2010: A Letter to Me Familia

My dearest brothers and sister,

It has been six days passed for the next chapter of our life. My apologies for not being able to wish you a very happy blessed New Year for 2010. Doesn’t matter even it is not an Islamic celebration nor important dates to you both, 2010 comes with many expectation and targets that we plan to achieve. For this very reason, I believe New Year is an important moment – giving oneself to reflect his/her achievement in the past 365 days and what s/he could do better in the next cycle. I had safely arrived in campus after a long winter trip and class had resumed today. The tiredness can still be felt, but I just don’t want to miss the chance of wishing you both a very happy new year.

Another year comes bringing another level of wisdom and maturity, supposedly. This is what a sane mind of homo sapien would think. However, this might not be the case for everybody. Maturity comes evolutionarily. You will never know neither realise the journey of the process what more people who surround you. By this I hope that you won’t expect me to be more matured than before but to allow me to learn life, to improve myself from mistakes. Indeed, mistakes are the best lessons in our life. I never hope to be more mature than anyone of you, just because I am the eldest, but I wish to be mature following the natural way it supposed to be. No matter how long it will take, it is the journey that matters. It is “aint about how fast I get there, aint about what’s waiting on the other side, It’s The Climb”. (Sang by Miley Cyrus but I like Joe McElderry’s version more. Im sure kakak knows this should she watches X Factor)

As my life experience taught me, we will never satisfy others with our way. Not even to persuade others to think, to act and to agree with our way. By that I call ‘Human Conflict.’ Its normal and complete natural as God makes us different from one and another in number of ways. These are the diversity of differences that God wants us to cherish and to enjoy. He doesn’t create these differences, for us to fight and quarrel, I believe. Rather, for us to respect each other’s decision for we want others to respect ours. Respect is what we lack in our family, and what we need in our relationship. Not merely respecting because of a status and position but for every decision and thinking we all have. We might find ourselves disagree with someone but remember, no matter how much we disgust on his/her thinking, we owe him/her a great respect for that decision. As the eldest in the family (although I never once, regard being the eldest to all of you), I respect any decision you have taken and will choose in your life. As long as you will be happy, I am more than satisfied and nothing to ask more. Even though in the end, it turns to be a wrong decision, but that’s how we learn life. Isn’t it a burden to ask the similar from you?

We might go in different paths in life, heading to different directions based on our personal targets. But that will never put us apart. Our love and remembrance will always be together no matter if we are far across the oceans and regions. We are in ourselves, but we know we will stand together if we need to. So go and achieve your dreams for 2010! Go to the furthest point in your life, for you live life only once. Go and grab the highest star in your skies, for u fail, you will still be higher from the rest. I have my dreams too and I will try to achieve it no matter hard, cause I know it is not the destination that really matter, but the journey of reaching to the point. I hope you will never blame me for the dreams I will pursue in life, because my life will be souless and lifeless without me setting the paths to my dreams. Again, you will not have to necessarily agree, but the least to respect my perspectives.

I wish you all the best in your studies, your love relationship and in anything that you do. I am never far from you. All you need to do is to write and I’ll take care of the rest. No matter how big the problems you encounter, my ears are all yours, if you need a listener. My advice or solutions would not be as great as Einstein’s E=mc2, but I will try my best to make you feel better. I will never be far!

Last but not least, remember life will never be easy for you and me. It has many hurdles and complications for us to go through. But, if life is in itself already complicated, why complicate it more? Make it easy, take it lightly as things in the end will fall in its place. Eventually.

Happy New Year 2010. May many happiness and prosperity return to all of you.

Love you, with all my heart and soul,

B- Zed

1727 – IUJ Library- Niigata – Japan