I must say many things took place in my life last (immediate) year. Some of em fallen in its place well most of em not. I’ve stood still (although weakening and loosing) facing obstacles came n I fought wif me sword n shield. No doubts, countless tears n sweat have been made throughout da past 365 days. Ppl cum ppl go in those period dat made me stronger and I swear no matter wat, I’ll still shoot da stars of mine, even without u being by my side ... I’ll raise, I’ll fight and I’ll die if dats da price 2 b paid in achieving da aims n dreams cuz I know even if I fail, Im still b higher above others.
2008 wasnt about an ordinary year. I have learnt loads of things, witnessed a lot of incidents dat sumhow, allegedly, changed my interpretation of life. Some argue I’ve changed drastically from da days they known me b4. Heaven knows why, my dear. But all I know, reforms must b made in order 2 suit contemporary surroundings. True, Zokhri is no longer an angel cuz he’s been surrounded by da devils. He is no longer kind as life taught him 2 b cruel. He will no longer believe in his ideal fantasy of love n frenship whereas da reality has portrayed otherwise.
2008 taught me dat ppl will not always be by my side, no matter how closed they r 2 us (family, frens, loved ones). Truth b told, da biggest objections I have received came from me family members which I then realised, 4 sum1 best 2 understand me, to love me dearly doesn’t av 2 b blood-related. In fact, becuz of dis blood-related relationship, it has made me life upside down; feeling lost without any directions 2 go. Ironically, I am a world 2 da others who believe dat I can b da best being in da way I am. I am a world 2 em despite not being truly cherished by my own biological family. U mite call dis harsh, unreasonable and ‘it-shudnt-be-dis-way’ thingy. Wif all due respect, I fully appreciate dat. But isn’t it dat i’m da best 2 understand me family than thou? 4 watever remarks u mite av called it, dun get me wrong. Im and will not disowning neither leaving dis ppl. I am and will forever still love em till da end of everything. Its juz dat, da love transpires in a different way. Quoting my learned brother Thomas Lum, he mentions, “its juz a chemistry dat children fight wif their parents, call it odd call it sinful, but dats da way it works between dis two subjects.” Its juz da way they love each other, in other words. And I accept dat as my destiny sumting dat almighty Lord as given onto me.
I dunno, why, up 2 dis point, my 2008 rambling encircle on da expression of frustration and despondency. It wont b fair not 2 acknowledge da happiness 2008 has given to me. Not juz few byt wud cost a significant amount, if I may rate it. 2008 saw da re-unification of two souls, which were a parted 4 1 year, despite they were know each other 4 3 years. Thanks 2 September 4 made dis happened n I swear, nothing crossed me mind, prior 2 dat, dat I’ll re-meet dis person again in my life. We, indirectly or self-understandably bringing our life into our own path, without da reach of each other. But came September proves dis 2 b wrong and indeed dis 2 souls were still loving each other n their temporary separation was a mistake 2 b learnt by both. N now we r happy in each others’ arms, strengthening da love and bond between us day by day.
2008 brought me closer 2 my destination. Although da mission wasn’t totally accomplished, but Im proud 2 announce it was deemed successful in certain extents. Im getting closer day by day, n wif prayers n hard work, Im sure I’ll hit it on. Still da progress is sumting Im proud of n feel thankful for being in it. Although it didn’t bring me dere (juz yet), @ leasr I’ve found my escapade from da hellish working lifestyle. Gosh, Zokhri will never enjoy work, and so do u, rite? In da end, going back 2 uni is a turning point n has made me realised da need of utilising my young-ness (if dere’s such word in dictionary) moment 2 do anything dat I want, being anywhere I desire 2.
Furthermore, 2008 has made me determined wat do I really want in life. I admit ever since graduation till late 2007 (n even in early 2008), I was vague n clueless wat do I really want 4 da years 2 cum. It changed seasonally till a spark has ignited in me and dats da direction I am heading for (without any doubts or half-hearted). God willing, dis wud b my future n I pray dat He will make it easy 4 me till da end (although I know it wont be easy ... Ha Ha) n now Im no longer hanging on da air, looking n searching cuz I have already found it. I have embarked da steps to it and whether I’ll b flying, running, swimming, walking or even crawling, I’ll never give up n will make sure it will happen.
O Lord, help me !!!
Until da end of 2008, I believe, I have made da best of it. I’ve given my utmost best, living me days and moments passed n Im glad I’ve done dat without any fear or feeling less-superior 2 others. I took control of my life n didn’t allow da other 2 take over (even a bit). Still, dere always be a room of improvement shud I had more time. I cud av done better if I know how 2 do it in da first place =). Sokay Zokh, dats life innit? Its a journey and not a destination, n da journey u r travelling wif began from da day u see da world till da day u no longer see it. Its a journey of improving urself 2 b better, learning from ur mistakes n struggling 4 a better, higher place dat u deserve.
U go boy =)
2008 wasnt about an ordinary year. I have learnt loads of things, witnessed a lot of incidents dat sumhow, allegedly, changed my interpretation of life. Some argue I’ve changed drastically from da days they known me b4. Heaven knows why, my dear. But all I know, reforms must b made in order 2 suit contemporary surroundings. True, Zokhri is no longer an angel cuz he’s been surrounded by da devils. He is no longer kind as life taught him 2 b cruel. He will no longer believe in his ideal fantasy of love n frenship whereas da reality has portrayed otherwise.
2008 taught me dat ppl will not always be by my side, no matter how closed they r 2 us (family, frens, loved ones). Truth b told, da biggest objections I have received came from me family members which I then realised, 4 sum1 best 2 understand me, to love me dearly doesn’t av 2 b blood-related. In fact, becuz of dis blood-related relationship, it has made me life upside down; feeling lost without any directions 2 go. Ironically, I am a world 2 da others who believe dat I can b da best being in da way I am. I am a world 2 em despite not being truly cherished by my own biological family. U mite call dis harsh, unreasonable and ‘it-shudnt-be-dis-way’ thingy. Wif all due respect, I fully appreciate dat. But isn’t it dat i’m da best 2 understand me family than thou? 4 watever remarks u mite av called it, dun get me wrong. Im and will not disowning neither leaving dis ppl. I am and will forever still love em till da end of everything. Its juz dat, da love transpires in a different way. Quoting my learned brother Thomas Lum, he mentions, “its juz a chemistry dat children fight wif their parents, call it odd call it sinful, but dats da way it works between dis two subjects.” Its juz da way they love each other, in other words. And I accept dat as my destiny sumting dat almighty Lord as given onto me.
I dunno, why, up 2 dis point, my 2008 rambling encircle on da expression of frustration and despondency. It wont b fair not 2 acknowledge da happiness 2008 has given to me. Not juz few byt wud cost a significant amount, if I may rate it. 2008 saw da re-unification of two souls, which were a parted 4 1 year, despite they were know each other 4 3 years. Thanks 2 September 4 made dis happened n I swear, nothing crossed me mind, prior 2 dat, dat I’ll re-meet dis person again in my life. We, indirectly or self-understandably bringing our life into our own path, without da reach of each other. But came September proves dis 2 b wrong and indeed dis 2 souls were still loving each other n their temporary separation was a mistake 2 b learnt by both. N now we r happy in each others’ arms, strengthening da love and bond between us day by day.
2008 brought me closer 2 my destination. Although da mission wasn’t totally accomplished, but Im proud 2 announce it was deemed successful in certain extents. Im getting closer day by day, n wif prayers n hard work, Im sure I’ll hit it on. Still da progress is sumting Im proud of n feel thankful for being in it. Although it didn’t bring me dere (juz yet), @ leasr I’ve found my escapade from da hellish working lifestyle. Gosh, Zokhri will never enjoy work, and so do u, rite? In da end, going back 2 uni is a turning point n has made me realised da need of utilising my young-ness (if dere’s such word in dictionary) moment 2 do anything dat I want, being anywhere I desire 2.
Furthermore, 2008 has made me determined wat do I really want in life. I admit ever since graduation till late 2007 (n even in early 2008), I was vague n clueless wat do I really want 4 da years 2 cum. It changed seasonally till a spark has ignited in me and dats da direction I am heading for (without any doubts or half-hearted). God willing, dis wud b my future n I pray dat He will make it easy 4 me till da end (although I know it wont be easy ... Ha Ha) n now Im no longer hanging on da air, looking n searching cuz I have already found it. I have embarked da steps to it and whether I’ll b flying, running, swimming, walking or even crawling, I’ll never give up n will make sure it will happen.
O Lord, help me !!!
Until da end of 2008, I believe, I have made da best of it. I’ve given my utmost best, living me days and moments passed n Im glad I’ve done dat without any fear or feeling less-superior 2 others. I took control of my life n didn’t allow da other 2 take over (even a bit). Still, dere always be a room of improvement shud I had more time. I cud av done better if I know how 2 do it in da first place =). Sokay Zokh, dats life innit? Its a journey and not a destination, n da journey u r travelling wif began from da day u see da world till da day u no longer see it. Its a journey of improving urself 2 b better, learning from ur mistakes n struggling 4 a better, higher place dat u deserve.
U go boy =)
N now 2008 closes, leaving behind da sweetness n da bitterness of life. It was a fulfilling year wif loads of things 2 b learnt n 2 b cherished. N Im glad I’ve made it. N I thank 2 all who have stayed by me 4 da past 365 days. I cudnt av done it without u b by my side. N I pray may our acquaintance shall remain 4 ever, 2gether we walk through da sunny n stormy days of which 2009 is yet 2 offer.
Above all, I thank you dear Lord, for granting me life – another second 2 breath on dis mortal earth. A gud servant of thou I am not, but Im always be gratitude 4 wat u ve given me.
To ye My Lord, I Seek Repentence and Your Guidance ... Amen
P/S : I still think dat ‘Titanic’ is da best movie ever produced in dis century. Matilaaaa feeling sorang2 katanyeh.
Sayonara 2008,
XXX
4 comments:
Whatever the obstacles were, whatever people had and may think about u, I'll never lose faith in u. Because I know u're absolutely the same Abg Wan ever since I know u. Let the judgementalist people sentence u guilty or whichever evilness they think u might fit in, because u still have good friends around that know who u are and believe in u. And love u. One of them is me.
Remember, our love is forever unconditional.
Happy new year 2009. May The Almighty grant u happiness, success, tranquility, prosperity and a better life ahead.
Love,
Aya
(^_^)
Dear Sarah Mohd Shukor,
You will never disappoint me in giving wonderful n constructive comments. I feel ease listening to u. and da only thing im thinking now is not to let others hurt u no matter wat cost it takes. sacirficing for u is out of da question and i'll do anything to make u feel happy.
i dun care bout da others or wat do they think bout me. cuz i know far away up north in a cold land of an ex-soviet soil, dere's you who will be wif me through da iups and down.
forever and ever our love is unconditional.
and wishing you da same (if not better) for da coming 2009. cant wait to see u back home for good as Doctor Sarah Shukor
Love u too,
A Wann
(^_^)
BAD ZAKY X3
Jun Nee
My bad lol
xxx
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