In Memory of da late Xda 2i (1st September 2005 - 29th December 2007)

Da most scary thing that I thot, has happening 2 me

Just happened

Without even an opportunity 2 retrieve – even wif a blink of eyes

Dear all,

I am now hand-phone less

Just lost it yesterday (damn it)

N da funny @ worst part of it, it was stolen from my bag when I was performing my rituals @ surau KLCC prayer room
(I tgh solat jemaah lagi okkkkk)

Huhu …

Sokay,
Im now an adult. Wont freak out juz because loosing a phone. It was an old phone enw. Thot of getting a niu one middle of next year. But I guess I dun have 2 wait dat long.

Actually, its not da phone dat I’ll be missing about. Its da content u b**tard thief. I ve lost all da precious contacts plus da lovely texts dat I got from u (especially from h_ _ & SC) -blushing-

Now I really feel like bursting … huhu

Takpelaaaaa, takde rezeki (calming myself)

Or maybe it’s a sign dat God will grant me da chance to fly back to da UK in return. Yipppeeeee (which I really hope dat is da case)

So dear mr thief, (takkan perempuan yg masuk surau laki kannnn)
I will forgive u shud I landed myself in Heathrow next September. If its not, I tuntut kat akhirat jer laaaaaa. LOL

To others,
Please text me provide me ur contact details for immediate use. Alternatively, u cud email at iamurworld83@yahoo.co.uk or whereisthelove83@gmail.com Donations r welcome too. I'll provide my a/c details if ur interested heh!!!
appreciate it loads guys xxx


-Two days more- hurraaaaaaahh

So Much 4 X'mas, huh ? (Version 2)

It was only less than 24 hours since I posted about P-E-A-C-E

N

Dis is wat I get in return


Pakistan’n Bhutto Assasinated

Pakistani opposition leader Benazir Bhutto has been shot dead after a political rally.
Ms Bhutto, 54, died in hospital after being shot in the neck and chest.

"She has been martyred," said party official Rehman Malik.

The assassin struck moments after Ms Bhutto addressed crowds of supporters in the city of Rawalpindi.

She left the podium flanked by men in suits and stepped into an armoured car but as the vehicle made its way through the crowds, Ms Bhutto appeared through the roof to wave to supporters.
Moments later the attacker opened fire, shooting her in the neck and chest before blowing himself up.

Police officer Mohammad Shahid said: "The man first fired at Bhutto's vehicle. She ducked and then he blew himself up."

At least 16 other people were killed in the blast.

Pakistani President Pervez Musharraf said her assassination was the work of terrorists and he called on the people for their support as he declared three days of mourning.

"This cruelty is the work of those terrorists with whom we are fighting," Musharraf said in a brief televised address.

"The biggest threat to Pakistan and this nation is from these terrorists. I seek unity and support from the nation. We will not sit and rest until we get rid of these terrorists, root them out."

Opposition groups warned that the killing could spark civil war in the nuclear armed nation.


XXX

So much 4 peace, huh?

How Irony

O Lord, grant us ur mercy. May da anger and da hatred souls be gone from dis world



R.I.P Benazir Bhutto
R.I.H u bomber



-sadly ushering 2007 end-

So Much 4 X'mas, huh ?

Found a reali gud surmon 2day @ college.

Its Pope John Paul’s appeal 4 peace.

Thot of sharing bcuz its sumting 4 we, not only 4 da Christians 2 ponder upon, but all existing human mortals on dis planet.

N

I think da surmon is brilliant. Hitting da nose of da high class leaders 2 da very down level of commoners (like us!!!)

So have a look, n take a deep breath, reflecting on our surrounding


XXX


Today peace has become, throughout the world, a preoccupation not only for those responsible for the destiny of nations but even more so for broad sections of the population and innumerable individuals who generously and tenaciously dedicate themselves to creating an outlook of peace and to establish genuine peace between peoples and nations. This is comforting. But there is no hiding the fact that in spite of the efforts of all men and women of good will, there are still serious threats to peace in the world. Some of the threats take the form of divisions within various nations; others stem from deep-rooted and acute tensions between opposing nations and blocs within the community.

In reality, the confrontations that we witness today are distinguished from those of past history by certain new characteristics. In the first place they are worldwide: even a local conflict is often an expression of tensions originating elsewhere in the world. In the same way, it often happens that a conflict has profound effects far from where it broke out. Another characteristic is totality: present day tensions mobilize all the forces of the nations involved; moreover, selfish monopolization and even hostility are to be found today as much in the way economic life is run and in the technological application of science as in the way that the mass media or military resources are utilized.

Elsewhere, fear of a precarious peace, military and political imperatives, and economic and commercial interest lead to the establishment of arms stockpiles or to the sale of weapons capable of appalling destruction. The arms race, then, prevails over the great tasks of peace, which ought to unite peoples in new solidarity; it fosters sporadic but murderous conflicts and builds up the gravest threats. It is true that at first sight the cause of peace seems to be handicapped to a crippling extent.

But we must reach peace. Peace, as I said earlier, is threatened when uncertainty, doubt, and suspicion reign, and violence makes good use of this. Do we really want peace? Then we must dig deep within ourselves, and going beyond the divisions we find within us and between us, we must find the areas in which we can strengthen our convictions that human beings’ basic driving forces and the recognition of their real nature carry them toward openness to others, mutual respect, community and peace.

The course of this laborious search for the objective and universal truth about humanity, and the result of the search, will develop men and women of peace and dialogue, people who draw both strength and humility from a truth that they realize they must serve and not make use of for partisan interests.


Lets God’s Love Unite Us All,

4 days to 2008

Da Least I Can Do

I have a special friend who I always care and adore, but just cudnt say it thru. Its hurt learning dat somebody dat u care n concern, having da hardest time in life, but all u can do is nothing but only to pray fom far. U cudnt even lend ur ears, afraid of it will create a burden to the existing barrier and dilemma.

Ppl say, whatever comes from da heart, falls back to da heart. Even u whisper da sincerest wish to someone, at the highest mountain of earth – surrounded wif clouds and midst, da wind will take it away till it lands to da ears of da person. Hence, allow me to whisper my thoughtful prayers n hope to h_ _ in my blog, even I know they will never be heard to da person I care.

Dats da least I can do for a special friend

Dear friend,

Heard u r facing a hard moment dis tyme, but I’m sure dis isn’t da 1st. We both know dat u’ve encountered far more disastrous than dis. But u’ve made it thru. Believe me dear warior, dis is just a continuous of melancholic stanzas in life. The hardest time will pass, for u 2 reap da sweet moments dat follow.

Truth be told, I dun know how much sadness, undescribable n speechless linger ur thot @ da moment. But knowing ur notes, I know sumting real bad has happened. Even how useless or rubbish they rate you, or u weigh da ultimate outcome, every days passed is a process of learning. Bet me, even while walking down da lane in da middle of da nite, surrounded by darkness n serenity – doing nothing, carrying nothing, da heart n mind still learn

No one deserves to be lonely, but even one encounters, dere’s sumting can be gained. Da math is easy (despite I know I shudnt easily created maths formulae)

Loneliness (L) = Less Contact (LC)
LC = Less Commitment (LC2)
LC2 = More Focus (study + prep) – (meeting + activities)
More Focus = Success

Hence, Loneliness (L) = Focus (F) x Success (S) 2
L = FS2

Admittedly, it wudnt be as powerful as Einstein’s E=MC2, but its enough to shake ur mind

Muahahahahahaha

As to trust my dear, remember – dat trust is not to be given, but to be honoured. Thus, trust doesn’t come easily n we ought to trust nobody but for ourselves. Simply becuz, no one cud understand u better than u do

I know I am not included in ur circle of frens, justifying dat I ve no rites 2 spell all of these vividly to you. Da only least I can do, is to put dis in my blog, 4 da whole world 2 know how much I treasure you (even u will never know)

(^_^)

In da end, how bad da world has turned its back on you, I will never let u walk alone. Despite I cant hold ur arms, guiding u 2 da rite path walking side by side, I’m still be wif u. No matter how much u’ve succeeded in life or how bad u’ve failed, I’ll never look down on u

Simply bcuz

FRIENDSHIP IS UNCONDITIONAL

&

Dis is wat I am. Offering unconditional presence, serving everything, expecting nothing in return.




Thru thick and thin,
XXX

"KISS"

Hey peeps,

I’m back after a long period of hibernation. Yea yeah lame excuses, Zokhri !!!

LOL

So wats up here?

My Friendster Stats: Back to Uni n still missing sum1 terribly (muahahahaha)

My Facebook Stats: Zokhri is starting his first week @ Uni and he’s feeling gud going back to Skewl.

My Real-life Stats: Scared & anxiously waiting for 2008. Sumting huge is about to happen, I believe

-wishes now .... -

So to all Muslim frens,
Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemenangan & Maaf Zahir Batin

My Christian mates,
Happy Yuletide to thou
HO HO HO Merry X’mas
Av a lovely remarkable X’mas dis yer

Da remainings,
Eppy Niu Yer 2008
Lets usher da coming 2008 wif JOY n HOPE

Dats it 4 an update.


Yours sincerely
XXX

Memoirs of Wan-Z

Dear all,

I promised sum1 dat I will write sumthing on my days at Eon Bank’s Group Risk Management, and now even the time elapses, still I am bound to fulfill my promise as promise will always be kept no matter what.

Thus you will find this letter of heart backdated, but still I wanna share wif the whole world how lucky I am to be da chosen ones joining da clan. And I will bring along everything been treasured while 78 days been part of their lives.

Enjoy


XXX


Dearest team,

In less than an hour, I’ll be stepping out from dis department, bringing in with me a bunch of experience, chapters of warmth memories.

How cud I explain my state of mind and feelings @ dis very moment? A state of joy 4 a niu beginning n a melancholic feel for a recent ending.

How cud I 4get da memories I’ve been thru ever since da first day I moved in?

How cud I make a move, learning and leaving behind a treasure of friendship dat we built, we sustained, n we cherished all dis while?

Its hard. Really hard indeed.

Of all da reasons I cud merge, dere’s only one I cud search – “I got 2 do wats da best 4 me”

Abg Halim sed ‘leaving GRM wud be a loss as Risk Management is a a high demand in market” All I cud say – “I got 2 do wats da best 4 me”

I cud see how disappoint Zairi was upon realizing my leaving, still I will say – “I got 2 do wats da best 4 me” mentor

Kak Yaty feels sumting will be missing and once proclaimed ‘takde Wan Z sunyilaaaa GRM ni” I’m sorry Kak Ti, “I got 2 do wats da best 4 me”

Syira n Vicki will miss a gud companion, a gud listener, still “I’m sorry gurls, I got 2 do wats da best 4me”

Blatantly true. Saying sorry aint easy. Its da hardest word.

For whatever reasons speculating upon my resignation, I got nothing else to raise up but to say “I got 2 do wats da best 4 me”

N I will now take dis stage 2 give my profoundest expressions of gratitude to God for everything He has made 2 me allowing me 2 spend sum parts of my life wif da rest of u, cherishing da gud time of laughters n tears (tapi takdelaaa smp nanes kannn)

Here goes my deepest:

Thank you Puan Zarina aka XXX for once putting me da trust, giving me da opportunity 2 try. U mite regard me breaching ur trust and confidence, but 2 da very least, I’ve given my best shot in giving my service.

Thank you Mr Choo 4 hinting me da signs 2 pursue my aims n dreams. U always be a gud fren 2 me. Ur experience inspired me 2 reach da stars up in da sky, even my feets nailed down 2 earth.

Thank you Chris for da motherly hospitality and guidance portrayed from da very first day I started

Thank you Zairi 4 da unconditional help n care even before I embarked working. I cud still remember ur worriness upon learning my disappearance in Sogo. To me, its so sweet.

Thank you Kak Ti, for being not only my colleague but an Ummi 2 me (I wont procrastinate my prayers next time) hehe

Thank you Wati Eok Eok 4 educating dat a gap in age doesn’t put a big deal

Thank you Iza@Roe allowing me to recall da gud-ol-days of ours in Manchester. God willing, one day, we’ll take da tram circling da city from Arndale

Thank you Kak Sha 4 being a gud listener, sum1 I can talk 2 about everything. Wishing u a very best of luck in ur endeavours.

Thank you Abg Halim, despite u being flirty, deep inside you, I know u r such a gud hubby and a gud dad

Thank you Zoe, Gan n Liew, despite having differences in race, religion and unit, we able to build a bridge amongst us. Its da bridge of love and respect.

Thank you Evonne, for assisting wherever n whenever I seek ye

Thank you Syira n Vicki for massive of info n sharing 2gether. U both r such a nice peep 2 hang out wif n had shown, being pious 2 one’s religion never stop us from loving the others. For God is Love.

Thank you Kak Ina. Even wif a limitation of time 2 know ye, we became gud buddies in da end

Thank you Hazimi Eok Eok and Adzhar for all da jokes and stress- relief treatment given. To all ‘Every nite is a Friday Nite. Ha ha.

Thank you Kak Siti 4 ur warmth smile n assistance. Without u, Mee Goreng Kasih Nan Suci n Roti Jala Chenta Di Semi wud never be true. Plus, it was a perfect lunch telling ya

Thank you Bad 4 admiring all my words n sayings. Ppl say, those which come from da heart, falls back 2 da heart. N now, I’ve a reason 2 keep on writing. Ngeeeeeee (grinning)

Thank you Mrs Chan 4 letting me know bout u n ur family. Fear not, U’ll find sumone who is gonna be better/nicer than me –Fingers crossed-

Thank you Ae Ho 4 ur smile and jokes contributed. I still remember n will always remember da connection between ‘bongkok’ n ‘cara bermain’ as been taught.

Thank you Julian 4 da motherly care, even its just weeks we’ve known each other, da bonds grow rapidly. Please remember me in ur prayers.

Thank you Miza, 4 all ur advice be wif working or love aka “Resepi kesejahteraan suami isteri”

Thank you Ila 4 tellin me how to get a bowl of soup when fever struck me down

Thank you Adura 4 da lifts, 4 da guidance n unconditional, third-party-who-has-no-any-political-interest piece of advice

Thank you Lat 4 teaching, age will never make u old. Its wat u feel, innit?

Thank you Jac 4 reminding dat life must be enjoyed while its still last. Life is short n we shud live it 2 da fullest.

Thank you Kak Liza 4 making a big laugh in every 8 hours of working in da department

Thank you Kamar 4 da ride, 4 da treat n 4 all da sharings. Worry never, they are safe wif me. Shud u need sum1 2 talk to, U know wat 2 do

Thank you Kak Mai 4 being dere

Thank you Zuzana@Zue-Z 4 accompanying me when da lights go out, walking 2gether 2 da station (tapi kiter tak wat paper kannnn)

Newbies Wan A n Firdaus thanks. Even a small chat cud create 1000 of memories

Newly joined Steve, thanks 4 being dere. Ur presence lights me 2wards da end of my service. N I thank you. Please take care ofKak Ti, Watie n Iza for me.

Lastly, to all da names who I haven’t mentioned, dat doesn’t make u less special than aboves. In my mind, u always be a great person.

I am sorry 4 all da wrong doings be intentionally or unintentionally hurting you. It will never come across my mind to do so, but still, I am juz an ordinary human leading to an ordinary life. To sum, my resignation will never be justified, but as told “I got 2 do wats da best 4 me”

Hence, Wan Z is kneeling on da ground, holding his hands 2gether n sed “I’m sorry” aka “Maafkan saya”

My last words – “just remember wherever life has brought u 2 certain stages, whether u encounter success or failures, u always have a place to stay in my mind and in my heart”

Simply becuz

Goodbye will never be a farewell


Yours … always,
Zokhri aka Wan-Z