in ranking such countries.
The Political and Risk Consultancy, World Economic Forum and other polls show that both foreigners and Singaporeans believe we have good judicial and legal systems, and fair administration of justice.
The Institute For Management Development World Competitiveness Yearbook has consistently ranked Singapore in the top two positions since 1997 under the Legal Framework component. (This category examines if the legal and regulatory framework encourages the competitiveness of enterprises.)
The World Bank released its study Doing Business Report 2007 in September last year. Singapore fared better in 2006, compared to the previous year, and has replaced New Zealand at the top spot. Despite these endorsements, we cannot be complacent. We have to respond to new challenges that technology and globalisation have brought upon us.
With technology increasingly sophisticated in a world that is increasingly borderless, crime has become multi-faceted, and multi-jurisdictional. Our legislative mechanisms have responded to meet these challenges. Many legal issues today require an international cooperation for solutions.
Law firms are also taking advantage of new global business opportunities and technologies. US and British law firms are able to venture aggressively into new markets, following their clients’ multi-jurisdictional businesses. Businesses span many countries and lawyers must meet the needs of their multinational clientele.
We need to maintain Singapore’s position as a city par excellence, with an environment that is clean, safe and vibrant to work in and live in. We try to retain our best, and we attract the best to come, settle and raise their families here.
XXX COURTESY OF MALAYSIATODAY.NET XXX
TO UNDERSTAND Singapore, you have to know how we were suddenly thrown out of the Federation of Malaysia in 1965 and became an independent state. Peninsular Malaya had been Singapore’s hinterland ever since the British founded Singapore in 1819.
We faced a bleak future. We had no natural resources. A small island-nation in the middle of newly independent and nationalistic countries of Indonesia and Malaysia, each determined to cut Singapore off as the middleman. To survive, we had to create a Singapore different from our neighbours - clean, more efficient, more secure, with quality infrastructure and good living conditions.
We sought to provide an environment that our neighbours did not provide - First World standards of reliability and predictability. Important for investors and economic growth is the rule of law, implemented through an independent judiciary, an honest and efficient police force and effective law enforcement agencies. Had we not differentiated Singapore in this way, it would have languished and perished as a shrinking trading centre instead of becoming the thriving business hub it is today.
I studied law in the Cambridge Law School and am a barrister of Middle Temple, an English Inn of Court. I practised law for a decade before I first took office in 1959 as prime minister of self-governing Singapore. Therefore I knew the rule of law would give Singapore an advantage in the centre of South-east Asia where the law was often what was decided by the leader, whether a president or prime minister, often an ex-military man.
Singapore inherited a sound legal system from the British. Clear laws, easy access to justice and an efficient legal system provide the basis for citizens to compete equally in the market and to grow the economy.
A stable and predictable legal environment facilitates the enforcement of contractual rights and protection of property rights. The common law heritage and its developed contract law are known to and have helped attract investors. Our laws relating to financial services are similar to those of leading financial centres in other common law jurisdictions such as London and New York. As these are the two leading financial centres in the world, their laws govern most financial transactions worldwide. They are used freely in Singapore.
Since 1959 we have adopted English as our working language. While we have kept key English legal principles; after the United Kingdom joined the European Union, it adopted EU laws and doctrines. We have not followed them. Instead we have amended our laws to fit our needs and circumstances.
The independence of our courts is protected by the Constitution that prevents removal of judges from office by the executive. We established our final Court of Appeal in place of the Privy Council as our courts would be more familiar with our own legislation and local conditions and culture.
We still look to English precedents and examples, but increasingly we look also to those of United States, Australia, New Zealand and other Commonwealth countries. Even civil law countries have given us useful concepts and ideas, especially those adopted and incorporated as part of UNCITRAL trade laws.
Needs-based legislation
WE have special legislation to meet our needs: A multi-racial and multi-religious society is prone to conflicts. Race, language and religion in Singapore have to be handled sensitively, especially during elections. We have enacted the Religious Harmony Act and set up the Presidential Council for Minority Rights. We created Group Representation Constituencies to ensure minority representation in Parliament.
For good industrial relations, we enacted the Employment Act and Industrial Relations Act to provide the framework for our tripartite system of industrial ties, a system for collective bargaining, and an Industrial Arbitration Court to resolve industrial disputes.
For law and order, we have strong deterrent sentences for offences such as drug trafficking, kidnapping, unlawful possession of firearms. The Immigration Act provides for caning sentences to deter illegal immigrants and overstayers. For national security, the Internal Security Act allows for preventive detention, an effective response to terrorists.
By the 1980s, the system of courts we inherited from the British could not cope with the increasing volume of work. It needed to be modernised and to make use of IT. This also needed a chief justice who is not only legally qualified, but also has managerial and administrative experience to reform the system.
It was Chief Justice Yong Pung How (1990-2006) who had practised law for over two decades before he became a merchant banker and finally chairman of Singapore’s largest bank. He restructured the system, instituted new procedures, used IT in the courts, increased the number of judges and courts and selected the most able and balanced of those at the Bar to become judges.
The World Bank, in a report this year entitled Judiciary-led Reforms In Singapore - Framework Strategies And Lessons, stated: ‘Over the past 15 years, Singapore’s judicial system has been transformed from one that many viewed as characterised by inefficiencies, delays, and inadequate administrative capacity to one widely seen as among the most efficient and effective in the world.’
Attorney-General Chan Sek Keong, who has since become Chief Justice, will maintain these standards. Good governance, a sound legal framework and judiciary have resulted in stability and economic growth.
Transparency and integrity
OUR emphasis is on meritocracy, the building blocks of sound governance and integrity in our judiciary and legal system. The integrity of our financial systems withstood the turbulence of the 1997 Asian financial crisis that caused several of our neighbours’ banking systems to collapse. Singapore’s firm regulatory framework has facilitated economic progress.
Corruption, endemic in parts of the world, was seeping into Singapore in the 1950s when elections had introduced elected ministers in the transition to internal self- government. In 1959 when we took office in the first fully elected government, we moved swiftly to rid ourselves of corruption before it could become endemic.
Transparency International, a civil society organisation against corruption based in Berlin, has repeatedly listed Singapore among the top five of 163 countries. And the only one from Asia in the first five. Our system does not tolerate corruption and we have avoided the problems of widespread corruption that have plagued Asia. Our Corrupt Practices Investigation Bureau (CPIB) annually tabulates the cases brought against officers and executives from the public and private sectors. In two cases, it led to the conviction and prison sentence of a junior minister. Another, a Cabinet minister, committed suicide after being investigated for corruption.
Three factors enabled Singapore to escape the poverty that plagued the region: First, clean and efficient government; second, the character and capabilities of the leadership in charge; third, an industrious people, eager and quick to learn to be productive and gainfully employed.
Defamation
POLITICAL leaders in Singapore take action against opponents who make statements against them that impute dishonesty and lack of integrity. Situated in a region where ‘money politics’ is part of the political culture and an accepted way of life, any allegation of corruption in Singapore must be taken seriously.
It leads to an investigation by the CPIB, and/or an action for defamation against the person making the allegation to clear any doubts on the integrity of the government. As a result, people in Singapore do not equate their political leaders with second-hand car salesmen.
Economic competitiveness
INTERNATIONAL surveys of economic competitiveness of countries always include the legal framework and the administration of justice as key criteria in ranking such countries.
The Political and Risk Consultancy, World Economic Forum and other polls show that both foreigners and Singaporeans believe we have good judicial and legal systems, and fair administration of justice.
The Institute For Management Development World Competitiveness Yearbook has consistently ranked Singapore in the top two positions since 1997 under the Legal Framework component. (This category examines if the legal and regulatory framework encourages the competitiveness of enterprises.)
The World Bank released its study Doing Business Report 2007 in September last year. Singapore fared better in 2006, compared to the previous year, and has replaced New Zealand at the top spot. Despite these endorsements, we cannot be complacent. We have to respond to new challenges that technology and globalisation have brought upon us.
With technology increasingly sophisticated in a world that is increasingly borderless, crime has become multi-faceted, and multi-jurisdictional. Our legislative mechanisms have responded to meet these challenges. Many legal issues today require an international cooperation for solutions.
Law firms are also taking advantage of new global business opportunities and technologies. US and British law firms are able to venture aggressively into new markets, following their clients’ multi-jurisdictional businesses. Businesses span many countries and lawyers must meet the needs of their multinational clientele.
We need to maintain Singapore’s position as a city par excellence, with an environment that is clean, safe and vibrant to work in and live in. We try to retain our best, and we attract the best to come, settle and raise their families here.
XXX COURTESY OF MALAYSIATODAY.NET XXX
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Royal tells JUDICIARY to buck up
Date: October 29 2007
Event: 14th Malaysian Law Conference
Venue: Sumwhere in Key Ell ( lol - dun know )
Hear Hear
His Royal Majesty acknowledges dat dere has been some degree of 'disquiet' over da state of the judiciary in da recent years n HRH urges da judges to discharge their duties 'impartially, confidently, and competently.'
SULTAN AZLAN SPEAKS OUT:
ON THE JUDICIARY
1) "Sadly, I must acknowledge there has been some disquiet about our judiciary over the past few years and in the more recent past."
2) "There is no reason why judges with the assured security of tenure they enjoy under the Constitution should not discharge their duties impartially, confidently, and competently.'
3) "In these days, judges must be ever mindful that the loss of independence can come from many sources, and not just from the executive. Therefore, judges must piously resist the lure of socialising with business personages and other well-connected people. They may discover at their peril that they have compromised themselves in the cases that come before them with the unedifying spectable of recusal applications."
4) "Nothing destroys more the confidence of the general public, or the business community, has in the judiciary than the belief that the judge was biased when he decided a case, or what the judge would not be independent where powerful individuals or corporations are litigants before him. Judges in Malaysia must be ever mindful that they are appointed judges for all Malaysians. They must be sensitive to the feelings of all parties, irrespective of race, religion, or creed, and be careful not to bring a predisposed mind to an issue before them that is capable of being misconstrued by the watching public or segments of them."
ON LAWYERS
1) "The Bar and its leadership must ensure there is a high standard of integrity and ethics among its members. A Bar that is riddled with bad practices cannot assist the administration of justice."
2) "Judges are supposed to be no respecters of persons who appear before them. This rule applies not only to litigants but also to lawyers. It's not just a matter of prudence and good practice, but fundamentally one of ethics."
3) "There have been allegations againts some lawyers that in clear dereliction of their responsibilities, that have either misled the courts, or attempted to choose the judges or courts for their cases to be heard so as to obtain a favourable decision in their client's favour. This is a serius interference with the administration of justice and the process of the court."
FINALLY THE CONCERNS HAVE SPOKEN
xxx
Event: 14th Malaysian Law Conference
Venue: Sumwhere in Key Ell ( lol - dun know )
Hear Hear
His Royal Majesty acknowledges dat dere has been some degree of 'disquiet' over da state of the judiciary in da recent years n HRH urges da judges to discharge their duties 'impartially, confidently, and competently.'
SULTAN AZLAN SPEAKS OUT:
ON THE JUDICIARY
1) "Sadly, I must acknowledge there has been some disquiet about our judiciary over the past few years and in the more recent past."
2) "There is no reason why judges with the assured security of tenure they enjoy under the Constitution should not discharge their duties impartially, confidently, and competently.'
3) "In these days, judges must be ever mindful that the loss of independence can come from many sources, and not just from the executive. Therefore, judges must piously resist the lure of socialising with business personages and other well-connected people. They may discover at their peril that they have compromised themselves in the cases that come before them with the unedifying spectable of recusal applications."
4) "Nothing destroys more the confidence of the general public, or the business community, has in the judiciary than the belief that the judge was biased when he decided a case, or what the judge would not be independent where powerful individuals or corporations are litigants before him. Judges in Malaysia must be ever mindful that they are appointed judges for all Malaysians. They must be sensitive to the feelings of all parties, irrespective of race, religion, or creed, and be careful not to bring a predisposed mind to an issue before them that is capable of being misconstrued by the watching public or segments of them."
ON LAWYERS
1) "The Bar and its leadership must ensure there is a high standard of integrity and ethics among its members. A Bar that is riddled with bad practices cannot assist the administration of justice."
2) "Judges are supposed to be no respecters of persons who appear before them. This rule applies not only to litigants but also to lawyers. It's not just a matter of prudence and good practice, but fundamentally one of ethics."
3) "There have been allegations againts some lawyers that in clear dereliction of their responsibilities, that have either misled the courts, or attempted to choose the judges or courts for their cases to be heard so as to obtain a favourable decision in their client's favour. This is a serius interference with the administration of justice and the process of the court."
FINALLY THE CONCERNS HAVE SPOKEN
xxx
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Monday, October 22, 2007
An enduring wait ...
Its da eleventh day of EidI dun think dat my late entry post is bcuz of Eid. Not either becuz of skewl break (obviously laaa kan) but its mainly because I've to roll up my sleeves with work and @ da same time; planning sumting huge 4 next year 2 happen
Please dun ask
Loads of me mates keep on telling me - it must be gud 2 b back home celebrating da festive season wif family n frens. Its gonna be da first celebration after four years abroad. A reasonable mind wud think its gonna be a blast. Yeah, including me. I cudn't lie 2 myself by saying 'i'm not looking 4 ward 2 eid' in Mesia. Infact, me was anxiously n wondrously waiting cuz it was da last hope i had 2 heal my relationship wif family ( u mite have known dat me n me family weren't in 'feel gud' state eversince I landed myself home.
n I am profusely teaching myself dat "things were far better when I was away" Again, I'm not blaming, either not whining but I just realising and experiencing.
So, Eid aka Hari Raya means a lot 2 me. In it, lies my biggest dream - stays my remaining hope and carries my most meaningful mission i.e to patch things up wif da person(s) I love, da one(s) dat I care.
But 1st Syawal saw my dreams, hope and mission fallen apart.Shattered into small pieces of dust ... leaving me hopeless and stop thinking bout others (after learning they think less bout me)
Me dad scolded me just bcuz I didn't go 4 Eid prayers (da muslims shud know its not compulsory although wud be perfect shud one performs it) but its not dat I didn't want 2 go. I was extremely tired n exhausted due 2 a big turnover in my life - got up from bed @ 0600 just 2 get an early train 2 work. n da whole universe knows dat I'm not a morning person. even how much I tried.
So I was really 'shut down' dat day. My heads spins as I cud see da spinning stars circling infront of my eyes. n I never escape Eid prayers since da age of 13 till now.
But all I had was just a scold on da very blessful morning
WAT A BAD START !!!
Then later in da evening, everything just went wrong
My mum explicitly disagrees wif my plan next year. We quarelled (again) n da whole chaos invited my brother joining on my mum n started bombarding me ( sumhow I do feel dat he always look forward 2 da chance ... dere he goes )
N dat's not enough. Mum opened da discussion 2 my cousins and she definitely roasts my nuts for dinner dat evening.
IMAGINE - I was sitting alone in da middle - surrounded by mum, 2 brothers , 2 cousings justifying why I really wish to go back to da UK again (pursuing studies = working quite sumwhile)
DO U HAVE ANY IDEA HOW ASHAMED I WAS?
Why Mum has 2 involve my cousins since dis is just within family matters (n I know 4 da fact dat she rarely likes my cousins for various reasons) Watever da prob is, never n ever invite outsiders even we truly positive dat those outsiders were acting in gud faith who claimed he/she has no personal interest watsoeva
YEAH, U RE RITE!!!
HOW CAN THEY DO DIS TO ME?
On da 1st evening of Eid. Da moment I've been waiting for 4 bloody years..
which too me to think, starting from dat day:-
- 2 stop hoping
- 2 stop thinking bout others
- 2 realise dat Eid in da UK is fare more better than wif families @ ur home country
- 2 prove dat if I'm engaging sumting gud, God will always test me
- 2 be determined cuz I got to do@go wats da best 4 me
still, I cudnt hide da misery I had inside. Dis mite be da only Eid I had back home (who knows) n dis is da price I've got after years of waiting
but all in all,
I'll face all da obstacles wif strength n bravery cuz deeply I know - "DA REASON WHY ZOKHRI IDRIS STILL LIVING IS BECAUSE HE IS STILL FIGHTING"
Selamat Hari Raya to all.
XXX
Friday, October 12, 2007
Dalam Dingin Subuh Hatiku Terusik ...
Feelings: Feelingless
Currently listening: Suasana Hari Raya by Anuar Zain n Elina (when they were still kids)
In just a few moments, da Muslims all around da globe shall be celebrating da Eidul Fitr festive season.
To sum, its da most awaiting moment
To sum, its gonna be a niu experience wif niu looks
To sum, its da exciting time away from works n skewls.
But as for me, dere's nothing I really look forward to. In fact, dere's sumting I really missed about - da gud ol days where I had my Eid whilst studying, How I missed dat time.
Truth 2 b told, I had da nicest eid ever (so far) in da UK bcuz:
Being far away from home n family, doesn't make me feel lonely
Being a minority on da land whereby Protestant is dominant, doesn't make me feel excluded
Even wif no hols n classes still running, da celebration wud never be less merrier.
As 4 dat, I thank God 4 giving me da memory which I shall be 4ever cherished. Im praying hard now dat He'll grant me da 2nd chance 4 me to truly feel it one more time. JUST ONCE !!!
Dear angels,
I know I've been wasting my fasting month. I even sumtimes missed me prayers n I know I din worship Him much but please send me prayers 2 God, so dat He'll make my wish comes true 1 more time.
Dearest all fellow readers n frens,
Asignofthecreator wud like 2 wish u a "Selamat Menyambut Hari Lebaran dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin." Semoga dgn kedatangan Syawal kali ini benar2 menginsafkan kita. It has been two days I've been receiving tonnes of Eid wishes mobile text. I ve replied sum but still many queing waiting 2 be responded. Please accept my appreciation as Im truly glad to learn ur simple thot as it is always be da sayings dat 'da thot dat counts'. I'll try to get my mobile phone sorted out (dia pun puasa gak dowh) asap n resume replying ur text
P/S: Since Im yet 2 receive my 1st salary, I still be exempted under 'org yg layak memberi duit raya' rule. LOL So, sorry kids, next year yah?
Salam lebaran (dun know how to put it in English tho) -grins-,
XXX Zokhri Idris XXX
Eid Muabrak = No Fasting,
No fasting = No Bazaar Ramadhan
No fasting = No Bazaar Ramadhan
No Bazaar Ramadhan = No motivation 2 Eat
No Motivation 2 Eat = Kurus = Slim = Save Budget
Kurus + Save Budget = HAPPY?????
Monday, October 08, 2007
Laughter is da best medicine ....
Sorry for disappearing. Me already got a job now and da hanky-panky lifestyle of mine had to be paused a litt' while. No more wakie-wakie in da noon, no more tele nor astro, no more hang-outs wif mates at starbucks (ey siang beta puasa tau) . and I must say, working life is totally a boredom.
S-H-A-M-E
Hence, while I was idling at da office today (nasib baik x kantoiii), da fate has brought me to aliaroxic's blog which can be found at (aliaroxic.livejournal.com). Granted, my memory flashes back to da day when we were working our a**es together in MSLS 07. Alia Sidek shared a true story which happened to her brother's fiance (as she then was) whilst we were having tea in da evening (luckily our boss WMF didnt see)
So, dis is how da story goes:
THE ENGLISH TOUCH
Future Groom (FG): Hi X, me and XX gonna wed soon
X (bukan nama sebenar): O Really (wif her brits accent) ?!?! Congratulations and may God bless both of u everlastingly.
Future Bride (FB): Thank you, Mind joining our reception?
X : Definitely. Wud love to. When and whereabout?
(FG): Date: .................................. (private n confidential)
Venue: ............................... (bla bla bla)
X (in an astonishing mode): Owh, I'm afraid I cant make it due to an earlier commitment. I'm
terribly sorry.
FB: Dats shame. We really hope u can make it.
X (wif her long-guilty-face) : I am so sorry
FG: naaaaaaaaaaaa its ok. We totally understand
X : Again, please accept my apology. I seriously mean it.
FG : Naaaaaaaaaa no worries dear. U can always come to my second one
FB : Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (grumpily)
THE MALAY VERSION
(Narrated by Nina, da happening mistress-planner 4 birthday treats)
Everytime Nona (not a real name) returns to her hometown, she'll never escape from being ambushed with such an annoying question - "na, biler ko nak naik pelamin plak?" and she profusely (wif a really nice mellowing polite note) - "insyaAllah ada jodoh naiklah saya. doakan jer laaa" but deep inside her heart, her devilish voice screams - "suka ati aku laaaaa nak kawin ke tak, yg ko busy body* nie ape kes?"
But one day, she cudnt take it anymore. She just 'bloated' up
Lets hear da story:
Nana: Eh Nona, Never seen u for ages
Nona: I've been bz wif uni
Nana: So its ur sista getting married yah
Nona: Yeah, it seems so (reluctantly aka dah tahu tanye lagi)
Nana: Waaaaaa how lengaaaaa (its kantonese) . Sumer family ko dah naik pelamin. Tinggal
ko sorang jerh.
Nona: ha ah camtue laaaaaaa gamaknyer (durrrrrrrrr - her temperature starts to raise)
Nana: HAAAAA !! Ko nie biler plak nak kawinn? (sarcastically)
Nona: Ermmm lepas kenduri ko aku kawin laaaaaaa (boiling)
Nana: Eh kan aku dah kawin 2 bulan lepas. Honeymoon pun tak abis lagi. tgk inai kat tangan
aku nie haaaaaaaaa (nyeh nyeh)
Nona: Ada aku kata kenduri kawin ker? (steaming)
Nana: Abis tue kenduri ape? (buat2 fenin)
Nona: Aku tak sampai ati nak cakap (matilaaaaa ko nanaaaaaaaaaa)
Nana: Alaaaaaa cakaplaaa cakaplaaa (excited giler punyer mode)
Nona: KENDURI ARWAH KO**!!!!!!! (blasted)
Nana: Gulp......... x pelah na, aku beransur dulu laaa ye
Nona: Haaaaaa elok laaa tue. karang x pasal2 besok pulak kendurinya..
THE END
Glossary:
* busy body - 'such in a big gurl's blouse' kinda like
** kenduri arwah - Memoriam for the souls
S-H-A-M-E
Hence, while I was idling at da office today (nasib baik x kantoiii), da fate has brought me to aliaroxic's blog which can be found at (aliaroxic.livejournal.com).
So, dis is how da story goes:
THE ENGLISH TOUCH
Future Groom (FG): Hi X, me and XX gonna wed soon
X (bukan nama sebenar): O Really (wif her brits accent) ?!?! Congratulations and may God bless both of u everlastingly.
Future Bride (FB): Thank you, Mind joining our reception?
X : Definitely. Wud love to. When and whereabout?
(FG): Date: .................................. (private n confidential)
Venue: ............................... (bla bla bla)
X (in an astonishing mode): Owh, I'm afraid I cant make it due to an earlier commitment. I'm
terribly sorry.
FB: Dats shame. We really hope u can make it.
X (wif her long-guilty-face) : I am so sorry
FG: naaaaaaaaaaaa its ok. We totally understand
X : Again, please accept my apology. I seriously mean it.
FG : Naaaaaaaaaa no worries dear. U can always come to my second one
FB : Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (grumpily)
THE MALAY VERSION
(Narrated by Nina, da happening mistress-planner 4 birthday treats)
Everytime Nona (not a real name) returns to her hometown, she'll never escape from being ambushed with such an annoying question - "na, biler ko nak naik pelamin plak?" and she profusely (wif a really nice mellowing polite note) - "insyaAllah ada jodoh naiklah saya. doakan jer laaa" but deep inside her heart, her devilish voice screams - "suka ati aku laaaaa nak kawin ke tak, yg ko busy body* nie ape kes?"
But one day, she cudnt take it anymore. She just 'bloated' up
Lets hear da story:
Nana: Eh Nona, Never seen u for ages
Nona: I've been bz wif uni
Nana: So its ur sista getting married yah
Nona: Yeah, it seems so (reluctantly aka dah tahu tanye lagi)
Nana: Waaaaaa how lengaaaaa (its kantonese) . Sumer family ko dah naik pelamin. Tinggal
ko sorang jerh.
Nona: ha ah camtue laaaaaaa gamaknyer (durrrrrrrrr - her temperature starts to raise)
Nana: HAAAAA !! Ko nie biler plak nak kawinn? (sarcastically)
Nona: Ermmm lepas kenduri ko aku kawin laaaaaaa (boiling)
Nana: Eh kan aku dah kawin 2 bulan lepas. Honeymoon pun tak abis lagi. tgk inai kat tangan
aku nie haaaaaaaaa (nyeh nyeh)
Nona: Ada aku kata kenduri kawin ker? (steaming)
Nana: Abis tue kenduri ape? (buat2 fenin)
Nona: Aku tak sampai ati nak cakap (matilaaaaa ko nanaaaaaaaaaa)
Nana: Alaaaaaa cakaplaaa cakaplaaa (excited giler punyer mode)
Nona: KENDURI ARWAH KO**!!!!!!! (blasted)
Nana: Gulp......... x pelah na, aku beransur dulu laaa ye
Nona: Haaaaaa elok laaa tue. karang x pasal2 besok pulak kendurinya..
THE END
Glossary:
* busy body - 'such in a big gurl's blouse' kinda like
** kenduri arwah - Memoriam for the souls
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Wherever You Go I Miss U So ...
Once dis is where I am
where my heart is anchored
now and forever ...
(pic is a courtesy from Ain Nasim Yusof)
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Nite Ramblings
Zokhri Idris is wondering why things were far better when he was away ????
He is not blaming, either not whining
but
He is just realising and experiencing
0205 28 Sept 07
xxx
Ramadhan Kareem
Taken from Tash's facebook
Perhaps da government shud continue banning fast-food adverts especially in da fasting month lyke dis (menggoda nafsu siot)
n
Burger King shudnt come out wif dis kind of advert to avoid sensitivities. I dun know 2 be honest. But, by associating the crescent (which da Muslims believe as one of da Holy Symbols in Islam) wif a burger (or a quarter pound burger) cud be offensive in a way. Its fine to me at least =) (sponsor me buka puasa plissssss Mr King)
xxx dah takde kije xxx
Perhaps da government shud continue banning fast-food adverts especially in da fasting month lyke dis (menggoda nafsu siot)
n
Burger King shudnt come out wif dis kind of advert to avoid sensitivities. I dun know 2 be honest. But, by associating the crescent (which da Muslims believe as one of da Holy Symbols in Islam) wif a burger (or a quarter pound burger) cud be offensive in a way. Its fine to me at least =) (sponsor me buka puasa plissssss Mr King)
xxx dah takde kije xxx
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
"F" is For Forgiveness
Da word for today is forgiveness. So kids, lets learn.
‘bear wif each other and forgive whatever grievances ye may have against 1 another. Forgive as the lord forgave ye' :Colossians 3:13N I think dats rite. Colossians tells us dat by forgiving others, it will open da doors of mercy from Lord. N wat else cud a mortal human hope for but mercy and blessings from da Lord Almighty. I had a long ym-discourse wif my Christian fren about forgiveness. It was an eye-opening I wud say. Makes me think n wonder – how life cud be lovely if the humans r forgiving each other (but still we seek justice above all matters)
I think forgiveness is a virtue enjoyed by both da forgiver and da forgiven ones. Even da forgiver will find himself relief and serendipity shud he forgives his fellow brothers. A bollywood movie (which I failed to recall da title, but im 50% sure its Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Ghum) has taught me me dat forgiveness is not for da forgiven but for the forgiver. Forgiveness is not sumting we do for other ppl. We do it for ourselves to get well and move on.
How true
Forgiving doesn’t make u scorn. It doesn’t degrade one’s self esteem too either. Its in fact makes u more noble n pious in da eyes of God.
Excerpts:
Me: How do we forgive when we don't feel like it? I can even feel da pain from wat dat person has done to me.
Me fren: We da Christians, forgive by faith, out of obedience. Since forgiveness goes against our nature, we must forgive by faith, whether we feel like it or not. We must trust God to do the work in us that needs to be done so that the forgiveness will be complete.
Me fren: I believe God honors our commitment to obey Him and our desire to please him when we choose to forgive. He completes the work in his time. We must continue to forgive (our job), by faith, until the work of forgiveness (the Lord's job), is done in our hearts.
Me: wow
Me: Is it okay to feel anger and want justice for the person we need to forgive?
Me fren: This question presents another reason to pray for the person we need to forgive. We can pray for God to deal with the injustices, for God to judge the person's life, and then we can leave that prayer at the altar. We no longer have to carry the anger. Although it is normal for us to feel anger toward sin and injustice, it is not our job to judge the other person in their sin.
Me fren: Luke 6:37 Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.
So dats da gist of our discussion.
I then googled ‘forgiveness in islam’ which produces a massive list to read on. But da one I read on is by Shahid Athar’s. He reminds us on da attribute of Allah including da names of Ar-Rahman (the beneficient), Ar-Rahim (the merciful) n Al-Ghafur (the forgiving). He states dat by ‘giving up hope of the mercy of allah is a crime in itself.
Say: 'O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of God: for God forgives all sins (except shirk): for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.' Az-Zumar ie 'the groups' (39:53)
So I wonder, if God can be so forgiving why us da mortals cant? Are we in da state more hollier than Him dat makes us refuse to grant forgiveness? Waliyazubillah (I protect under god’s name)
Wat if im hurt terribly? Even I feel, I dun deserve to receive dat kind of ill-treatment?
The Holy Prophet (pbuh) used to say:
A certain person had committed 99 murders. He went to a scholar and asked, is there any chance of my being forgiven? The scholar said no, you have committed too many crimes. The man killed the scholar too, but his heart was restless, so he went to another scholar and asked the same question. He was told yes, but you must leave this town of bad people and go live in the next town in the company of good people. So the man set out to the town he was told to go to. On the way he died. A man passing by saw two angels arguing over his dead body. The Angel from Hell said, 'His body belongs to me as he had not done any good in his life.' The Angel from Heaven said, 'His body belongs to me as he had repented and was set out to be with good people.' The man who was the passer-by said, 'Let us measure the distance of his body from the town he left and the town he was going to.' This was done. He was found to be nearer to the town he was going to. In another version, the earth was ordered by Allah to shrink and make the distance smaller, so that he was admitted to Heaven
I rest assured, taking a long breath, n think.
Those two comparisons tell me on how noble u r to be a forgiver. U dun loose a thing but u gain everything.
After all, I cud accept dat, we da humans aren’t perfect. We frequently hurt and get hurt by others. Its da wheel concept i.e u’ll never stay at da same place forever. So why worry?
WE ARE JUST HUMAN ...
N human makes mistakes (al insan la yahnil hata’i wal nisyan)
p/s to sumbody dat has hurt me so much, I FORGIVE U
even da wound still bleeding dribbly inside, I FORGIVE U
even I ve been left alone mercilessly, I FORGIVE U
even u hate and disgust me tremendously, I FORGIVE U
even u treated me falsely, I FORGIVE U
Zokhri Idris is just an ordinary lame man but believes, "dere’s nothing I can give but a lot to FORGIVE".
Lastly,
I FORGIVE U
Sunday, September 23, 2007
why r u doing dis to me?
Wat do u feel upon learning sum1 was talking behind ur back (about u) whilst dat person been avoiding u all dis while?
Self-Reflection: How can u do dis to me?
Is dis da price for da things I've done 4 u?
Or its just not enough, innit?
So much for a friendship, huh?
I always thot u r such a noble n kindhearted
But I was very wrong (n dis is da hardest part )
Friday, September 21, 2007
In Memoriam of Nurin Jazlin Jazimin
-Al-Fatihah-
To My Dearest Nurin Jazlin,
As I am writing dis, Im sure u had set ur path to heaven. U mite be in da angels' guidance and care up dere.
Im speechless n my eyes were brimming in tears as I saw u in da tele dis morning. Hence, Im sending you to heaven wif my prayers n heartiest thoughts and I know da angels are waiting u wif open hands, smiling n bringing u to a nice throne which u were once denied in dis horrifying world.
I vow 2 u dat da sinner will never find peace and serependity in his/her own entire life. And we da Malaysians will never n ever rest unless we got dis moron arrested n tortured 2 death. We'll seek justice for u dear child.
Child,
May u rest in peace little one. U r now safe in da loving arms of God. All I know, u have now gone 2 a better place where no one can hurt u anymore. Da moment I saw u dead, U look so peaceful in ur sleep cuz I know da angel might have come personally 2 take u home.
U'll forever be in my prayers, dear princess
Dere's just one thing I ask - Cud u 4give us 4 not being dere in ur time of need?
Im just an ordinary,
XXX
To My Dearest Nurin Jazlin,
As I am writing dis, Im sure u had set ur path to heaven. U mite be in da angels' guidance and care up dere.
Im speechless n my eyes were brimming in tears as I saw u in da tele dis morning. Hence, Im sending you to heaven wif my prayers n heartiest thoughts and I know da angels are waiting u wif open hands, smiling n bringing u to a nice throne which u were once denied in dis horrifying world.
I vow 2 u dat da sinner will never find peace and serependity in his/her own entire life. And we da Malaysians will never n ever rest unless we got dis moron arrested n tortured 2 death. We'll seek justice for u dear child.
Child,
May u rest in peace little one. U r now safe in da loving arms of God. All I know, u have now gone 2 a better place where no one can hurt u anymore. Da moment I saw u dead, U look so peaceful in ur sleep cuz I know da angel might have come personally 2 take u home.
U'll forever be in my prayers, dear princess
Dere's just one thing I ask - Cud u 4give us 4 not being dere in ur time of need?
Im just an ordinary,
XXX
Wat In Da Name of Human Are You ?!?!
*
Dear Sado-Masochistic Phaedophil 'Beast',
Wat in da name of human are you ?!?!
U Son of the B****
I pray dat God makes u suffer, n will be cruelly tormented and be burnt in hell
HEAR ME !!!
U gonna lead a long terrifying miserable life for wat U've done. U wont find peace anywhere u go and in anything u do.
BELIEVE ME !!!
U completely insane-disgusting-sickening moron and do not worth for a living
And
I swear to God, if i got ya, I'll stake ur XXX wif saw and torture u appallingly - PUBLICLY- yeah publicly SOB n Im sure da rest will join me sending u to hell.
U'll never be safe !!!
God is watching ye !!!
F**K YOU !!!
**
**
Dear Sado-Masochistic Phaedophil 'Beast',
Wat in da name of human are you ?!?!
U Son of the B****
I pray dat God makes u suffer, n will be cruelly tormented and be burnt in hell
HEAR ME !!!
U gonna lead a long terrifying miserable life for wat U've done. U wont find peace anywhere u go and in anything u do.
BELIEVE ME !!!
U completely insane-disgusting-sickening moron and do not worth for a living
And
I swear to God, if i got ya, I'll stake ur XXX wif saw and torture u appallingly - PUBLICLY- yeah publicly SOB n Im sure da rest will join me sending u to hell.
U'll never be safe !!!
God is watching ye !!!
F**K YOU !!!
**
*
U dare to make dis woman in tears
**
U ruin their happiness and I pray u will never be happy in dis life and thereafter. I'll make u suffer -grrrrrr-
A message to fellow Malaysians
Its in grief to learn da body belongs to Nurin Jazlin
Its da moment we da Malaysians, launch our war 2 dis heartless sado-masochist paedophile SOB !!!
Truth be told, I refused to follow da stories of her, upon knowing da search is meeting an endless point, cuz I know da ending wud be a frustration.
But I swear 2 God, I never expect dis wud be da ending. Been sado-masochisted n molested (using cucumber n brinjals) is totally definitely disgusting-sickening-n da most UNFORGIVABLE!!!
The child's naked body was found stuffled in a foetal position inside a gym bag on Monday morning. Her intestines had ruptured after foreign objects were forced into her private parts.
Dis 'beast' really made my day bizarre !!!
He doesn't belong 2 our society. We shud get dis moron caught, allowing ourselves 2 do justice 2 dis poor child. Lets hold our hands 2gether, firming our hearts n minds - 2 drag dis SOB 2 justice. Dis is da very moment we da Malaysians regardless we Malay, Chinese, Indians and ors 2 show dat we dun tolerate Paeldophiles. At all !!!
We condemn sex abuse especially to children.
P/S Im sorry 4 da swearing words. but i cudnt help it. O Lord, pardon me.
Yours truly
Zokhri Idris
Its da Unofficial-National Mourning Day in Malaysia.
It will end da awaiting period by all Malaysians dat care
Its da truth dat we hardly to accept
Its da moment we da Malaysians, launch our war 2 dis heartless sado-masochist paedophile SOB !!!
Truth be told, I refused to follow da stories of her, upon knowing da search is meeting an endless point, cuz I know da ending wud be a frustration.
But I swear 2 God, I never expect dis wud be da ending. Been sado-masochisted n molested (using cucumber n brinjals) is totally definitely disgusting-sickening-n da most UNFORGIVABLE!!!
The child's naked body was found stuffled in a foetal position inside a gym bag on Monday morning. Her intestines had ruptured after foreign objects were forced into her private parts.
Dis 'beast' really made my day bizarre !!!
U ruined my day!!!
He doesn't belong 2 our society. We shud get dis moron caught, allowing ourselves 2 do justice 2 dis poor child. Lets hold our hands 2gether, firming our hearts n minds - 2 drag dis SOB 2 justice. Dis is da very moment we da Malaysians regardless we Malay, Chinese, Indians and ors 2 show dat we dun tolerate Paeldophiles. At all !!!
We condemn sex abuse especially to children.
P/S Im sorry 4 da swearing words. but i cudnt help it. O Lord, pardon me.
Yours truly
Zokhri Idris
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Just a note ...
Dear SC
No matter, even fate has taken us to different paths in life, you always stay in my heart forever and will be forgotten never.
Love always
XXX
p/s : besok wanzhu berbuka kat nikko hotel ngan committee MSLS. Jgn jeles. ngeeeeeee
Sunday, September 16, 2007
In Memoriam: The Indonesian's Earthquake Aftermath
Dear Lord,
Hear our prayers
Give us a cheerful heart when we are discouraged.
Our hearts ache for those who are suffering.We pray for those whose lives were lost, the families who grieve for them, all those who must rebuild shattered lives, and for infinite harmony with nature.
Guide us when we do not know what to do
Give us strength when we are tempted
Help us to be persevering when things are difficult
Comfort us when life brings us sorrow
Grant us courage when we are afraid
May Your Love & Peace prevail so that nothing will take away our joy
They said " Our Lord, we have wronged ourselves, and if Ye do not pardon us and have mercy upon us, we will surely be among the losers"
Glorious Qoran: Chapter 7 (Al-A'raf); 23
Hear our prayers
Give us a cheerful heart when we are discouraged.
Our hearts ache for those who are suffering.We pray for those whose lives were lost, the families who grieve for them, all those who must rebuild shattered lives, and for infinite harmony with nature.
Guide us when we do not know what to do
Give us strength when we are tempted
Help us to be persevering when things are difficult
Comfort us when life brings us sorrow
Grant us courage when we are afraid
May Your Love & Peace prevail so that nothing will take away our joy
They said " Our Lord, we have wronged ourselves, and if Ye do not pardon us and have mercy upon us, we will surely be among the losers"
Glorious Qoran: Chapter 7 (Al-A'raf); 23
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Because You Loved Me
A lullaby cherishing da 100th entry anniversary of 'Asignofthecreator':
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy that you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wing that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
XXX
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy that you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wing that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
XXX
Congratulations & Celebrations
Dis is 2 commomerate da 100th entry of 'Asignofthecreator'
Hurrah ...
Granted, it took place in da Holy Month of Ramadhan where pious Muslims devote themselves fasting, remembering da unfortunates and sacrificing their desires in da name of God (so no birthday cakes dis time lol)
I wud like 2 express my profoundest gratitude to God 4 giving me da clarity of mind n granting me serendipity thru out da whole course - da strengths 2 move my fingers drawing da words n stanzas, enabling em 2 connect us da mortals.
To all my learned readers n viewers (including da blog-hoppers) -grins- a mounting adulations 2 all da support n guidance given. Truth to be told, we've been 2 da downcast of hibernation period(s) (opps I did it again) but U kept on standing besides us n I can't re-pay dat loyalness shown, apart from saying a million thanks. Da fact is, we both growing n improvising wif da help of all of you.
YES YOU !!!
Even all presents in da world r gathered and sealed wif ribbons under da largest X'mas tree, dat wud still insufficiently amount my 'sincerest' appreciation 2 u, but deep inside me heart, da whole universe know dat I cudn't have reached 2 dis par without u.
U R DA BOMB !!!
Me n Asignofthecreator hope dat dis blog will flourish n blossom - bridging da hearts of entire humans (to sum at least) ngeeeee . Let dere be no war, no hatredness amongst all classes of homosapiens simply bcuz, we r da same b4 da eyes of God.
Thank you 4 being wif me thru hard n thin.
I love u more than u ever do.
Muahhhhhsss
xxx
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Thot of D Day ...
Dear SC
"Everyday brings new hopes in life. Hence never stop hoping even how bad u've failed y'day cuz, as long as we still breathing, our hearts will always hoping ... "
XXX
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
My '07 Ramadhan Resolution
"On behalf of Her Majesty The Queen of England, Scotland, Wales and Northern Ireland I hereby declare dat all Muslims residing in The UK territory dat thy shalt fast commencing Thursday 13 Sept 2007 a.c" (Penyimpan Mohor Besar Ratu Elizabeth II versi UK) Heh
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Mode: Alim n Wara' (Ngeeeeeeeeeeee)
2moro is da 1st day of fasting i.e. 1st day of Ramadhan al Mubarak (da blessing month). Asignofthecreator wud like to wish all Muslim readers n viewers a very happy blessed 142h Ramadhan. Hoping dat ye shalt gain pietiness and obedience while observing da rituals. most important, may Lord grant us heaven and close all da doors of hells -Amen-
Motion: Wat Ramadhan means to me ?
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Mode: Alim n Wara' (Ngeeeeeeeeeeee)
2moro is da 1st day of fasting i.e. 1st day of Ramadhan al Mubarak (da blessing month). Asignofthecreator wud like to wish all Muslim readers n viewers a very happy blessed 142h Ramadhan. Hoping dat ye shalt gain pietiness and obedience while observing da rituals. most important, may Lord grant us heaven and close all da doors of hells -Amen-
Motion: Wat Ramadhan means to me ?
1) No more cookies during da day
2) No more skipping 'Tarawih' prayers (geeeeeeeeeeeeee ... it has been da same 4 da past 4 years)
3) Reciting da Holy Qoran from cover to cover (will try me best dis year after a failure attempt in da previous year)
4) No more tight-hugging clothes or 3-quarter pants. MUST DRESS PROPER !! (haruslaaaaa kene selongkar jubah n serban bagai dlm wardrobe kannnn) Hehe
5) Refraining contacts wif outsiders esp AngChoonSeong!!! He makes me swear whenEVER chatted which isnt gud for me. n he likes condemning too while he knows I cant do dat while fasting.
6) Praying punctually. Sum1 has to tell me dat Fajr/Dawn/Subuh prayer is @ 0600 instead of 0700 -grins-
7) A moment 2 remember da unfortunate ones. So please dun invite me 2 Ramadhan Buffet or I shall eat like croc (ha ha ) metapmorphosing myself into python in da end.
I wud like 2 thank those who've sent me offline msgs, mobile texts or emails wishing me a Happy Ramadhan. Im wishing da same too to ye.
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XXX
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Summer Crusher
0146
Currently listening: 'Leaving On A Jetplane' by Chantal Kreviazuk
Feeling: Unease and depressed
Whenever I listen 2 dis song, it must be on da occassion dat I'm leaving sum1 or sum1 is leaving me behind - including dis very moment -
Da Truth:
I've met sum1 in da last couple of months. Let dat sum1 be known as 'Summer Crusher' aka SC -LOL- dat SC mite not even realise dat I was eyeing on SC ever since da 1st time we officially met. But we already met once, when we both boarding a bus in Manchester (to different locations back then). It was juz a glance.
Da SC I've met 4 da 2nd time during Malaysian Student Leaders Summit @ Nikko Hotel Kuala Lumpur
Da same SC I've been working 2gether during Kalsom 13th in Perlis
Da SC who didn't have da chance 2 say gudbye to me after dat n left me wif full of disappointment
Da SC who have made me waiting calls n texts every single day
Da SC who once promised 2 b a company when I'm lonely, but being avoiding me all dis while
Da SC who gives me hope @ da same time leaving me
n finally
Da very same SC who's 2moro gonna fly back 2 da place where SC belongs to (for da rest of da academic year)
X
To My Summer Crusher:
How time flies so fast leaving me wif all of our memories. As its just less than 24 hours left, Im wishing u a very best of luck in ur remaining years of studying.
I mite not be da best person u ever met in ur life, but i assure ye dat, whenever u put urself up in dis world, whether in success or in failures, u always have a place 2 stay in my mind and heart.
U will never and ever love or miss me, but dat doesn;t put an end 4 me 2 remember you
U mite dislike or disgust da way I'm bringing up myself but in my eyes, u are so adorable just being in da way u r
U mite think Im juz a useless guy u've met, n will bring u no benefit 2 u but @ least Im always support and hoping u can give da best 2 entire mankind
U will never know how much I gonna miss u, but I certainly know dat U'll never be forgotten even miles n miles away.
I've found ye and thank God 4 sending me an angel ...
So be happy !!!
Yours truly,
XXX
Currently listening: 'Leaving On A Jetplane' by Chantal Kreviazuk
Feeling: Unease and depressed
Whenever I listen 2 dis song, it must be on da occassion dat I'm leaving sum1 or sum1 is leaving me behind - including dis very moment -
Da Truth:
I've met sum1 in da last couple of months. Let dat sum1 be known as 'Summer Crusher' aka SC -LOL- dat SC mite not even realise dat I was eyeing on SC ever since da 1st time we officially met. But we already met once, when we both boarding a bus in Manchester (to different locations back then). It was juz a glance.
Da SC I've met 4 da 2nd time during Malaysian Student Leaders Summit @ Nikko Hotel Kuala Lumpur
Da same SC I've been working 2gether during Kalsom 13th in Perlis
Da SC who didn't have da chance 2 say gudbye to me after dat n left me wif full of disappointment
Da SC who have made me waiting calls n texts every single day
Da SC who once promised 2 b a company when I'm lonely, but being avoiding me all dis while
Da SC who gives me hope @ da same time leaving me
n finally
Da very same SC who's 2moro gonna fly back 2 da place where SC belongs to (for da rest of da academic year)
X
To My Summer Crusher:
How time flies so fast leaving me wif all of our memories. As its just less than 24 hours left, Im wishing u a very best of luck in ur remaining years of studying.
I mite not be da best person u ever met in ur life, but i assure ye dat, whenever u put urself up in dis world, whether in success or in failures, u always have a place 2 stay in my mind and heart.
U will never and ever love or miss me, but dat doesn;t put an end 4 me 2 remember you
U mite dislike or disgust da way I'm bringing up myself but in my eyes, u are so adorable just being in da way u r
U mite think Im juz a useless guy u've met, n will bring u no benefit 2 u but @ least Im always support and hoping u can give da best 2 entire mankind
U will never know how much I gonna miss u, but I certainly know dat U'll never be forgotten even miles n miles away.
I've found ye and thank God 4 sending me an angel ...
So be happy !!!
Yours truly,
XXX
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Malaysian's Budget of 2008 (excerpts)
I was one of da hundreds, if not thousands, of Malaysians who yawned and whined after 10 mins the Prime Minister on air. In compensating, Ive looked for da excerpts (wif a hand of a fren) in my mails and found one. So folks fellow Malaysians, below are da extracts from 2008 Budget tabled at da Parliament. Unfortunate, I cudnt consider myself receiving benefits from any of the classes tabled. shame =(
Salient points in 2008 Budget
Corporate tax slashed to 25%.
Corporate tax will be reduced to 25% in 2009. The government announced the first cut in corporate tax in nine years in last year’s budget, reducing the company tax rate to 27 percent this year and 26 percent in 2008, from 28 percent previously.
Reduce government red tape
Reduce the period for refund of income tax from six months to between 14-30 days for e-filing applications. Immediate registration of companies instead of three days previously.
Reduce the approval time for Environmental Impact Assessment from three months to five weeks. Cutting the processing period for work permit to seven days for skill workers, compared to 14 previously.
Multiple entry visas
Indian and Chinese nationals can apply for multiple entry visas in the country where they are residing or working, instead in their country of origin. This facility will be made available in international financial centres, such as New York , London , Hong Kong and Singapore , effective January 2008.
50% stamp duty exemption for houses.
A 50% stamp duty exemption on documents of transfer will be given for the purchase of one house of not more than RM250,000 per unit. This will rduce the cost of buying a house by up to RM2,000. An initial fund of RM400 million has been earmarked to increase bumiputera property investment in Iskandar Development Region in Johor.
More flexibility for SMEs
Small and Medium-side Enterprises (SMEs) will have the flexibility to pay taxes at the end of financial year instead of monthly instalments.
Education fees abolished.
The annual fees for primary and secondary schools will be abolished, effective 2008.The Text Book Loan Scheme will be provided to all students, irrespective of their families' income and with no restrictions on the number of eligible children. With this, schooling in Malaysia is now completely free.Free uniform for uniform activities for those students from families with monthly income of RM1,000 and below.
Increase allowance for teachers
Increase the allowance for special education teachers from RM100 to RM250 per month.
Raise the allowance for graduate substitute teachers from RM85 to RM150 per month.
Provide an allowance of RM60 per hour for degree holders and RM50 per hour for diploma holders teaching Chinese and Tamil languages in national schools.
More scholarships for higher education
The number of undergraduate students sponsored by Public Service Department in local universities from 5,000 students to 10,000 annually, beginning 2008.The cost of living allowance (Cola) for government-sponsore d students in local higher education institutions will be increased between 23% and 84%.The Cola for government-sponsore d overseas students in US, UK and Canada will be increased by up to 97%, almost double the current rate.
Tax relief for post-graduate students and sports equipment
Tax relief of up to RM5,000 on education fees be extended to all post-graduate students.The law will be amended to allow employers to provide financial assistance to enable workers to pursue post-graduate degrees, especially in new and high technology areas.Individual tax relief of up to RM300 a year be given to the purchases of sports and exercise equipment.
Encouraging ICT
Last mile network facilities providers be given Investment Allowance of 100% on capital expenditure incurred for broadband up to Dec 31, 2010.Import duty and sales tax exemptions be given on broadband equipment and consumer access devices.Tax deduction for employers on benefits in the form of new computers and broadband subscription fees for employees. Such benefits received by employees will also be tax exempted. Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission has allocated RM45 million for the implementation implementation of SchoolNet project to provide Internet services to schools.
Monthly withdrawals for EPF contributors
EPF contributors can make monthly withdrawals from the balance in Account 2 (30% of total contributions) . This will be effective from Jan 1, 2008 and for the financing of one house.This is for those who have to pay off their housing loan.
Stamp duty exemption for husband-wife property transfer
Full stamp duty exemption on the transfer of property from husband to wife.In cases where the wife wishes to transfer property to the husband, the same exemption applies.
More spending in public transportation
Over the next four years, RM12 billion will be spent to improve public transportation in Kuala Lumpur and Penang .To alleviate traffic congestion in Penang , the Penang Outer Ring Road (Porr) will be implemented on a tender basis shortly.
RM2 bil bond for senior citizens
A RM2 billion bond will be issued by Bank Negara Malaysia to be subscribed by senior citizens aged 55 years and above, who do not have permanent jobs.The maximum limit per person is RM50,000, with a maturity period of three years and a rate of return of 5% per year.To reduce the financial burden of the poor and needy senior citizens, the Government will increase their allowance from RM200 to RM300 per month, effective from Jan 1, 2008.
Higher allowance for the disabled
The disabled workers monthly allowance to increase from RM200 to RM300.A special assistance of RM300 per month for eligible persons taking care of the disabled, who are bed-ridden and patients suffering from chronic illness. Tax deduction on renovation costs in the work place incurred by employers for the disabled to encourage the private sector to hire more disabled workers.
Budget deficit down to 3.1%
The government has said that it will reduce its fiscal deficit in 2008 to 3.1% of gross domestic product from 3.2% in 2007. While it was estimated that the deficit is around 3.4% this year, it appeared to have been revised to 3.2% due to unexpected high income from oil exports and an increase in tax revenues.The budget deficit, the 11th in a row, has seen a progressive reduction since 2000 which stood at 5.5% then. The government has not set a deadline in its effort to wipe out the budget deficit, which as a share of GDP is the biggest in Southeast Asia . The budget deficit is due to the government spending more than it earned over the years.
Economic growth between 6% and 6.5% in 2008
The goverment is bullish on economic growth for next year - expected to be between 6% to 6.5%.Growth was 5.9% in 2006. It slowed to about 5.8% currently, but the government is maintaining its forecast for this year at 6%.
Total expenditure for 2008 Budget
The total expenditure for 2008 Budget is RM176.9 billion - 10.9% higher than the spending in 2007.Of this, RM128.8 billion is for operating expenditure while RM48.1 billion is for development expenditure.The development expenditure was RM46 billion in last year’s Budget.
What's not in 2008 Budget
No cut in income tax -
The income tax will remain at 28% while corporate tax will be slashed to 25% in 2009. There is also raise in the minimum taxable income level and the provision of higher tax relief for spouses, children and insurance payments.
No increase in sin tax - the government has already increased the excise duty on tobacco products by 25% two months ago. There is also no hike in alcohol duties.
No implementation of GST - the long-delayed goods and services tax will be put off to 2009. The GST was announced in 2005 and was to be implemented in January 2007.
No bonus for civil servants - Unlike last year, the 2008 Budget did not mention any bonus for civil servants this year.
XXX
P/S Full text of 2008 Budget Speech in PDF is available upon request (which admittedly, i dun bother to go down each lines of it) =)
Salient points in 2008 Budget
Corporate tax slashed to 25%.
Corporate tax will be reduced to 25% in 2009. The government announced the first cut in corporate tax in nine years in last year’s budget, reducing the company tax rate to 27 percent this year and 26 percent in 2008, from 28 percent previously.
Reduce government red tape
Reduce the period for refund of income tax from six months to between 14-30 days for e-filing applications. Immediate registration of companies instead of three days previously.
Reduce the approval time for Environmental Impact Assessment from three months to five weeks. Cutting the processing period for work permit to seven days for skill workers, compared to 14 previously.
Multiple entry visas
Indian and Chinese nationals can apply for multiple entry visas in the country where they are residing or working, instead in their country of origin. This facility will be made available in international financial centres, such as New York , London , Hong Kong and Singapore , effective January 2008.
50% stamp duty exemption for houses.
A 50% stamp duty exemption on documents of transfer will be given for the purchase of one house of not more than RM250,000 per unit. This will rduce the cost of buying a house by up to RM2,000. An initial fund of RM400 million has been earmarked to increase bumiputera property investment in Iskandar Development Region in Johor.
More flexibility for SMEs
Small and Medium-side Enterprises (SMEs) will have the flexibility to pay taxes at the end of financial year instead of monthly instalments.
Education fees abolished.
The annual fees for primary and secondary schools will be abolished, effective 2008.The Text Book Loan Scheme will be provided to all students, irrespective of their families' income and with no restrictions on the number of eligible children. With this, schooling in Malaysia is now completely free.Free uniform for uniform activities for those students from families with monthly income of RM1,000 and below.
Increase allowance for teachers
Increase the allowance for special education teachers from RM100 to RM250 per month.
Raise the allowance for graduate substitute teachers from RM85 to RM150 per month.
Provide an allowance of RM60 per hour for degree holders and RM50 per hour for diploma holders teaching Chinese and Tamil languages in national schools.
More scholarships for higher education
The number of undergraduate students sponsored by Public Service Department in local universities from 5,000 students to 10,000 annually, beginning 2008.The cost of living allowance (Cola) for government-sponsore d students in local higher education institutions will be increased between 23% and 84%.The Cola for government-sponsore d overseas students in US, UK and Canada will be increased by up to 97%, almost double the current rate.
Tax relief for post-graduate students and sports equipment
Tax relief of up to RM5,000 on education fees be extended to all post-graduate students.The law will be amended to allow employers to provide financial assistance to enable workers to pursue post-graduate degrees, especially in new and high technology areas.Individual tax relief of up to RM300 a year be given to the purchases of sports and exercise equipment.
Encouraging ICT
Last mile network facilities providers be given Investment Allowance of 100% on capital expenditure incurred for broadband up to Dec 31, 2010.Import duty and sales tax exemptions be given on broadband equipment and consumer access devices.Tax deduction for employers on benefits in the form of new computers and broadband subscription fees for employees. Such benefits received by employees will also be tax exempted. Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission has allocated RM45 million for the implementation implementation of SchoolNet project to provide Internet services to schools.
Monthly withdrawals for EPF contributors
EPF contributors can make monthly withdrawals from the balance in Account 2 (30% of total contributions) . This will be effective from Jan 1, 2008 and for the financing of one house.This is for those who have to pay off their housing loan.
Stamp duty exemption for husband-wife property transfer
Full stamp duty exemption on the transfer of property from husband to wife.In cases where the wife wishes to transfer property to the husband, the same exemption applies.
More spending in public transportation
Over the next four years, RM12 billion will be spent to improve public transportation in Kuala Lumpur and Penang .To alleviate traffic congestion in Penang , the Penang Outer Ring Road (Porr) will be implemented on a tender basis shortly.
RM2 bil bond for senior citizens
A RM2 billion bond will be issued by Bank Negara Malaysia to be subscribed by senior citizens aged 55 years and above, who do not have permanent jobs.The maximum limit per person is RM50,000, with a maturity period of three years and a rate of return of 5% per year.To reduce the financial burden of the poor and needy senior citizens, the Government will increase their allowance from RM200 to RM300 per month, effective from Jan 1, 2008.
Higher allowance for the disabled
The disabled workers monthly allowance to increase from RM200 to RM300.A special assistance of RM300 per month for eligible persons taking care of the disabled, who are bed-ridden and patients suffering from chronic illness. Tax deduction on renovation costs in the work place incurred by employers for the disabled to encourage the private sector to hire more disabled workers.
Budget deficit down to 3.1%
The government has said that it will reduce its fiscal deficit in 2008 to 3.1% of gross domestic product from 3.2% in 2007. While it was estimated that the deficit is around 3.4% this year, it appeared to have been revised to 3.2% due to unexpected high income from oil exports and an increase in tax revenues.The budget deficit, the 11th in a row, has seen a progressive reduction since 2000 which stood at 5.5% then. The government has not set a deadline in its effort to wipe out the budget deficit, which as a share of GDP is the biggest in Southeast Asia . The budget deficit is due to the government spending more than it earned over the years.
Economic growth between 6% and 6.5% in 2008
The goverment is bullish on economic growth for next year - expected to be between 6% to 6.5%.Growth was 5.9% in 2006. It slowed to about 5.8% currently, but the government is maintaining its forecast for this year at 6%.
Total expenditure for 2008 Budget
The total expenditure for 2008 Budget is RM176.9 billion - 10.9% higher than the spending in 2007.Of this, RM128.8 billion is for operating expenditure while RM48.1 billion is for development expenditure.The development expenditure was RM46 billion in last year’s Budget.
What's not in 2008 Budget
No cut in income tax -
The income tax will remain at 28% while corporate tax will be slashed to 25% in 2009. There is also raise in the minimum taxable income level and the provision of higher tax relief for spouses, children and insurance payments.
No increase in sin tax - the government has already increased the excise duty on tobacco products by 25% two months ago. There is also no hike in alcohol duties.
No implementation of GST - the long-delayed goods and services tax will be put off to 2009. The GST was announced in 2005 and was to be implemented in January 2007.
No bonus for civil servants - Unlike last year, the 2008 Budget did not mention any bonus for civil servants this year.
XXX
P/S Full text of 2008 Budget Speech in PDF is available upon request (which admittedly, i dun bother to go down each lines of it) =)
Thursday, September 06, 2007
W-H-Y
WHY ?
Why, dear Lord?
Why, ye acccurst Fates?
Why its been so hard for me?
Why I've been left mercilessly?
Why?
{thanks 2 mon paccka3, mon namrtb, mon xn3hb}
disturbing thoughts ...
Tuesday nite saw da whole of ss19 territory in midst if darkness. Upon listening 2 my favourite ‘beautiful girl’ by Sean Kingston, da blink of darkness suddenly comes to my eyes. Cudnt even shut my laptop properly. daym!!! (hopefully its alrite) .
Now wat to do?
Cant watch tele neither my astro
My phone batt is low hence I cudnt make calls
My MP3 player still not being charged
I cud have died in boredom. Fark arrrr ( owh pardon me, I shudnt swear, luckily its sya’ban still not ramadhan – so I will be forgiven) lol
So I walked around da area just to make sure everything’s safe; checked all da windows and doors (manalah tau rompakan terancang ker) haha. Feeling satisfied, I went back to my room, thinking ‘now wat’?
Even da whole house was in a complete black out, da moon was shining brite. I cud even see my neighbour houses vividly from my windows in my room. Da moonlight was showering all over. All praise due to God, despite a complete darkness in my house, it was so clear outside – as if like when da sunsets.
Without being told, I grabbed my chair and sat facing da window. Looking straight upwards, mermerising da god’s creation up above da sky. No wonder moon cud be so beautiful at nites. I thanked da moon. Without it, nites cud be so hallow. I praised God for such miracles. ( I bet if my parents weren’t around, I will climb up over da roof and lie down till dawn - enjoying da beauty of da nite)
Witnessing da hidden secret of da moon, invites me to do self-thinking .arghhhhh not again. I was asking myself – why up to dis moment I cudnt have made my parents happy?
Why all da days passed was full of quarrels and disagreements?
Why r they love to pick up on me even wif small stuffs?
Am I really bad juz because im jobless?
Does jobless mean im hopeless??
-Sobbing-
Mum dad, why do u hate me so much?
I know im not a gud son. But im trying my best to be da one.
I know I cant be a syariah lawyer or even a legal practitioner for u to proud of, but dats because I wanna do sumting else
I know u hate me seeing my frens, but they are just da ones dat I have in dis world after u
I know I always stay outside, but dat doesn’t mean Im engaging sumting bad
I know ive changed and u claim da change is in bad direction, but im just being myself and not being pretentious
I know I always procrastinate in praying, but im praying still (even my fajr prayers are always at 7) n trying 2 improve
I know I cant be like other ordinary guys, but im so tranquil in da way I am now
I know im not a gud muslim, but at least, im still ur son and forever will be ur son.
At dat moment, I cant help myself. My cheeks were painted wif delicate pearls of water which ever constantly merge to form tiny streams which I cud even feel a warm liquid merrying down into lines on my cheeks dropping one by one onto my lap. I cudnt take dis anymore.
I know u r hurt, but can u just feel how hurt I am inside.
Dad, why u being so harsh to me?
Perhaps, coming back home was a wrong decision. Yup, I shud have just stayed in d uk and leading my own personal life (which was really happy back then ). Perhaps I dun belong ere, despite dis is my hometown. Maybe, Malaysia isn’t for me to stay and live on.
At dis very moment, I wish cud fly back to uk and leaving all my sorrowness behind. I regret for taking decisions to come back home dis year. Its just not rite. Wrong timing, wrong situation hence wrong decision. I wish I cud just turn back da clock and remained in Manchester.
In da end, I dun care if all of u dun feel sorry 4 me. I am a bad son enw. So be it. I ve tried to patch things up wif my family but it seems all of my efforts pay no value in their eyes. And I had enough of trying. So be it.. carpe diem !!!
I dun care if u hate me cuz I know sumone out dere is waiting to love me.
At nites I cry
xxx
Now wat to do?
Cant watch tele neither my astro
My phone batt is low hence I cudnt make calls
My MP3 player still not being charged
I cud have died in boredom. Fark arrrr ( owh pardon me, I shudnt swear, luckily its sya’ban still not ramadhan – so I will be forgiven) lol
So I walked around da area just to make sure everything’s safe; checked all da windows and doors (manalah tau rompakan terancang ker) haha. Feeling satisfied, I went back to my room, thinking ‘now wat’?
Even da whole house was in a complete black out, da moon was shining brite. I cud even see my neighbour houses vividly from my windows in my room. Da moonlight was showering all over. All praise due to God, despite a complete darkness in my house, it was so clear outside – as if like when da sunsets.
Without being told, I grabbed my chair and sat facing da window. Looking straight upwards, mermerising da god’s creation up above da sky. No wonder moon cud be so beautiful at nites. I thanked da moon. Without it, nites cud be so hallow. I praised God for such miracles. ( I bet if my parents weren’t around, I will climb up over da roof and lie down till dawn - enjoying da beauty of da nite)
Witnessing da hidden secret of da moon, invites me to do self-thinking .arghhhhh not again. I was asking myself – why up to dis moment I cudnt have made my parents happy?
Why all da days passed was full of quarrels and disagreements?
Why r they love to pick up on me even wif small stuffs?
Am I really bad juz because im jobless?
Does jobless mean im hopeless??
-Sobbing-
Mum dad, why do u hate me so much?
I know im not a gud son. But im trying my best to be da one.
I know I cant be a syariah lawyer or even a legal practitioner for u to proud of, but dats because I wanna do sumting else
I know u hate me seeing my frens, but they are just da ones dat I have in dis world after u
I know I always stay outside, but dat doesn’t mean Im engaging sumting bad
I know ive changed and u claim da change is in bad direction, but im just being myself and not being pretentious
I know I always procrastinate in praying, but im praying still (even my fajr prayers are always at 7) n trying 2 improve
I know I cant be like other ordinary guys, but im so tranquil in da way I am now
I know im not a gud muslim, but at least, im still ur son and forever will be ur son.
At dat moment, I cant help myself. My cheeks were painted wif delicate pearls of water which ever constantly merge to form tiny streams which I cud even feel a warm liquid merrying down into lines on my cheeks dropping one by one onto my lap. I cudnt take dis anymore.
I know u r hurt, but can u just feel how hurt I am inside.
Dad, why u being so harsh to me?
Perhaps, coming back home was a wrong decision. Yup, I shud have just stayed in d uk and leading my own personal life (which was really happy back then ). Perhaps I dun belong ere, despite dis is my hometown. Maybe, Malaysia isn’t for me to stay and live on.
At dis very moment, I wish cud fly back to uk and leaving all my sorrowness behind. I regret for taking decisions to come back home dis year. Its just not rite. Wrong timing, wrong situation hence wrong decision. I wish I cud just turn back da clock and remained in Manchester.
In da end, I dun care if all of u dun feel sorry 4 me. I am a bad son enw. So be it. I ve tried to patch things up wif my family but it seems all of my efforts pay no value in their eyes. And I had enough of trying. So be it.. carpe diem !!!
I dun care if u hate me cuz I know sumone out dere is waiting to love me.
At nites I cry
xxx
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