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Thursday, February 01, 2007

O Heart, Be True ...

Here u go

A promised, awaited melancholic cry of my heart. Wif a piece of A4, a black ball-pen n a few cups of Mocha, I'm giving u ...



O Heart, Be True

It was only yesterday I saw you

And it's just today I am leaving you

How I am supposed to tell

All the misery, disruptions of hell

It was not started but from this friendship

In it, my love and concern blossom so deep

But my heart wasn't true

As I regard you more than a friend like the others do

I feel bad - my heart is sad

For my mind goes mad

For the price I have to pay

For the love I couldn't say

For the sleepless nites I undergone

Waiting the true to blow its horn

For we can't be together

As apart from me, there is someone better

Leaving in your house feels like a mouse

For I am scared to be the real me

For the disappointment of hope I can see

O God

Why ye crete Fate

For the one who is born with a very low estate

Why ye crete de feelings

For it haunts and makes me daunting

and

Why ye crete de sense of loving

Knowing this person I am loosing

I freak and I cry

For the truth I cant deny

Up low I am searching the strength

But the road is still far and length

How I wish to close my eyes

and to heart I tell, its all lies

But my dream says its all true

For the one I love is only you

Shame on you dear heart

For making us both fall apart

For every nite I refuse to dream

Fearing my hope will melt like a cream

I wish to quit life

To heaven I shall drive

But its not that I cant leave

Loosing you as a perfect gift

Why I am into you?

Whilst wondering whether you love me too

Bewitched - You the only one

For the rest of my life, my heart will hunt

As my life is like a dice

but never turn out nice

all in all

I just want you to know

My love to you will always grow

For everything I do

I wish could paint the real you

For seeing your smile

I would run a thousand mile

Take care my love

As I'll be flying with the dove

Bringing our hope and dream together

Never fade dilute for ever



xxx



After a hard consideration between Michael Bolton and Kenny Rogers, I came to a verdict dat da song of 'Have I Told You lately That I Love You' sang by Rod Stewart wud be best to listen whilst reading dis poem.
To listen, please click http://youtube.com/watch?v=0UkIM1WqCi0

And tell me wat u think

23 comments:

Anonymous said...

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Zokhri Idris said...

i guess u r the first to read my words.
thanks so much.

yeah,let us face this together

love,
me

Anonymous said...

For a first-timer, Zack Idris, I think you have pushed the limit. I am a highly-critical person especially when involving poetry but when I read your poem, it succeed in telling readers the meaning of love. You love that person but you don't want to possess the one you love. Your poem breathes sincerity and humility. For a first-timer, it's excellent except for certain spelling errors.
You're on your way to becoming a poet. A good piece of art.

Anonymous said...

salam abg wan,
reading ur poem makes me ponder about so many things. but simply i can tell u here, i think i know what did u mean in ur poem. and about who. but just ignore it's about what or who. as it goes the same for me, i thank u for this poem coz i really now feel the same like what u do. be strong. i'm always here for u, as u always be there for me.

Zokhri Idris said...

dear lady ians,

thanks a bunch.

realising an experienced literature stud visiting my blog has given me a sense of incitement n feel much appreciated. i respect all ur comments stated and god knows how flowering my heart is to receive all ur praises. it burns da flame in me to keep on writing and expressing and da spirit will never die i ensure you.

i admit dis is my first try with few mistakes n inconsistencies.but as u mentioned it hits da target and da message is clearly understood, it really give me sumting.

To Lord I thank for His gift bestowed on me

kind regards
sir wann

Zokhri Idris said...

fear element,

feel decipher not, as thru out da way i'll be giving u da signs in identifying who da person is. bear with me and stick to asignofthecreator, for ye shall find de answer.

i thank you for ur comments

regards
xxx

Zokhri Idris said...

dear aya,

i never know dis piece of art of mine inspires sum1 who is currently sharing da same thing with me.i hope every single words means a lot to u and gives u sumting to ponder upon.

sumtimes assumptions cant be true =)

love,
xxx

Mohammad Ihab Ismail said...

Salam...

It suddenly hit me - that this poem corelates with my feeling towards somebody - and yet I have not the courage to say the TRUTH - shall I just wait for the HORN to BLOW Zu?? hehe...

Zokhri Idris said...

Salam,

I bet ur situation is EXACTLY da same as mine. n u probably understand wat 'exactly' means to both of us.I dun know Ihab,dats y im lost n blurred.

wat else shall i say?

thanks 4 everything

Mohammad Ihab Ismail said...

Salam...

Wahohoo.. Say this:
"Ya ENGLISH is just soooo damn WOW!!"
haha.. Giler la ayat segala macam.. Inferior aku rasa... :P

Keep up with da 'British Accent' as per adored by Mirul hehe...

Anonymous said...

There might never be a sign
No flashing neon light
Telling you to make your move
Or when the time is right
so why not??
Take a crazy chance
Why not??

love,
me

Mohammad Ihab Ismail said...

Salam...

Wahhh... Ni entry utk POETs ke?? haha

Anonymous said...

hehehe..to Mohammad Ihab Ismail;
that is not a poem, it is actually a song by hillary duff entittled "Why not??".. i kinda remember this song which goes well with what zack is facing here.. so,zack.. why not???.. hehehe =p

love,
me

Zokhri Idris said...

Dear Ihab,

'Never let da fear keep u out from playing da game'. I must say watever I have and possess, to Him I shall thank to.Its from Him dat I might reach ur mind and connect 2 ur heart - be the voice of ours to the entire world.

Never feel inferior or even compare da 2 of us as u already have sumting dat I dun (and will never have) - a mersmerising voice of urs dat seething da ears!!

is he adoring me? well i guess i must say i adore him for his russian proficency in return. i miss his companionship now.

regards,
xxx

Zokhri Idris said...

Anonymous,

I never come across da song of Duff's, but upon listening and examining da lyrics, I think 'why not' dares us to take da chance whilst it still last. n perhaps,bearing all da consequences might occur.

its true in certain extent but i submit,it cant be applied to all range of circumstances.and i believe ihab knows why.
lemme raise few considerations for u to address:

1)wat if u know (for sure)u wont be able 2 get sumting but u still wanna try?

2)true. dere is no harm in trying.but not all do understand dis as it is.sum ppl will judge u from da very first step u took and da judgment will lie forever in their perception.

hence, in my opinion, its not as easy as 'why not'. =)

I MIGHT BE WRONG. =)

XXX

Zokhri Idris said...

Salam Ihab,

Ni bukan entry utk poets jer, its just happen to discuss my poem critically.
feel worry not, as i'm preparing sumting for you and us.sumting memorable I hope.

-grins- =)

have a nice day

xxx

Anonymous said...

omg korang mengumpat aku ke!?? hahaha...

your BRITISH ACCENT is superb - hehe. At least it's the best that i heard from a malay in the UK. well maybe i havent heard enough, that is.

But I'm certain that your accent is quite good. It really does sounds like the Brits hehe.

I'm in Krakow, Poland right now enjoying the free internet and surfing away here and there, dropping by to give comments.

And I REALLY REALLY miss your company, and YOUR STORIES! Oh man you tell stories like people are actually watching a huge screen of collapsing images from your life. Sigh.

AND YES you should really do that talk show thingy that u told us about it. It'll easily beat all the other crappy malay talk show that has been going on, yours is on a whole different standard! *damn i sound sucking up to yah but i dont really care! u really did tell good stories!*

Other than that, lots of hugs from me over here and I really am looking forward to meet and chat up in the future. May our financial (mine actually! haha) condition and geographical location favour our rendesvous.

I really love your poem. But i'm not going to enjoy it now. Later tonight, with a cup of warm coffee and a comfy ambience. :)

Zokhri Idris said...

Hye Mirul,

I take dat Krakow isnt as interesting as London which resulting u prefer to hibernate in da room rather than chilling out around.
enough sed bout da accent yeah. Nothing so extraordinary seeing an asian speaking da queen's english.I guess everyone has da style of commands n it depends on u to bring it on. but i'll work hard to improvise it as i aim to be an english native speaker in future.

God's willing, da talk show become a reality one day.n i'll make sure dat mine wud be a distinct uniqueness from da existing ones wif new insights n flavours of ours.We rules =) dun wery dear, just hoping for da best for me, u and da rest.finger crossed =)

about da next reunion in mesia, count me in.i definitely joining n really looking forward to seeing u soon. i wonder wat wud happen to us in few months time untill we further meet.

however, if it doesnt work out (hopefully not n never)always remember i am near to ur heart. hence, whenever my name comes across ur mind,just remember dat i'm thinking about you.

As explained,da poem reflects my heart grievance n despondency over sumting i cudnt possess and worse, impossible 2 express.I hope my words reach ur heart for ye might understand da cry of my soul. nevertheless, take it as a wonderful lullaby im providing u before u go to bed.

Have a safe journey home

xxx

Anonymous said...

Sighhh sedihnyer reply... a good friend had always told me, LET YOUR CRUSH KNOW about your feelings - as it may be the only chance that you'll ever can express ur feeling! Or maybe perhaps there will never be next time, God forbid.

But of course, do it as wisely as ever. Use signs if you have to, and use your brain on how can you make the biggest impact on that person but will the most little effort. :)

The next reunion (like I told u in my latest comment) is actually some kind of a road trip to Ihab's house. Hehe. I'm not sure about the other trip (trip to Bangkok lah! Trip to Bali lah! plan banyak bagai tapi macam susah nak fulfil jer!) because as you know Ihab is having his practical, and so am I. So IMHO this short road trip will not be so difficult for us to fulfil, Insya-Allah.

But then, are you coming back to Malaysia? Dah bertahun2 merantau ni takkan tak rindu tanah air kot? Cut your hair first dear! Hehe..

Anonymous said...

... and I forgot to reply you about Krakow ;)

Krakow has the most pub, in one place, in Poland (and I don't know about other place but the stats are quite interesting!) it has 300 pubs in the central square ALONE, thanks to it's impressive population of 100,000 students residing in Krakow area. The Polish government had decided that Krakow will be their center of education thereby relocating all of their main vital universities in Krakow.

So it's NOT true that Krakow is less fun than London! Hehehe.. do you know why I chose not to go out? :P *jeng jeng jeng* because I DONT HAVE GOOD COMPANY like you guys to accompany me ~~ !! Hehe...

Well it's okay - I don't really mind cuddling and snuggling with my cup of coffee while enjoying your poem - I told u I'd do so remember.

And when I thought about you - you're thinking about me? Wahhh!! That's one sweet sentence that I'll keep it as an azimat! hehe... Thanks a LOT! I certainly look UP to you as a source of inspiration - satu2nya kawan baya aku yang dah bekerja di UK ;)

Hey focus on your career and please no extraordinary fun just yet until you had fulfilled your parents ambition about your life...

Zokhri Idris said...
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Zokhri Idris said...

on ur second entry,

alrite, i back off my statement. Krakow is more happening than london (which i believe still open to debate(s)lol.
assuming u r a nite life bearer, i guess it wud be fun if u cud spend a weekend in manchester and i'll bring u 2 da most prominent club (at least to me) in manchester.ihab n wanzul have been dere s a matter of fact. =)

owh isnt dat sweet 2 hear dat? dat u dun have a fun outgoing company like us dere (doubtful) yah u're rite (in ur wildest dream) lol

anyways, I must thank u for spending sum of ur time 2 read my words.its a great honour,indeed, having a reader who was aiming 2 b an english teacher came and read my poem. Asignofthecreator feels much honoured n appreciated by ur visit

will do. am enjoying every single bits in my life now.n hopefully u'll do da same.

regards
x

Zokhri Idris said...

Dear Mirul,

i supposed i do believe in dat too.however, things arent just as easy as we thought in mind. shud u unaware of my condition, its different from wat others might think. yeah its kinda like similar in da basic prob - hard 2 confess,but da situation of ours (including ihab if u reckon) doesnt permit so. i bet u know wat im talking.

wat if its not rite from da start? wat if dat kind of feelings shudnt happened in da first place?
or we shudnt b together from da start?
wat about sumting u know u wont get it no matter how hard u try?

my mum used 2 forbid us using 'wat if' in life,for it questions da destiny of God, but sumtimes i cudnt help it. why we r given sumting knowing we are loosing it.and its all best 2 conclude under one theme - da complicated life of mine.

huhu.

but watever it is, i wow not to let myself in misery again.i want 2 b happy n get rid all these melancholic episodes in ma life. Life is KICKING now bebeh!! Hence, live 2 da blast while it lasts !!!

i'll make my adjustments for not missing the trip. i'll promise u.cuz it wud be for ages again 2 meet u and hanging out around with all of da stoddart clans. surely its a chance not 2 be missed.

rindu tu rindu laaa (saje jer tulis nnt org ingat aku lupa asal usul plak) lol. but i guess im coping well.if im going back,its for u and us (da stoddart clans) for my parents usually come around. in other way, if i'm back da burden lies on u how to make da gath marvellous and hillarious. more than wat we had b4. amacam? u dare?

hey, get my hair cut isnt neccessary.i am wat i am. dun tell me u r one like all da pakcik2 n joyah2 kampung who have a bad impresion 2 to long hairers.its discrimination ok.(pemikiran kampung gitew)t'ganu kampung kan? hehehehehehe

but i'll promise 2 dress decent when i go 2 ur place.lol. or present my hair in a better way.lol

love,

x