Plan B: The Thing I Most Desired For

Rule #1: The thing you always wanted will never be yours.

Rule #2: God delays your wishes to spare you for something better.

Rule #1 + Rule #2 = Rule #3

I still want that thing I always wanted. And I will work my ass up for it, God willing.

To some people, they have Plan B as a contingency plan in case their ultimate plan isn’t working out. It’s a different case for me. Because Plan A seems to go rather smoothly for the time being, I seem cant find a way out, in order to pursue Plan B. In other words, I’m stuck with Plan A, which I’m still happy to be with.

Wait. What are these Plan A and Plan B? Can I be more specific? Sure.

Plan A:

To be a renowned figure in academia dwelling with International Terrorism and the Global Security Architecture. Other transnational threats like Terrorism Alleviation, Poverty Eradication, Environmental Protection, Weapons of Mass Destruction and Development, and Conflict and Dispute Settlement are also on the plate, which turn me being an expert and reference in Peace and Security field. I would write books, publish journals, teach and make a difference to students’ views in perceiving issues.

Plan B:

To be a Host/Moderator for self-empowerment Talk shows. Exactly like Oprah who reaches the world with her words. Anything on making a change in one’s life and changing the world for a better place, I’m up for it. Some say my oratory skills (minus the semi-English accent) are given by Him and shalt not go to a waste. Sincerely, I believe in that too.

So that’s the general picture of my life. Currently pursuing Doctoral Studies in Peace and Security (majoring in Travelism and Partylogy) I guess I’m aligning myself closer to Plan A. Of course its something I want to have and some1 I wanna be. But my instinct strongly tells me that I would be happier and more satisfactory if I’m pursuing Plan B. Certainly applying Rule #2, I guess I would still have a future with Plan B. In fact with a Doctoral Degree in Peace and Security, would make my presentations be convincingly and intellectually macho. Heh.

But the thing is…

What if I’m gonna stuck with Plan A for the rest of my life…

Sometimes, I wish I could turn back the time and reversed few things. I should have taken communication, journalism and literature during college. If only… But thinking realistically, I just need to gather all my strengths now to make a big turn in my life. But then, where to turn? How to turn? In the end, I’m back to square one. Ah well.

To give up and accept fate? Hurmmm I’m not sure. I could still try pursuing my dreams since God doesn’t want me to surrender so easily.

So, this is what I am, and what I’m going to be.

After all, Life is a Climb, But the View is Great (^_^)

This post is dedicated to a best friend of mine Natasha Haqim who is also facing more or less the same dilemma as mine (with slightly different facts)