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Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Da Cry Of Me Heart
Have u ever felt dat u dun belong 2 a place despite God has granted u everything u wanted? @ nites, I cry
From what you wrote I can feel that ur heart is somewhat empty - i hv absolutely no idea if it's true, or perhaps it's only an illusion. Maybe your heart is frustrated because it is not getting what it wants.
But trust me what makes us happy in this world is not what we wants but what we don't want.
Owh... I definitely have felt like I dont belong to a place... But having said that, I have never felt such feeling DESPITE having all my wishes granted huhu...
Truth is, as an imperfect human being, it is very difficult for me to be satisfied with things I have in hand... huhu... Always wished for more...
If I cant be satisfied with what I already had in hand, I have to understand the fact that I'm not gonna be any close to being satisfied of my surroundings too..
Feels like having more... Feels like having something else... SOMEWHERE ELSE...
upon reading ur words, it ponders me a while. did u write this due to what we have discussed a few nites back? even if the answer is not, but for me, what have i told u that nite, was the thing that really make me not belong to something or to this place. but what can we do to fulfil our desires? to bump the others n just think about ourself? that sounds so impossible. the only way that i console my mind is: not all that we want are good for us, n vice versa, not all that we dont want are bad in all sides.
whatever happen, u always have a place in my heart, in my life, abg wan.
u r rite in da first two sentences but i slightly disagree with ur thought which finds me frustrated of not getting wat i want.well as i said, god has granted me everything i want here, work n frens,but da emptiness is still i feel deep inside.sounds weird but dats how da irony complicates my life.
alrite,i'll look 4 da book later (even i dun know when on earth i wud do so) perhaps dis is sumting we can discuss when we meet up in our next gath. its gud to learn dat how yasmin cud give her remarks on sheikh yusuf's work piece.nice one.
thanks.. please send me ur preayers.definitely in need of them. but rest assured, dear mirul, i vow not to let my emotions overcome me n i'll try hard 2 be happy..for we live only once
again, dis is da complicated part.ive got everything dat i want ere,but still i feel sumting's lurking. its not dat i want more n more, but u just feel dat even u gained everything u wished in life, dere is sumting missing sumwhere.
even worst, u dun know wat is da thing u've missed? deymn.. its unthinkable innit?
all in all, i think i've got wat do i want here. n i thank god for his unlimited blessings 4 granting me those, beyond all compare. i always be a thankful servant, for I cant live without Him (despite i admit, i'm not very gud 2 Him in da past) =)
yeah, human's heart hard to console, harder to satisfy..
i must say da question has been lingering my mind for ages.n not solely inspired by our recent discussion.however it does contribute sum significant factors dat lead me to post up in da entry. u got a point..its absolutely correct..cudnt agree more..
perhaps, i must endure with 'arghhhhhhhhhh lantak@mum-push laaaaaaa' principle. =) if dat seems to be da last result.
thanks.. even i know u wanna kick me off from ur heart (one day), i wont go.i wanna stay dere 4eve.i'll chain myself tightly 2 it n i swallow da key. lol
Hohoho... Okie dokie.. Got ya point.. But just to clarify.. What I wrote in my bit of comments above was solely meant to describe the way I look upon this issue from my point of view...
Aku rasa komen aku tu mmg ala2 KELUAR TOPIK haha... Tp just to bring the idea that, sometimes, cam aku ni, aku rasa NON-BELONGING not because I was not welcomed, but rather COZ I FEEL LIKE WANTING MORE or WANTING SOMETHING ELSE... ie. aku tak pueh hati ngan apa yg aku ado miehehe...
thanks for ur further explaination. it gives da viewers, at least, ur own point of experience u've encountered.i must thank you for ur willingness to share with us, da hidden part of ur life (which i think not all can do)
i think its gud,at certain points, 2 feel unsatisfied with wat u have.life is about us moving and keep on going. improving and modifying endlessly.hence,if u put it in a positive side, i dun see anything wrong in striving more and more to get wat u want.
perhaps its not da matter u being selfish, but its da case of improving da life from da existing state to another (which is undeniably encouraged)
on ya ilmiah thingy,lol, we r bunch of educated ppl thus u got to live with it. (normally wudnt go 2 dat 'ilmiah'ness)
[bersedialah untuk membaca analogi yg tah pape dari aku - be ready to embrace the silliness of it..hahaha]
imagine yourself like a box and all those 'wants/ambitions - in ur case, ur work and frens' as water that fills the box to its maximum.
the emptiness you feel could be because you've become a much bigger box (you have grown in time)... it's either you need more water to fill it (new goals maybe) or boil the water that you've got (optimize what you have now) to become wap2 air to fill the box.
semoga wan sihat2 di... ( di mana berada? heheh, still di negera orang lagi ke?).. semoga sentiasa dalam dakapan Rahman dan Rahim Robbana.. erm, akak tak reti english2 ni wan. Akak taip in malay jak la.. Faham gak kan... Amacam sekarang? keje dah... erm, boley blanja akak nanti.. ekkeke :).. acah je tu, tapi kalau ye, alhamdulillah.. ape orang kata... rezeki jangan di tolak.. wan kat ner sekarang? kat london atau mesia... kalau di sana g, ble nak balik.. akak dah nak balik kampung dah.. nak p smanjung, tak tau la bila lagi.. tunggu kawen orang semenanjung la kot.. heheheh... amien..(haha...ahhaha..hahah) awat wan? ada problem ka.. tak baik tau llaki nangis.. ihihihhi.. cool man.. Tabahkan hati, cekal menghadapi dugaan tau. paling penting bila wan ada masalah, senyum then fikirkan semua tu adalah hadiah dari Allah swt. DIA nak uji, sejauh mana iman kita.. Apa yang diuji ikut kemampuan kita, fikirkan apa yang Allah nak sampaikan... Kan setiap apa yang Allah uji itu adalah satu didikan hati... IStighfar banyak2... k, be happy.. senyum sokmo tau.. DON't CRY for me argentina... (uhuh.. nyanyi pla dah...) ah, satu g.. awat tak tel akak..? lama dah ni.. nak tau cerita, ade orang tu kan kata.. dia nak tel akak 2 minggu sekali... uh, cayala kat orang tu.. tapi, tengok sampai la ni tak juga kol kol.. sapela tu ye wan.. eh, bukan wan ke..? saje je tu... entah2 wan pun dah lupa kot.. iyelah, orang ade kakak baru... (mejok!!) ok lah, takdelah.. akak tak mejok pun.. saje je tu.. sekali sekala.. kene tukar2 suasana.. takde la boring memanjang... n, akak rasa akak dah panjang taip ni.. takut melalut plak... akhirulkalam dari akak di sini, jaga diri, iman n amalnye.. Walau di mana bumi di pijak, iman pada Allah tu penting.. "pelindung" diri dari godaan2 dunia.. faham2 je la dunia wan sekarang kat mana.. Uh, kalau akak... taktau ape jadi... Iyya'uzubillah.. Pepun, akak yakin dengan wan.. pandai jaga diri dan peribadi.. k, wan... salam ukhwah dari akak... balik nanti, bawa hadiah tau... hihihihi.. (anak patung wan, akak simpan, takutlah.. anak patung wan bagi tu ada ekor ngan tanduk.. cam drakulla... belilah patung yang "ala-ala solehah" sikit..... :).. da, see u nex time.. miss u... wassalamua'alaik
ndak ngapalah kak.cakap bm pun apa salahnya.lagipun bahasa ibunda kita juak tue.(cakap sabah lagi ada umphh) haha aku masih disini lagi kak. bekerja sbg legal assistant di england nie.aku grad sudah tahun lalu dan alhamdulillah ditawarkan bekerja buat sementara di bumi penjajah ni.hoho
kak mau balik sabah? sudah tamat pengajian? waaa baguslaa. ndak ngapalah kak,klu aku balik semenanjung nnt,aku bg taulah sama akak.lgpun ndak jauh pun sabah dgn semenanjung.masih dalam satu negara.
ndak laaa,bukan ada masalah besar pun.yg sedang2 aja.biasalah kak, hidup nie dipenuhi dgn masalah dan dugaam.disitulah menguji ketabahan dan kekuatan seorang insan.dan daku tdk kecuali dari kitaran sunnatullah itue.betullah ape yg akak katakan tue.
maaflah kak,bukan aku ndak mau tipon.tp bila mau tipon,ada jak mehnah yg melanda. ada jugak aku tipon akak tp ndak berjawab.bz atau sedang solat brangkali mungkin.
kakak baru?ndak laaaa. mmglah kenalan kita akan bertambah.tp itu tdk bermakna kita akan lepaskan yg sedia ada.biar semakin bertambah tp jgn pula ada yang mengurang.
insyaAllah doakanlah aku disini kak.mmg kuat pun ujiannyer di sini.adalah jugak 2 3 kali terbabas.ehehe.tp aku ok lagi nie.solat masih ku jaga walaupun yg lain semakin kureng.hahaha. apepun doa dan restu akak disana aku harapkan.semoga kite tergolong dalam hamba2 yg dikasihi Nya
baa, nantilah, pulangnya aku ke semenanjung nnt, aku belikan akak mainnan yg baru. yg solehah sedikit ya?huhu.manalah nak cari yer anak patung yg solehah?di arab mungkin.
i do face that uncertainties sometimes.. and whats worse is, i know what i want but i just cant grab it anymore.. too far for me to reach... being a scientist i am now, i just wish if i cud turn back time and pick architecture as my field.. but hey.. semua menda yg berlaku, ALLAH really knows what's best for us.. have faith in HIM.. and in ourselve.. ;)
27 comments:
Helloo..how are u doing?
hye lee novotny
i'm fine thank you.
hope ure fine too
x
Dear Wan Zue,
From what you wrote I can feel that ur heart is somewhat empty - i hv absolutely no idea if it's true, or perhaps it's only an illusion. Maybe your heart is frustrated because it is not getting what it wants.
But trust me what makes us happy in this world is not what we wants but what we don't want.
I suggest you to buy this book; also recommende by Yasmin Ahmad in her review ~ a book by Sheikh Hamza Yusuf Purification of Heart.
And please read it as I am eager to know how's the book is like - if it's good I'll might grab it when I'm back later. ;)
I pray to Allah that He somehow let your heart open to happiness, Insya-Allah.
Cheers.
Salam...
Owh... I definitely have felt like I dont belong to a place... But having said that, I have never felt such feeling DESPITE having all my wishes granted huhu...
Truth is, as an imperfect human being, it is very difficult for me to be satisfied with things I have in hand... huhu... Always wished for more...
If I cant be satisfied with what I already had in hand, I have to understand the fact that I'm not gonna be any close to being satisfied of my surroundings too..
Feels like having more... Feels like having something else... SOMEWHERE ELSE...
Hence the feeling of non-belonging...
Human's heart... Hard to satisfy...
balik mesia laaa baru belong kot...
hehe
salam
upon reading ur words, it ponders me a while. did u write this due to what we have discussed a few nites back? even if the answer is not, but for me, what have i told u that nite, was the thing that really make me not belong to something or to this place. but what can we do to fulfil our desires? to bump the others n just think about ourself? that sounds so impossible. the only way that i console my mind is: not all that we want are good for us, n vice versa, not all that we dont want are bad in all sides.
whatever happen, u always have a place in my heart, in my life, abg wan.
-aYa-
Dear Mirul,
u r rite in da first two sentences but i slightly disagree with ur thought which finds me frustrated of not getting wat i want.well as i said, god has granted me everything i want here, work n frens,but da emptiness is still i feel deep inside.sounds weird but dats how da irony complicates my life.
alrite,i'll look 4 da book later (even i dun know when on earth i wud do so) perhaps dis is sumting we can discuss when we meet up in our next gath. its gud to learn dat how yasmin cud give her remarks on sheikh yusuf's work piece.nice one.
thanks.. please send me ur preayers.definitely in need of them.
but rest assured, dear mirul, i vow not to let my emotions overcome me n i'll try hard 2 be happy..for we live only once
love,
x
salam ihab,
again, dis is da complicated part.ive got everything dat i want ere,but still i feel sumting's lurking. its not dat i want more n more, but u just feel dat even u gained everything u wished in life, dere is sumting missing sumwhere.
even worst, u dun know wat is da thing u've missed? deymn.. its unthinkable innit?
all in all, i think i've got wat do i want here. n i thank god for his unlimited blessings 4 granting me those, beyond all compare. i always be a thankful servant, for I cant live without Him (despite i admit, i'm not very gud 2 Him in da past) =)
yeah, human's heart hard to console, harder to satisfy..
p/s loving ur song mate, am really lovin' it..
regards
x
anonymous,
how cud u be so sure?
becuz me myself really not dat sure
lol
p/s honestly, i dun truly miss home
arghhhhhhh (aching)
x
salam sarah,
i must say da question has been lingering my mind for ages.n not solely inspired by our recent discussion.however it does contribute sum significant factors dat lead me to post up in da entry.
u got a point..its absolutely correct..cudnt agree more..
perhaps, i must endure with 'arghhhhhhhhhh lantak@mum-push laaaaaaa' principle. =) if dat seems to be da last result.
thanks..
even i know u wanna kick me off from ur heart (one day), i wont go.i wanna stay dere 4eve.i'll chain myself tightly 2 it n i swallow da key.
lol
love,
x
Salam...
Hohoho... Okie dokie.. Got ya point.. But just to clarify.. What I wrote in my bit of comments above was solely meant to describe the way I look upon this issue from my point of view...
Aku rasa komen aku tu mmg ala2 KELUAR TOPIK haha... Tp just to bring the idea that, sometimes, cam aku ni, aku rasa NON-BELONGING not because I was not welcomed, but rather COZ I FEEL LIKE WANTING MORE or WANTING SOMETHING ELSE... ie. aku tak pueh hati ngan apa yg aku ado miehehe...
Sorry for being TAMAKKK... can't help it haha...
u can get the book at amazon.com i think they provide delivery to ur place in manchester for sure ;)
Salam...
Ilmiah sungguh korg :D
eh..apa kes nih? macam down jer bunyinyer...tak nak share ker? u know how to reach me kan?
ihab,
thanks for ur further explaination. it gives da viewers, at least, ur own point of experience u've encountered.i must thank you for ur willingness to share with us, da hidden part of ur life (which i think not all can do)
i think its gud,at certain points, 2 feel unsatisfied with wat u have.life is about us moving and keep on going. improving and modifying endlessly.hence,if u put it in a positive side, i dun see anything wrong in striving more and more to get wat u want.
perhaps its not da matter u being selfish, but its da case of improving da life from da existing state to another (which is undeniably encouraged)
on ya ilmiah thingy,lol, we r bunch of educated ppl thus u got to live with it.
(normally wudnt go 2 dat 'ilmiah'ness)
god bless
x
mirul,
thanks for da guide.
will consider strongly.
x
muqreez,
rest assured mate.nothing seriously happened.its just sumting dat crosses my mind for all dis while (loads of time in fact)
dun wery, shud anything happened, i know where i can go to. thanks for being concerned n more important, being dere when i need da most
god bless
x
wanzue dearie,
[bersedialah untuk membaca analogi yg tah pape dari aku - be ready to embrace the silliness of it..hahaha]
imagine yourself like a box and all those 'wants/ambitions - in ur case, ur work and frens' as water that fills the box to its maximum.
the emptiness you feel could be because you've become a much bigger box (you have grown in time)... it's either you need more water to fill it (new goals maybe) or boil the water that you've got (optimize what you have now) to become wap2 air to fill the box.
Told ya the analogy is silly :P
lol motif wap air fill up d box - camno tu kalau dah box tu terbukak maka keluar la wap tu hehe...
pastu kalau tertutup, camno nak masak air? pakai kotak besi ko apo?
hehe saje je menyebuk. sori kacau.
about d book - it received banyak giler recommendation thru d net! a lot of tazkirah webbie pon recommend jgk buku tu.
IMHO all spiritual problems ie depression loneliness etc etc MUST be solved by spiritual means.
that is u hv to seek spiritual guidance in order to help ur inner self be calm.
do whatever it takes - yoga meditation zikr chanting etc etc etc. as long as the soul inside becomes peaceful again.
my style had always been goin to d beach and duduk mengadap laut... meditate and the calmness will come to u.. huhu..
Salam...
Eh MinCi..
To be honest.. I kinda like ya analogy la!!
Hahaha...
Tp cam Mirul cakap.. Apa kata ko tukar dari BOX kepada PERIUK BERTUTUP?? hahaha...
Cool analogy.. Not silly at all ;)
Minci heya,
its not silly at all.how cud u say dat to such an immense imagination of urs. I felt myself astounded upon learning da analogy.
but honestly, i cudnt help myself from guffawing madly when browsing further down - 2 mirul's and ihab's POI.
thanks minci. u really taught me sumting 2day.
x
mirul,
u r such a cheeky. n not to extreme, a devil
lol.
to out my surprise, u started engaging urself wif all these 'tazkirah' tingy few weeks back.hopefully it will last long (cynically)u r an angel now =)
my frens are suggesting dat too. it must be a very gud book then.must have it later.
i thot u r stranded in a land without sea around.how cud u keep up wif da style?
x
Minci,
I will bow to u shud u manage to answer them.
lol
x
Assalamualai'kum wrt wbt.
semoga wan sihat2 di... ( di mana berada? heheh, still di negera orang lagi ke?).. semoga sentiasa dalam dakapan Rahman dan Rahim Robbana..
erm, akak tak reti english2 ni wan. Akak taip in malay jak la.. Faham gak kan... Amacam sekarang? keje dah... erm, boley blanja akak nanti.. ekkeke :).. acah je tu, tapi kalau ye, alhamdulillah.. ape orang kata... rezeki jangan di tolak..
wan kat ner sekarang? kat london atau mesia... kalau di sana g, ble nak balik.. akak dah nak balik kampung dah.. nak p smanjung, tak tau la bila lagi.. tunggu kawen orang semenanjung la kot.. heheheh... amien..(haha...ahhaha..hahah)
awat wan? ada problem ka.. tak baik tau llaki nangis.. ihihihhi.. cool man.. Tabahkan hati, cekal menghadapi dugaan tau. paling penting bila wan ada masalah, senyum then fikirkan semua tu adalah hadiah dari Allah swt. DIA nak uji, sejauh mana iman kita.. Apa yang diuji ikut kemampuan kita, fikirkan apa yang Allah nak sampaikan... Kan setiap apa yang Allah uji itu adalah satu didikan hati... IStighfar banyak2... k, be happy.. senyum sokmo tau.. DON't CRY for me argentina... (uhuh.. nyanyi pla dah...)
ah, satu g.. awat tak tel akak..? lama dah ni.. nak tau cerita, ade orang tu kan kata.. dia nak tel akak 2 minggu sekali... uh, cayala kat orang tu.. tapi, tengok sampai la ni tak juga kol kol.. sapela tu ye wan.. eh, bukan wan ke..? saje je tu... entah2 wan pun dah lupa kot.. iyelah, orang ade kakak baru... (mejok!!)
ok lah, takdelah.. akak tak mejok pun.. saje je tu.. sekali sekala.. kene tukar2 suasana.. takde la boring memanjang... n, akak rasa akak dah panjang taip ni.. takut melalut plak... akhirulkalam dari akak di sini, jaga diri, iman n amalnye.. Walau di mana bumi di pijak, iman pada Allah tu penting.. "pelindung" diri dari godaan2 dunia.. faham2 je la dunia wan sekarang kat mana.. Uh, kalau akak... taktau ape jadi... Iyya'uzubillah.. Pepun, akak yakin dengan wan.. pandai jaga diri dan peribadi.. k, wan... salam ukhwah dari akak... balik nanti, bawa hadiah tau... hihihihi.. (anak patung wan, akak simpan, takutlah.. anak patung wan bagi tu ada ekor ngan tanduk.. cam drakulla... belilah patung yang "ala-ala solehah" sikit..... :)..
da, see u nex time.. miss u... wassalamua'alaik
alaiki as salam warahmatullah
ndak ngapalah kak.cakap bm pun apa salahnya.lagipun bahasa ibunda kita juak tue.(cakap sabah lagi ada umphh) haha
aku masih disini lagi kak. bekerja sbg legal assistant di england nie.aku grad sudah tahun lalu dan alhamdulillah ditawarkan bekerja buat sementara di bumi penjajah ni.hoho
kak mau balik sabah? sudah tamat pengajian? waaa baguslaa. ndak ngapalah kak,klu aku balik semenanjung nnt,aku bg taulah sama akak.lgpun ndak jauh pun sabah dgn semenanjung.masih dalam satu negara.
ndak laaa,bukan ada masalah besar pun.yg sedang2 aja.biasalah kak, hidup nie dipenuhi dgn masalah dan dugaam.disitulah menguji ketabahan dan kekuatan seorang insan.dan daku tdk kecuali dari kitaran sunnatullah itue.betullah ape yg akak katakan tue.
maaflah kak,bukan aku ndak mau tipon.tp bila mau tipon,ada jak mehnah yg melanda. ada jugak aku tipon akak tp ndak berjawab.bz atau sedang solat brangkali mungkin.
kakak baru?ndak laaaa. mmglah kenalan kita akan bertambah.tp itu tdk bermakna kita akan lepaskan yg sedia ada.biar semakin bertambah tp jgn pula ada yang mengurang.
insyaAllah doakanlah aku disini kak.mmg kuat pun ujiannyer di sini.adalah jugak 2 3 kali terbabas.ehehe.tp aku ok lagi nie.solat masih ku jaga walaupun yg lain semakin kureng.hahaha. apepun doa dan restu akak disana aku harapkan.semoga kite tergolong dalam hamba2 yg dikasihi Nya
baa, nantilah, pulangnya aku ke semenanjung nnt, aku belikan akak mainnan yg baru. yg solehah sedikit ya?huhu.manalah nak cari yer anak patung yg solehah?di arab mungkin.
ok kak.miss u too
love u always
x
owh dear.. hows everything wanzu~?
i do face that uncertainties sometimes.. and whats worse is, i know what i want but i just cant grab it anymore.. too far for me to reach... being a scientist i am now, i just wish if i cud turn back time and pick architecture as my field.. but hey.. semua menda yg berlaku, ALLAH really knows what's best for us.. have faith in HIM.. and in ourselve.. ;)
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