~ To All My Female Frens ~

Currently playing: Beautiful by Punkd1


Following Minci (thanks dear, u're my source of inspiration) n on commomerating da Belated International Women's Day which took place sumwhere last week, I'm writing a letter 2 all of my female frens who have come 2 my life till dis very moment I breath.


Dear Female Frens,

I wished I've told all of u about dis sooner but dere was never a gud time 4 me 2 say it. Plus, I'm scared 2 hurt u by bursting all da larva which been kept boiling 4 ages deep inside my volcano heart. Take dis 2 da heart cuz I've no intention 2 hurt u, but for telling da truth; nothing da truth but only the truth.



To My Female Frens Who Left,

Did I hurt You? Have I offended u in anyway? Let me know. Allow me 2 fix it. Ask m dat question if its an answer dat u seek. Why did u leave me just like dat? Did I not treat u as a gud fren? Wat were U not happy about?

Wat Wud U ..... (inspired by Amanda)

"I would close my eyes. And pretend that we're alright. And thinking that we're still together. I would try to free. From the battles all inside me. When every wrong seems so right. Are we better off as friends. I don't think we understand. Words that cut so deep left on the way. What would you say to me. If we have never met before. If I still feel the way I do. I would sing a song. If that's what you hope to hear. A melody is but a minor. All the nights above. Sharing each other. Chasing cars in a cycle"


(I cud feel warm liquid merry streams racing each other down my cheeks)




To My Female Frens Who Have Drifted Away,

Why izzit dat I feel dat we have grown apart? Why do u have 2 strengthen da myth dat if a single male fren will loose all his frenships n frens once he's seeing sum1 new? Don't u know dat I may still need u 4 advice n comfort? Have I changed tremendously eversince I'm in a relationship?

I just wanna u 2 know, no matter wat happens, Frens R Forever. Its not built upon status - whether u r single or non single.




To My Female Frens Who Always Used Me ...
(4 watever reasons such s 4 Religion n da'wa, in study, 4 my money ... etc ... )

I forgive U. I'll try (@ least). Even da wound is still bleeding inside. I'll try 2 heal it. yeah, by meself. Even da scar will remain everlastingly. I' ve been thinking n asking, why r u doing dis 2 me? Did I give u any harm in ur previous life dat lead u 2 pay dis 'merciless' revenge in my current life?

I just wish I'll b da very last person 4 ur 'heartless' action. Please stop doing dis 2 others as it hurts deeply n severely. In da end, ppl will learn 2 hate u and u'll be left alone. God knows how hard one's trying 2 cope after been deceived badly. by a devil with an angel look.





To My Female Frens Who Starting 2 Hate Me,

Please DONT. becuz I cud feel u hate like a bitter cold of da nite. Its da worse ever punishment dat U cud ever give 2 me. Tell me, izzit worth punishing me just beciz I turn up not in da way u expected? Am I deserved 2 b punished just becuz me want being myself? Is sum1 punishable on da grounds he isnt able to opt out - race, religion,belief, way of life or even his sexual orientation? Or izzit da reason I cant be in love wif u justify ur action 2 leave n hate me?


(sobbing ...)

I who adored u, who thinks of u as a perfect fren any1 cud asked 4. I'm sorry 4 da pain I've caused u. I dun mean 2 hurt u, but I cant take it anymore.




To My Female Frens Who Starting 2 Fall 4 Me,

Please DONT. Just DONT. Befriend me just 4 da sake of being frens. Nothing more, nothing else. Treat me s a fren for i'll treat u s my world.
And please dun put any ope I'll fall in love wif u just because I treat U more than any1 else cud do. As I said, be my fren, and I'll be ur world. Do not ruin our frenship 4 I like just da way it is.








To My Female Frens Who Always Being Dere,
especially in da time I need da most.

No matter wat, whoever u r,whenever and wherever, I LOVE U.
No matter how far da distance keeps us apart, U r always in my mind and heart.
I thank you 4 ur presence thru thick and thin, thru da stormy weather of my life we've sailed 2gether.

As Much As I Love U, I'll Miss U Even More.

All in all, I adore all of my female frens. May our frenship lasts and stay pure from any conflicts and misunderstandings. U gurls complete me !!!

'Kerna Dirimu Begitu Berharga'

Yours truly,

Zack Idris

xxx