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I dunno wat cud b da cause. I’m having series of dreams l8ly (certain cases they turned into nitemares). Sumtimes, it dragged me all day long, thinking n analyzing da sign. But one thing I convincingly reckon – I must av had gud sleeps then. Da moment I woke up, my mind was completely clear and empty. Unlike when I’m dreaming back home, I can reach 2 da end point of my dreams ere, without any interruption or disturbance. Obviously, I dun blame me parents 4 without fail, banging my door everytime they leave for Fajr prayers. But still, I feel grumpy cause my dreams will b incomplete (n juz cut-off like dat). Its very depressing ya know, da moment when u reach da climax of da whole journey, suddenly da screen went blurry n within few secs I realised, Im back 2 reality, hearing my mum’s morning call 4 prayers. It’s like WTH mannn, apekah???)
I believe dreams av some sort of connectivity wif our life. If u really wish/crave 4 sumting, it has a chance to appear in your dreams. So be careful, and remember to think of da happiest thing b4 u go 2 bed. And I’ve got dis hypotheses proven too. Certainly in my case! Although it mite not work out all da time, but out of 10, I wud give 6 4 its likelihood 2 happen. OK, I know I wud be embarrassing meself 4 sharing dis. But its always be my habit, upon switching off da final lite in my room, I wud b imagining who will b waiting 4 me in bed. (Occay, once u’ve read dis, U’ve got 2 finish 2 da last sentence 2 get da context rite n accurate)
2ND ALERT: The sentences following mite contain sum high level of intimacy n amorous romance which deemed not really suitable for underage. Under 18 mite read wif a supervision of an adult. An open-minded adult, I mean. Lol. WTF
Enw, da story shall continue.
So, when I had my lights switched off, I’ve started 2 mumble sumone’s name, imagining dat person on bed. (Too bad da names changed 4 every single day). I will av a monologue sumting like dis:
Me: (While stretching da duvet over my body) “Hows ur day today? Mine quite OK I think. I had dis n dat, I’ve done dis n dat, been here n dere” bla…bla…bla. (In details as if u r presenting a full report on ur whereabouts daily to sumone slash special) I wud firstly face to my leftside, imagining facing me bed-partner n mumbling bout my daily stuffs n da pressure I’ve been through. After dat, I wud say outloud, “X, I miss ya soo much. Bogoshipdaaaaaa. Wish u were ere.” Then I closed me eyes n inhales deeply. Within 10 secs, I wud prevalently lost consciousness.
And it works.
CASE 1 (Data sampling: AAA)
2 me, dis is da sweetest dream ever (OK it mite be da scariest 2 u). Its always be my (utmost) wish 2 b born wif a XX chromosome n 2 marry a charming guy dat loves me 4 who I am. N in dis dream, I remember I’ve becoming a gurl (yeay…my wish comes true) n currently dating a guy. Of course dis guy exist in my real life. I had a crushed on him since his first time calling me through da phone (It lasts 4 2 hours Occay! Dun play2) Enw, dis guy, in his white short sleeves n jeans, wuz asking me 2 go 4 a ride wif him 2 his house. We went n upon @ da dining table, while we had a fine English cuisine; he uttered da four-magic-word. I was lost in transition dat time, anylising – Lord, cud dis b real??? And after whispering da single word Y_ _, he came 2 me wif a ring n put it on my finger. While I was personifying da thing on me lil finger, he rang his parents indicating his intention 2 wed. Later he sent me home wif his car (I can’t actually remember da car in my dream altho I’m very much sure it wasn’t da same wif wat he has in reality – which he used 2 pick me up when we go sightseeing). Da next thing I saw was my IUJ room wall n I know it’s already over. But it took me 30 mins 2 re-start da heart n mind as I never (in my 26 years of existence) had dis kind of dream ever b4. Yup, shocking 2 u, wat more 2 me!
CASE II (Data Sampling: MFCA)
Probably dis dream comes in a lighter degree of intenseness from da 1 told b4. OK, I av always regard dis guy as a touch-n-go fren. He will come 2 me when he has probs, n promised a lot of things 2 return my kindness (dat I wasn’t really hoping pun) but in da end made me disappointed. He promised 2 meet up when he comes back from studying in overseas but in da end, None. Nil. Zilch. Ellek. So I kinda hate dis guy. N 4 crying out loud, he appeared in my dream. We were making Eidulfitr dishes 2 b served to frens n guests. I can still vividly remember, he justifies his MIA n disappearance 2 me, while stirring da Peanut Sauce a.k.a Kuah Kacang. N I was juz listening, without paying attention as I was bored 2 hear his series of lame excuses. After hours of cooking n preparation, da meal’s done n we cleared up da kitchen. Within few secs, I can sense da heat coming from da sunlight through da sliding window of my room in IUJ. Dream’s over.
CASE III (Data Sampling: HI)
Despite our 1 n only meeting, I’ve been very closed wif dis guy. We had a chance 2 know each other (4 juz 2 hours) while I had my internship in Jakarta. N through online communication, dis guy had made me started 2 like him. Totally on words as we never call or meet since da day I departed home. N he came in my dream. YEAY. We went shopping (merely looking around 2 b precise) @ da mall where we first met. We walked, we dined, we stopped n looked things around, we talked n we shared stories. But I cudn’t accurately recall anything else, but he had a different hairstyle depiction when I met him 4 real. In my dream, his hair was slightly longer n thicker, juz like on one of his FB pics 2 years ago, which I saved in my Iphone. Ha Ha. I guessed it must be everytime I browsed da gadget, without fail, I will look into his pic. N dat seemed 2 appear in my dreams.
So wat dis cases mean 2 me?
First I realized, if u really craving 4 sumting, God will give u chance 2 feel it (although merely in dreams!) n I think its fair enuff 2 me. Since I cudnt av it in real, merely experiencing em in my dreams (only 4 couple of hours), I feel more than happy. Seriously. So dat, everytime I start my day, my lips r smiling widely, grinning n laughing all alone in my room. It boosts up my mode, indoctrinating myself, it’s definitely gonna b a gud day. Simply bcuz I had a gud start @ da very beginning.
Second, no matter wat u dream, it remains s ur personal treasure n value. N it will b sealed tightly in ur memories, being da world’s greatest secret bout u n ur crush. As it mite not happen in real world, God has made it happen in ur dreams. Shud we b thankful 4 a few hours of greatest moment – for turning our wish come true?
Third, I know truest dream will never cum true. It mite b becuz I desire 4 sumting beyond reasonable imagination, far across human norms n nature. N one has 2 be intelligent n wise 2 draw a line between a world of fantasy n da world of reality. No matter how high u’ve flown in ur dreams, but always remember 2 land ur feet back 2 da ground soon after da journey is over. We need 2 grasp da limit dat reality has to offer. By dat, we need 2 b realistic n reasonable 2 ourselves. Da world is so cruel out dere babe. It has no mercy n enuff love 4 all of us. Thus, once dream is ended, we ought 2 equip ourselves wif sum persistence n determination 2 face a day of reality.
Dream as much as you like, fly to as many skies as you want, but always remember where you start.
-Zokhri Idris-
The reason why our hearts keep on beating is because 4 every second n moment we keep on fighting. Fighting 4 a survival, fighting 4 a life.
-Aja Aja Fighting-
I’m glad I had those dreams. They keep me alive n satisfied 2 begin da day which full of uncertainties. They r important n I need em. And on top of dis conviction, I hope I’ll be able 2 reach 2 da next phase – 2 regard dreams s a sign in my life. I’m hoping dat eventually, dreams will guide me, being one source of consideration before every decision is made. It will lead me da way, showing me da rite path 2 choose, n giving me da means 2 go through. @ dis level of belief, I will think dat dreams r crucially significant. They shud b listened 2. Simply bcuz, da higher power is trying 2 tell u sumting, via ur nite dreams. Av u ever watched “If Only” starred by Paul Nichols and Jennifer Love-Hewitt? Go and watch it n tell me wat ya think.
Dream my love, for a nite, one shalt be tranquil n bliss, far away from da cruel world.
ZI
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