Currently playing "Take Me Home Country Roads" by John Denver
4 less than 3 hours, I'll be leaving 2 London ... Got some officials 2 attend plus weekends' personal leisures.
As I'll b away, I cant guarantee 2 get online as I'll b fully boked n bz over few days. (but i'll bring my laptop just in case)
Shud u need 2 reach me, do email & ring. I'll get back 2 u @ da soonest I can
Hence, my blog will be hiatus untill further notice (dun wery honey bunny, abg pergi x lama - kekanda berkelana sepurnama saja) sigh
Errrrrrrrrrrr ................
Guys, I'm currently in a bit of a quandary & I need ur help (nothing much really, but means a lot to me)
Actually .......................
I kinda like falling in L*** wif sum1 but I dun know whether dis feeling is true. N dat person dun know either s a matter of fact. I'm scared 2 tell da person as I'm afraid losing da frenship. We've been buddies 4 ages & God knows how intimate we are. I want 2 tell dis mortal how much dis person means 2 me, but I cant ... just cant!!
God knows
N 4 da pass sleepless nites, I've been thinking 2 write a poem describing wat I feel n I wudnt mind, 2 b honest, posting such true feelings in ere
4 dat I need a show of hands, please
POLL: Izzit OK if I write da most -sincere, -tragic tales, -complicated, -impossible volatile roulette wheel of destiny of mine in dis blog ???
Kindly leave ur opinioon
To London I Go
xxx
17 comments:
Pouring out your most sincere, tragic tales, complicated, impossible volatile roulette wheel of destiny in your blog would be ok with me..
But I actually want to urge you to be honest with that someone u in love with.. Maybe that someone in love with u too and at the same that someone afraid of telling u because of the same reason, that someone afraid of losing the friendship..
life could be full of surprises and it would take a bit of courage to say something that important out loud… so, just say u love her…she might say she in love with u too.. go for it!!!
i'm a bit jealous with that someone u think u fell in love with.. have u actually meet her in person??? how do u know u love her??
hye hye,
that's good for you to fall in with sumone.. u know what, she deserve it. i mean let her know.kalo lah I yang jadik itu... alangkah bagusnya... hahaha. just kidding owh.
at last, my along dah fall in. bagus lah tu. i rase better u tell her the truth. mana lah tau.. if she ter love u skali.. bukan kah bagus itu...
satu advise la, u have to prepare the +ve and -ve impact when you nak luahkan perasaan kat org. if +ve syukur alhamdulillah, kalo -ve means that u're not meant to be. maybe there is sumone else yang Allah jadikan lebih baik for you.
haha. that's it.
last word: aja-aja fighting!!!
xoxo,
-angah-
im used to be like u, zack. u acquiring a love or losing a frenship.like angah said, prepare for both impact.either u still be fren with her or not, its urs choice. i cant stand to girl that i used to love anymore if she doesnt love me, better find another one,heh..
_encik blek_
Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh, hangatnya berita ni. I want to know, I WAN, I WAN, I WAN (hehehe...no pun intended)!!!! Seriously, i think you should do it. You never know, that special someone might chance upon your blog and be touched by it.
Dear all,
Finally im back.. to reality where i am supposed to be. no doubt, few days of vacation have reculperate and me feel ALIVED. a weekends in london was a blast and i will cherish da kind hospitality shown by my dearest londoners.
anonymous 1,
its gud 2 be honest with sum1 we care n we adore.but as i said, dere's a price 4 me to pay -loosing da frenship. i feel myself be betrayed if sum1 tried 2convert frenship to other than it supposed to be.
also,i wrote im not really sure izzit da love i feel or its merely an attraction of one's personality. its different tho - feeling in love or just admiring sum1's personality.dats it, im not really sure of myself.
wat if she's not in love with me?
xxx
anonymous 2,
owh please dun be. falling in love doesnt make me different and try to be sum1 which is not me. im still da old zokhrie no matter wat happens (im trying my best)
yes i did. for sum officials and social events around.
dats da prob dear anonymous, i dun really know whether i love her?
even if i do, im not sure whether its love that i feel?
even if its love, im not sure whether im preparing for it.
gosh, life is complicated innit?
God bless
xxx
Hiya Zack,
Congrats for falling in love.It's a wonderful yet scary feeling, isn't it?
I advise you to go tell that person, Zack. Life is about facing your fears. Life is a journey, not a destination so all the experiences that you will face during the journey will definitely teach you something. After telling that person, come back and tell me about it,k. I'll be right behind you.
In my opinion, you can't blame a person when he/she falls in love after establishing a friendship because feelings just exist and they can't be stopped.
It's your right to write anything in your blog coz it's your say :)
Hi,
Came across your blog and read your recent post and thought I'd share my experience on the same situation. I had a inkling that my best-friend had a deeper feeling towards me after we became really close in university. Eventhough I cared a mountain for him and would do almost anything for him I could not look at him as anything more than a brother & best friend. He started changing a few months before we graduated in the sense that he treated me more like a bf would treat a gf including lovey dovey messages and romantic gifts. I had a baddd feeling abt it but was scared to ask and tell him that I could never accept him as my bf/partner eventhough he's one of the best guys that I've met (and I have met many.
After graduating I was posted to the States and the night before I flew I rang and told him that I don't intend to get involved in a relationship anytime soon what with moving to a new country etc..and I thought that he would get the message but..at the airport the next day he came and just before I went into the boarding terminal he pulled me aside and confessed that he had something really important to tell me. And he told me that he loved me and hope that we could be a couple. I didn't know what to say, I was shocked, I was in a rush at that time to board the plane and it was just not a good time to have pulled that kind of stunt. He said that he had considered the pros and cons of telling me and decided that it was best to just confess. (he said a lot more..but enough details here =) I couldn't say much at that time because my flight was already called out but I told him that eventhough I loved him dearly I just did not love him in the same way that he felt towards me. It hurt sooo much at that time telling him that (I could see in his eyes - his heart breaking..) but I had to be honest didn't I??
After I moved he cut off all contact with my and from friends I knew that he was suffering a lot, so much that after a few months I flew back and visited him, and we had a heart2heart talk. It cleared the air but there is definitely still a strain in our friendship which I think would never go away.. maybe until we both have settled down.
I pray everyday that he is given peace and would find someone that would love him dearly. I think my prayer has been answered as he has been very happy the past year with a new girl that he met at work and is planning to marry her soon. =)
My advice to you is that eventhough u have to follow your heart and that it's best to be honest, think about it deeply. Consider everything and see whether u can get some kind of idea from talking to her (eg. does she say that she's so lucky to have a 'friend' like you etc), has she got someone she likes. Talk to her other close friends or siblings is always a good idea as usually girls would tell only their girl friends guys who they have a crush on/really like etc. If a really close friend could sort of ask the question to her without her knowing is quite good coz u would know the answer that way. Be prepared for the outcome of your actions if u decide to confess ie. if she says no and u guys cannot be close friends anymore..
Good luck and I hope you would be more lucky than myself and my bestfriend.
thanks angah
u know dat i wud lost if u dont consult me. i appreciate ur crtical thoughts which i believe comes from ur own experience.perhaps in dat field, u r far more experience than me as u undergone more than i do.
i promise to bear all da circumstances might occur n wud promise no matter wat happens, i'll always be ur brother n beside u when u need me.
yeah, perhaps God has a better plan for me in future.
love,
along
yeah blexi laiho,
always love sum1 who really loves you not da one dat u love.
but da prob is, i always will regard her as a fren no matter wat.nothings gonna change my frenship with others untill da day i'll die. but i dun think he/she will regard da same thing.
dun wery,im preparing da 4 da worst
thanks blexi laiho
sussingitout,
as it yet to confirm,i am not in da position 2 reveal da whole story (takut x jadi kan susah)
yeah, i think i might do it. even if its not for her, its gonna be my true expression to all fellow readers.
love u all 2 bits
xxx
dear Lady Ians,
thanks for ur advice. after a long consideration, i decided to let the feelings expressed in my blog. finger crossed - dat person might read it.
yeah. never put the fear stopping you from u playing the game in life. as for that, i wudnt mind hunting n searching the true love im dying for. da road is rather long, but da journey will never stop.
please read the lines of my poem and give comments. seriously unbelievable, dis is da first time in my life writing a poem.still i dun know where all da strength and ideas come from.huhu
i guess when my heart cries, it gives me a burst.
thanks dear
xxx
salam abg wan,
owh owh owh...never imagined dat u'll hv such entry like this one..well, why all d time we'll face da same situation? if i could shout out loud dat i feel like i fall in some1 now, i would be the happiest person ever. but i dun hv d courage. but what i wanna tell u here, go for it! even u might not hv her as yours, but surely ur friendship will never fade. i'll be supporting u always, abg wan!
love,
aYa
dear anonymous,
(which i believe u r from da states)
ur story gives a different insight from wat da others gave. it offers another dimension n consequent by telling sum1 we love da truth. how true.
i think wat makes me feel so attracted to ur entry is becuz we undergone da same route.da very same experience where, frensip gradually accidentally converted into love without both parties' willingness. n dis is how da tension tends to arise. its not a mutual agreement (not really an agreement but a heart instinct) by both is just one who feels dat and da other one feels frenship is da best way 2 connect each other as we used to be frens n buddies.
in my opinion, i admire ur fren's courage to speak his heart n tell u da truth.in fact, he made a dramatic decision by confessing 2 u b4 u r leaving (perhaps he was inspired by leaving on a jetplane by john denver.lol)he took responsibility if liking u and has made proper measurements to let it expressed.
however, on da second part, i feel bit disturbed when he disconnected from ur frenship knowing he was rejected.and dis is da most scary thoughts i had in mind. obviously i wont terminate my frenship knowing i was rejected.but wat i fear is, dat person im confessing too might treat me different as dat person thinks i ve crossed da border and wud no longer be a gud buddy.
and dis is da part im hardly to consider. fyi - i vow not to let dis frenship go no matter wat happens. but i cant guarantee dat person wud think da same as i do. in conclusion, ur entry is slightly deviated from my story and i wud be appreciate if u cud address on dat matter.
i feel sorry to both of u, but i believe ur fren has met da special one,ur prob is more or less settled.
thanks for da warm wishes.
may we face it with courage and strength.
p/s r u originally from da states?
xxx
hey aya,
finally my sist has come back from her long refreshing vacation. how i am supposed to tell i miss u dearly and lost while u were not around.
o really? r u in da same shoe as mine now? i wonder whether ur wonderful trip has made sumting special for u. ermmmmm -smirking-
thanks dear, we both know we wud be for each other no matter what.. as for dat, i wont regret for any consequences i might suffer so long i have you.
to da only Lord I pray may happiness be with us ahead
yours,
xxx
Hi there,
If you'd want my opinion, I'd say, don't tell the person..Why?? Because if the person does not give the response that youre hoping she'd give, I bet youre gonna lose not just a good friend (if you really are), but her trust towards you. Believe me, I'm experienced. Yup, some people would tell you to give it a shot, but bare in mind that that one shot could make you feel guilty for a long time.
Sincerely from me..
please don't take it hard..
gracias
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