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Friday, December 19, 2008

And so the lion fell in love with the lamb ... What a stupid lamb


U must probably know where are these excerpts cuming from? Those are Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight which had blown (although not as huge as Harry Potter) da local cinemas and abroad 4 dis couple of weeks. I know dis sounds pretty odd, plus Asignofthecreator has never took da initiative 2 review a movie b4 (da nearest attempt was P/S I Love You, but still it was yet 2 b materialised), but after seeing Twilight (not once but 5 times: 4 wif different circle of frens n one juz by meself), da author of dis blog cant resist himself from falling in love wif da movie and will now take dis opp 2 comment on dis brilliant rendition.


Sounds gay, innit? AS IF I CARE !!!


DISCLAIMER NOTICE(S):
Da author is totally aware of the myths in dis movie. He will b solely commenting based on da story line, without weighting wif da reality which is full of lies n hidden motives.

These are only his rough (general) observation after been watching 4 da 5th time. As a matter of fact, he knows dat dis wud even b disqualified (by its nature) 2 b a gud source 4 film reviews n critics. He was juz pouring it out from wat he viewed without any critical evaluation supporting. In da end he’s juz speaking out of his mind in his lil tiny world ere.



First, da movie is an imitated version of “forbidden love” kinda thing i.e. which is 2 fall in love wif sum1 dat u shudnt supposed to. True, we do av # of versions on dis & each has its own interesting plots 2 offer. But Twilight gives a higher merit bcuz its a motion of love, cherished by 2 different creatures, whom each will bear da vexatious consequences for going through dis relationship. Da phrase, “so da lion fell in love with the lamb ... what a stupid lamb ... what a sick, masochistic lion” is best 2 illustrate da complexities da relationship is. U care 4 sumting dat potentially 2 b destroyed (BY U !!!) and U surrender 2 sumting dat U aware cud end ur life as a result. But still, how cud they sustain? Its interesting 2 note dat, either both of em are harming themselves and still risking the another while its not easy peasy 2 deal wif it.




N Im asserting now on da power of love 2 my submission. Truly, beyond imagination. Which nothing cud stop Edward and Bella from loving each other, no matter how hard they tried 2 avoid (esp Edward). Second, da power of love is unconditionally: no reason 4 u 2 fall in love i.e. neither barrier nor limitation 4 u to love him/her. Its juz dere when its dere. Blatantly true, one cud av a choice, so do Edward n Bella. But wud da option they took make em happy? They cud (i think) av considered da option (by hating each other @ 1st) but I guess it cant be defended till da end. Love is blind 2 sum extent, though we can vividly look and see.



Da power of love also prevailing over da fear felt by both characters. Edward frequently expressed his fear dat he cud easily harm Bella shud they get closer. (In fact he found it insurmountably hard 2 stop from keep on sucking Bella’s blood). On the other hand, i’m convinced dat dere must b a small % of fear n bluster in Bella, knowing Edward is a vampire. (I swear I cud have get my pants shitted seeing a demoniac creature keep on jumping from 1 site 2 another & thirst 4 my blood). Such macabric feelings r undeniable but its a unique theory (yet self-explained-ly) how cud they put it aside & instil their feelings 2wards each other.




Question - Wat wud u feel when sum1 dat u really admire n adore mentions, “You are my life now and I’ll do everything 2 make u safe” ? I will melt down (if not fainted) honestly. Da fact is, not many (5% - 7% I wud say) ppl in dis entire globe willing 2 sacrifice everything (or even their lifes) 4 love n their loved ones. I wud sacrifice my dreams and goals if I meet dis person, but sacrificing a life? O-O got 2 think (really) hard ere mate. N dats y da scripts n stanzas in dis movie, utterly touch my soul. Becuz I cudnt hardly imagine wat wud I react, when sum1 tell me dat I’m everything in his life & he’ll do anything 2 make me safe.

I mean, wat else cud I ask for?

Im not asking much from Lord Almighty. I dun care 2 live in a small cottage, no cars 2 ride, less money 2 shop or less food 2 survive. All I ask is sum1 2 love me unconditionally n will everlastingly stand by me no matter how wild da hurricane comes. N dat seems 2 b da hardest thing 2 get , innit?


Corrinthian 13: 4 – 8 says:
“Love is patient and kind ... It is never jealous ... Love is never boastful nor conceited ... It is never rude or selfish ... It does not take offence ... It is not resentful ... Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins ... but always delights in the truth ... It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes”


N I can see dat traversing between em. Edward will never (up 2 dis period of time) end Bell’s life (even how desired Bella is). He can do dat simply if he wanted to. But I guess true love will never make the man neither the woman selfish. U cant turn him/her into sumbody u wanted to whom is not him/her. U love sum1 4 who he is, 4 wat he is and will never make him/her into da way u desired to. Clearly, Edward has many advantages shud he changed Bells into 1 of his kinds, but wudnt it be negative 2 think dat he is actually taking Bells away from her nice, cool n loving dad (n I will talk on dat too) and her mum. More important, Edward is separating Bella away from her life as a human. His rationale of “isn’t it not enough to live with me forever?” indicates dat no matter wat Bella is, he will always stay in love wif her, n i tell u, not every1 can do dat. It is, as I rate it, one of da best quotes I ever found in da movie. Even us da humans, our love gradually n normally b reflected n b decayed by da factors of barriers, physical attributions, distance, n sorry 2 say health conditions. We hardly realise dat love is to always excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.



4 dat reasons, I adore da characteristics portrayed by dis ‘immortal’ creature of Edward Cullen.




However, I seem 2 agree wif Bella classical notions “I’ve never given much thought to how I would die, but dying in the place of someone I love seems like a good way to go”. *** N im sure dis dilemma n vacillation being lingering in most of our minds at times. As a Muslim, Im much aware dat da fact dat im bound by my religion which holds dying 4 da sake of God and Religion is da ultimate aim being a Muslim. N I wont slash cant deny dat. But i also believe dat dere’s nothing SO wrong or digressing 2 leave life 4 da person dat we really love. If I wud be given a choice/list of options as to how shud I end my life, I wud certainly put Bella’s thoughts into consideration – wif 1 condition. It must b 4 sumone dat is truly in love wif me and I know dat my death will never put an end 4 him 2love me. So until Im convinced dat dis person exist in my heart n mind, dis option will never be real. After all, life must go on, rite?


*** John 15:13 “Greater love has no one than this that he lays down his life for his frens.”




In da end, one has 2 understand dat my writings aren’t reverencing (not even worshipping) Edward n Bella. They are juz 2 admire n 2 really adore da characteristic n personality shown by these two actors. I bet everyone cud be as charming as Edward n as gud-looking as Bella, but how many can blend their personalities n thinkings 2gether. N even I think, neither da real Robert Pattinson nor Kristen Stewart can (not even close) ...



4 all dis while, i’ve been searching up-low everywhere, who’s da best 2 vignette da true meaning of love. Im sure dere are few I’ve merited n agreed to, but Edward n Bella seem to be da glove dat fits all. N I wudnt mind (call me crackbrained) juz 2 b mersmerised by their love journey despite been watching more than 4 times. Call me nuts, but everytime I’ve watched it, I’ve learnt sumting niu and a niu hope has been injected 2 my artery – a niu hope 2 believe in true love, no matter how hard it is 2 b found.




Which consequently derive me 2 da conclusion dat, Zokhri Idris is totally aware dat 2 certain extent da movie is unreal and will never be real in reality. Hands up. I shrugged off. N he knows dat his feet are still stepping on da ground realising and feeling da real world dat everyone is facing significantly distinguished from da movie. But is dere anything wrong 2 put a hope 4 sumting pure n holly (although its totally illusionary) ?


Am I guilty juz 2 imagine all those wonderful fantasies while facing my bizarre n despondency life now?

Am I insane 2 believe in true love, although true love is far too real in me life (n probably in urs too)?



I am juz an ordinary human, believing in sumting dat cud serve as an antidote to me n da world, while still realising it mite -slash- will never happen till da day I close me eyes eternally. But as long, I think, as I have a mind 2 fantasise, a heart 2 feel my own dream version of love, no one (even you) cud stop me from doing so.


After all, because of this hope, Zokhri Idris is still standing, searching, struggling and most importantly STILL LIVING.



BIBILIOGRAPHY:
The author wud like 2 acknowledge Adam Mohamed 4 providing da Twilight quotes by bugging my cell wif all his ill-intentional words (grins) every single day without failed since he’d gone back 2 his lil ‘Forks’ of Miri.


THE END -

Monday, December 15, 2008

Its da time of d year again ...

December is back ... 4 da 25th time in my life.


I know, I can use dis month as a reason 2 av extra pocket-money from mum when I had my uni years. I mean, no reasonable man wud stay in Manchester wif extremely cold, gloomy n sun-less n boring-est weeks. But since, Im back home, I dun think its gonna help, is it? (pity me)


But hols is cuming n I juz cant sit pretending everything will be alrite. Need 2 get me arse sumwhere. n after a short deliberation n concerntration, I think these are da things I gonna do (although I admit they r still @ planning stage)


One : Visiting me Kalsom mentees in Kedah.


Two : Vacation wif sum1. Dun ask. I wont answer.


Three : Going up-north wif AEI frens. We intend 2 go round Langkawi beginning Jan 5th.


Four: Going 4 Mama Mia Theatre wif Japanese mates (probably on Dec 28th, tapi yaqen jerk ada tix walhal tix x beli lg)


Worst,


Five : Completing Dr Camroux's 3000 mini dissertation on European Regional Integration n Dr Rossi's Research Methodologies written paper.


Plus : My Doctoral Research Proposal 4 next year (juz in case I cant land on promising job)


Quite filling aite? Wat say ye?


1251
AEI - 5th last day of school -

Friday, December 05, 2008

RESEARCH METHODOLOGIES & DATA SAMPLING

Yeah, u read it rite. Its a subject dat has made my nite restless n my day less-productive. Wondering Y? Its becuz 4 da past 1 week, I’ve been drilling me arse (or in a nice and polite way of literature: burning my midnite oil) (LoL) 2 cope wif dis subject preparing a mega extravaganza assessment 2day. I had (still cant believe I’ve done it) a research proposal presentation n exam back 2 back in 2days’s session.

Though I never experience such ‘sandwich assesssment’ in my entire life, I must rate it as challenging yet manageable. It wasnt too bad enw. I’m still alive @ least ... sound n safe. All of my preliminary worriness which suggest i’ll screw up in da end turn out 2 b a superstition.

N true, God has sent His Message in a # of ways including while learning sumting (academically & empirically) 4 da exam. I was being reminded by Dr Eva Rossi dat not all objects cud b treated as a sample. (OK, I know u wont be happy wif dis, but kindly bear wif me yeah). Although “random probability sampling” wud b a best approach 2 generalise da entire population, a researcher must always beware wif da existence of “bias sample” i.e. distortion in da representativeness of da sample. Hence @ times, da scientist community must apply purposive criteria (2 select samples according 2 our criteria in order 2 diversify our results & achieve our targets).

Wat happened in da past few weeks were an excellent illustration 2 wat I’ve learnt. Im missing those once I’ve called a fren, im loosing those, who were once I cherished 4 their existence in my life. Their presence was clearly be felt, while their absence gradually distancing them from my life.

@ once, I was hard 2 accept dis. I was 1 who believed frens r 4ever n frenship wud always everlast despite changes in life. I was hardly 2 loose 1 if I had him/her. I adored em truly n 4getting em, wud never be an option or sumting 2 think about.

And ...... I was wrong.

People (frens) come and go in our life. They cant stay 4ever (unless they really wanted 2 do so). N we cant force em 2 remain no matter how hard we tried. Once betrayal – disloyalty came into da picture, dat wud be da terminating factor of da relationship. N true, i cant pursuade em 2 sail wif me till da end of my voyage, I cant make em stay juz bcuz I’m heading 2 a different path. Who am I 2 hold u 4ever, juz bcuz we have a different way of life?

Da world 2day is a a world full of lies n hidden motives by da mortals.

We do sumting bcuz we desire 3 sumting.

We (@ times) befriending sum1 juz 2 achieve personal goals n targets.

We befriending sumbody powerful juz bcuz we want 2 b powerful.

We been closed wif sumbody brilliant juz becuz we want 2 b 1

We been acquaintant sum1 superior juz bcuz we want 2 get sumting in da end.

We been intimate wif sum1 as an escape route from harm/danger.


Sound a cliche but reality speaks ... n I had 2 put a stop 4 all dis creatures from keep on pestering n interfering my life.

I can see a difference in ur eyes when Im no longer important 2 u. U were once been nice 2 me, assuming I can help –slash- make u pass Legal Studies brilliantly. N my friendly n approachable style really make u think U can actually do da subject wif a lil assistance from me. U expected 2 much. U’ve been asking more that wat a student supposed 2 ask. N u were abusing my companionship juz 2 make u score (wif a lil effort of urs)

N God is great. Turned out I am not da 1 u can rely on. My virgin year of lecturing shows im not able to fulfill ur demand n expectation. I admit (emphasis added) dat its partly my fault, but I cudnt accept if one doesnt allow me 2 keep on trying n improving. If all my effort 2 try, n my commitment 2 serve better (despite my weaknesses 2 offer) arent valued or appreciated, I feel dere’s no need 4 me 2 stay. If I’m convinced dat my endless effort n struggle make no big deal 2 u (n u still put da blame on me) I see no point of keep on trying.

I’VE TO EXCLUDE U FROM MY LIFE AND FIND SUMTING DAT SERVES ME BETTER (according 2 Purposive Sampling n Distortion Sampling methodologies)

2nd illustration.

On prima facie, i innocently thot dat my preliminary weeks as a stud wil bring me some new hopes although (honestly) I’ve been warned by fellow colleagues n relatives, dat learning in Malaysian Public University wudnt turn out as nice as I had previously. Ppl ere r full of poli-ticking n double (multi) faced. My initial moments wif frens in AEI, was full of laughters n imaginary plans. We wanted 2 do dis, wished 2 do dat. We planned 2 go ere n dere, filling our study-year wif loads of fun n enjoyment. Da diversity of ethnicity dat I’ve encountered was fulfilling as we vowed 2 knoe each other, 2 learn from each other n 2 help each other.

We wanted 2 make our 7 month-stay in AEI a remarkable, splendid n enjoyous moment.

But as time passes by, I’ve realised dat da foundation dat we built is diluting n fading. True, look can b deceiving n never judge da person based on da 1st time u met. As we go along, I can c sum changes in U (n probably in me too) where we now lead 2 a period of selfishness, individualistic n win-loose situation. I swear, if I know da SC election wud be da stepping stone 4 us 2 loose apart, I wudnt even bother 2 go n vote.

If I knew da existence of SC wud only segmenting us into blocks n clicks, I wudnt even interested 2 be part of it.

But da true colour of oneself will somehow emerge, no matter how hard s/he tried 2 cover up @ da first place. We now no longer live in peace n harmony (although we laugh n smile 2gether) knowing some parasits n traitors are also part of our life. Da plans we ‘ve arranged, now known as memory dat I doubt, will b fondly remembered.

Its hard 2 trust (even any1 of u) as we r driven into our own personal goals n aims. Anything dat we say (4 da sake of having fun) will b used 2 againts us. We, all humans in AEI, live in pretentious, double faced, n 2 certain extent, hypocrite. We b closed wif sum1 dat matches us, @ da same time be distant wif sum1 dat we dun like. We r indirectly drawing some islands within ourselves, n no longer live as one big happy family.

No hard feelings yeah. Im not putting da blame on any1 (u know who u r better than I do). Perhaps dis is just da way. Its is natural phenomenon – neither can be stopped nor can be prevented by any1, no matter from da most inferior 2 da most superior.

SHAME ON US FELLOW COLLEAGUES.

N I’m now leading my way, setting up my path n leave behind dis S***. I dun care wat’s gonna happen, dun even give a S*** what’s happening. I dun give a damn on ur self-politicking, self propaganda and agenda and all. All I know, is 2 get my grades, while working on my doctorate proposal, n off I go when da time comes. But dat doesnt mean im gonna exclude myself from da crowd. Im still da old Zokh dat u know, who loves 2 smile n love 2 help. But if u give me dis silly-billy stuffs n things, JUZ GET LOST, WILL YA!! I HAD ENUFF.

Im no longer need ppl (like u) who distracts me from my path. I dun need ppl, who deviates me away from da track I’ve setted. I juz dun want 2 loose my focus as dis is juz a temporary station, b4 Im moving 2 my final destination. Call me selfish – call me stubborn, but once I’ve sed dat, dats da way is gonna be. Fullstop. Khalas.

So Im glad 2 b taught by Dr Eva Rossi (despite every1 mite feel differently). She has made me realised on how important 2 b choosy and selective. After all, we cant please everyone and its 4 my own good in near future. Why I shud be engaging wif irrelevant samples (people), knowing da fact they wont lead me 2 my objectives. Just get rid of it, n move on, innit?

N im still av my own circles n sibs (a new word introduced by Sid). I still av strengths 2 rely 2, sources 2 hang on 2, n voices of hope 2 listen 2 – which take me 2 dis wonderful opportunity, 2 thank those who still stay by my side, lending ur support, sending ur prayers n above all, ushering me all dis while. U guys rock n I will never able to thank u 4 dat.

I shall get dis done n 4 u, I will make it no matter wat comes.

A credit 2 Dr Eva Rossi (University of Rome, La Sapienza)


xxx

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

A TOAST TO TOCK


In few hours from now, my dear acquaintant will be commemorating his 24th birthday. Although a mate’s birthday cud b a common, but knowing dis lad, dis day is truly awaited n be counted by me. Simply because, for his past 365 days, he had made my life bliss and wonderful, offering a hand when I’m falling, holding me when I’m walking off straying from da track.


Dis guy is no ordinary 2 me n 2 his circle of frens. He is –slash always- dere when I need him. Although himself is surrounded wif countless probs (blatantly) but his accompany is second to none. His ears are always dere when I need 2 share, his shoulder always be a place 2 cry on n his piece of mind is always sounding for me 2 ponder upon.


True, a perfect fren he is not (as a matter of fact, he abandoned me 4 four months, diclaimer- wif gud reason(s) I think) but always by himself trying 2 be one. He knows how 2 console me, 2 compensate his wrongs 2wards me n 2 replace my worries wif some hope. Yes, he is juz an ordinary man. A simple one indeed. But he treats his frens extraordinarily.



N 4 dat reason, I’m taking dis splendid moment, 2 usher dis wonderful gift of the Lord Almighty, on his 24th birthday


WISHING HIM A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY


To CHRISTOPHER TOCK ZHIN FEI (TOCKIE)


I know I’m juz one of ur bunch of frens. Probably a casual one. I never ask u out 4 a fine dinner (as u did) neither give u costly prezzies. All Im giving is my unlimited n sincerest prayers n thoughts – May God guide u safe n tide, grant u health n wealth, be blessed through thick n thin ... above all, may u feel blessed and bliss, in anything dat u do, anywhere dat u will be n whoever u will be with.

Doesn’t matter whether u’ve achieved success in ur dreams or encountered failures in ur journey, u always av a place 2 stay in my heart. 4getting me is up 2 u, 4getting you I will never do.


A TOAST TO TOCK!!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

L.O.V.E.

I have to tell dat, up 2 dis moment, I’ve been receiving many (if not countless) concerns addressed by frens n mates. As many predict, its all bout nothing else but 4 my recent entry, which I believe, has invited many speculations n self-interpretation from others ... positioning myself as da story teller (whom he personally experience it). I thank for all early morning calls, texts, facebook messages and other means of reaching me. Ur concerns r truly treasured.


Please allow me, to reflect on few points raised. It is indeed, da presence of S, was out of contemplation n imagination. I wasn’t prepared neither I cudnt think reasonably, making me in da deepest level of quandary. True, if sum1 is in love, s/he shudnt be distracted by da presence of a stranger (who deliberately expressed his feelings). I confess, that it was my entire fault, despite da fact i’m attached wif sum1, I cud be easily distracted by an old fren, who has been disappearing 4 such a long time.


To those who think I’m a slut, unloyal 2 my love n ungrateful, I beg to differ. I admit, I shudnt vignette myself 2 b disturbed by a third party, establishing da fact I’m wif sum1. But such interference wasn’t from another (potential) lover; dat person was merely offering a reverence of frenship in a complicated n totally different way. Indubitably, its da matter on how we perceive da issue in hand and as be told, my love 2 da one, hasn’t diminished nor faded. Its a solid brick which only being improvised by unwelcomed wind n water. Its testing my love and endurance to sum1 dat I truly adore but I assure u nothing has changed my feelings 2 dis person. Da test in painful, debilitating both of us, but so long we sincere in wat we intend, things will be made easy eventually.


Second, I av learnt dat love comes wif many versions n interpretations. It also allows us 2 express it in a different way, suiting one’s motive. For instance, my unconditional love 2 me parents wudnt be da same wif my everlasting love 2 me ‘sunshine’. Its not da same n wud never b da same. Same goes 2 all my male frens, female frens, coursemates, my sibs, cuzzies n all. In fact I love everyone who loves me. As much as they treasure me in their life, I value them even more.


Same goes in here. Probably I do feel in love wif my fren S, but da love 4 S wud be distincted wif da 1 dat I truly cherish. Its not, at all, a matter of loving 2 ppl @ da same time, but its just a variation of love one needs to express to different parties. Meaning, I am now av 2 draw a demarcation, making a room 4 each of every1 dat I love in my heart. Obviously, my ‘soulmate’ wud always be da priority, but dat wudnt eliminate da others from sharing bits n pieces in my remembrance n thoughts. If I am able 2 divide my body equally 2 every1, I wud how sacrificed my soul 2 do dat.But. I. Just. Cant. Even if I cant, dividing my time n devotion equally seem far from possible n satisfying.


Dats y I (really) need ur help, dear ‘sumone’,

4 u 2 guide me through thick n thin, showing me da path to go dis through 2gether. I cant do it alone neither leaving my sole intelligence n decipherence 2 handle dis. I want u 2 av me without taking me away from my loved ones. I have vowed 2 serve u, 2 devote my life 2 u wif all my heart yet Im juz a simple guy n miscrospic chap needed by others too. N I need them 2 spice up me life while Im totally tranquilled n ravishingly grateful wif ur love n tender.

Wat happened last week, was a moment sent by Almighty Lord, 2 testify my vows I have pledged 2 u. It wasn’t an easy one or da first, neither da last dat i have to wade. Da wave will bloat 2 b larger, tougher n unimaginably vast 2 b handled n tellin ya, I cud have drowned in dis fiery sea without ur arms 2 guide me through


2others who boggled witnessing my follies n were eussing my betrayal from love, Im sorry. Yeah, da old Zokhri u’ve known isn’t da same as u know now. He was one believed in da power of luv n it wud unsurpassed everything dat comes. He is now wronged, kneeling on da ground wif both hands up-raised, surrendering dat da reality has indeed taught him, dat da power of love is always has its glory n downcast. He has also learnt, sumtimes, love can b bliss but also as an utter despondency.


A holly Romeo I am not, who is willing 2 die 4 his everlasting Juliet. Not even da notoriously Helen, who superseded her grassroots juz 2 b wif Troy. I am juz Zokhri, a blundered n irresistible while my feet are stumbled, clamped on earth, unsure of its direction n movement.


But I love my love beyond everyone can compare. I wondrously place dis person @ da deepest part of my heart – unreachable n sealed tightly in my secret sanctuary. For dis mortal is da reason why I am blissful n blessed, in dis bewitched n misleading life I am going through.


Yours,
ZI

D.E.S.T.I.N.Y. by Jim Brickman

What if I never knew
What if I never found you
I never had this feeling in my heart

How did this come to be
I dont know how you found me
But from the moment I saw you
Deep inside my heart I knew


Baby your my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I’ll give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be
My destiny


I wanted someone like you
Someone that I could hold on to
And give my love until the end of time
But forever was just a word (just a word)
Something Id only heard about
But now youre always there for me
When you say forever I believe


Baby your my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I’ll give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be
My destiny


Baby all we need
Is just a little faith
Cuz baby I believe
That love will find a way


Baby your my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I’ll give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
From now until eternity
You were always meant to be
My destiny
You are my destiny



P/S: dis isnt a dedication 2 S. Its sumone dat I've destiny with 4 da last 4 years, now and in near future amen xxx

Thursday, November 06, 2008

DESTINY ...

"If its my destiny, to having you as my best fren, wif ur mercy my Lord, I shalt accept it"

It has already been a year n half since I met u (back down da memory lane of Manchester). We din connected @ 1st. I din (4 God sake) know u. da 1st glance we met way back in me housemate's room. it was dat unexpected concidence (we both know) dat made us closer (or was it me da only 1 who felt).

2007 comes, we fell apart

u disappeared without any notes, not even a gudbye. Vanished from me eyes, even harder 2 diminish u from me heart and mind. only bit n pieces of u makes our memory alive.

Summer ends, September comes ...


KLCC: Without signs n clue, we accidentally met. We were in different directions, heading in n out respectively from da elevator. U called me name n I turned. Our sights met n holds. I swear dat da world stood silence to me n i can feel da clock stopped tickling. It was juz within seconds n da doors began to shut. All I know was da curse dat u threw @ me.

OK I knew it was my fault, for not reaching u once im back home. It was me wrong not 2 contact u when I'm back home. But I juz cant. What was I supposed to do? I got no guts 2 reach u as I taught, it cud be better if we juz stay apart, heading 2 our own life separately.

Months passed n I'm glad


Till suddenly u rang me n I was freaking gobsmacked. da person dat I once admired, n I once discarded, is talking 2 me. I was stunned yet felt overreacted, although u mite call it as a warm n frenly chat but Lord knows how much I sweat.

n dat's da way u play da game, innit?

U rang me whenever u like, without answering me calls whenever I need u

Wat da hell u think I am into ur life?

Ur lonely chatter?

Ur accompany when dere's no 1 wants to talk to u?

How cud u?

n knowing u, u always got reasons .... Yeah I know - complicated life - series of entrenched conflicts n dilemmas - financial constraints n watever u call it

"OK fine," I sed

"Its always u who got reasons n those reasons hinder u from understanding wat others felt bout ya,"

"U r juz being ignorant n cudnt be bothered wat u av caused 2 others ... or perhaps ur problems are da 1 n only need 2 b addressed n given priority @."


But last week was da blow ...


U asked, "Zack, do u av feelings 4 me?"

I re-asked, "Wat da hell is dat supposed to mean? Arent we being frens all dis while?"

"But I know dats not wat u feel deep inside," S replied (let da person be known as S)

Stop it. How wud u know?"

"I juz know"

"Bullshit. U never know"

"As a matter of fact, I do"


Silence was da moment dat we gone through.


"Watever it is, its not important 4 u 2 know. We meant 2 b frens n lets b frens. Fullstop." Im making my way out.

"Its important 4 me 2 knoe Zack."

"No its not. Moreover, I juz dun want 2 ruin dis frenship cuz its damn hard 2 get n to hold it."

"But I promise u Zack, Nothing will change if u tell me."

"If nothing will change, why shud I tell ya? Get a life, will ya?"

"Becuz I want 2 know"

"Why da blardy hell do u wanna know?"

"Bcuz I care bout u. Yes, I care bout u Zack."


I teared ... though no one cud hear


"Can u answer my question, zackie? PLEASE"

"Err" suddenly dats da only sound i made. Clueless I was, blurred as I dunno how 2 find my way of escape.

"Yes? dere's sumting u wanna tell me, dun ya?"

".............." I answered da question loud n clear wifout any prompts n pause. It was so vivid n flawless as I spoke from my heart without hiding, reducing or adding sumting. Yes, even a bit. ( 4 my hounour and love 2 dis person, I shall not disclose dis part ... let it b a secret between us )


Long silence.


"U still dere?" I asked

"Thanks Zack. Thank You so much"


Friday 31st Oct 2008.


We met n dined. I shud av chosen to dine wif my AEI frens but I've chosen h _ _. We re-meet @ KLCC n we drove 2 KL out-circuit 2 av a fine, pleasant and private dinner.

"Im scared u will b hurt Zack. Cuz we both know dat I cant do it. Plus my endless probs in life will drive u crazy (retard) juz like me. n I dun want u 2 b hurt (especially by me) cuz I dun want to loose dis frenship. I cherish all of my frens including u and loosing u will never be bearable 2 me. But I cant be as wat u want me 2 b"

I smiled (between da bitterness n sweetness) mildly

"My dear S. Given a chance 2 serve u as a fren is more than enuff 2 me. I want 2 help u n I really do. Perhaps God has DESTINED me 2 fall in love wif u by helping u 2 escape from all da prob u encountered wif. n Im glad I can do dat for sumone dat I love. So I wont be hurt. True, for not getting sumting da we truly desire can be devastating. It will be a catastrophe n u will never want to try on new things. But if u cant get da whole piece of cake, isnt it a slice wud be grateful?"

We drove back home n Im trying hard 2 accept h_ _, da frenship, h _ _ presence n care (although limited) as my DESTINY.


I love u S. n I know I wont be having ur love but still, I love You.


At nites I cry,
xxx

Monday, November 03, 2008

THE DAY IS 2MORO YAUWWW


OR


MY HEART SAYS



LET DA BEST MAN WIN,
FOR THE BEST OF ITS COUNTRY AND
FOR THE BLESSINGS OF THE WORLD
XXX

I'm back ...

Dere U go,

A long, informative and scholarly masterpiece below-attached. After two weeks of devotion and passionate obedience, dis is da best I can produce for my disertation 4 dis subject i.e. Globalisation and Economy Development. It mite not be excellent, but speaking 4 non-economic background species, dis is far better, beyong my expectation.


Voilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ...


Remember my previous dilemma last week, I'm surely gonna write sumting bout it. God knows when but it will happen. Lately, frenship has boomed towards its limit.


Pen off 4 now,
ZI

China and Economic Liberalisation

INTRODUCTION

While Asian countries are currently struggling to free themselves from the world’s economic crisis, China stands stably dealing with such catastrophe. It is not surprising to acknowledge, according to Shenkar, that China is ‘the only Communist nation (admittedly with an increasing open economy) to achieve rapid economic growth over a sustainable period.’[1] The ability of this former British colony to become ‘an engine of growth for the entire region and a complement if not a substitute to developed country market are not cynical and temporary but represent fundamental restructuring of the global business system and a repositioning of its key constituencies’.[2]

This research aims to justify those positive allegations put forward to China and together to reveal its hidden secrets in becoming a tremendous bargaining power in Asian region. It will also critically examine the five developmental stages underwent by the Chinese regime emerging as an influential economic stability among its neighbours. The five developmental stages can be identified as the following:

1) The Planned Economy of Policy of Self-Reliance (1948)
2) Cultural Revolution (October 1966)
3) Economic Reforms (1978)
4) Integration with the General Agreement on Tariffs and Trade (1948 – 2000)
5) China’s Accession to World Trade Organisation (December 2001).

The research will also highlight the decreasing of Communism ideology and the new modified ‘Chinese socialist system’ and how the latter conquered the former in the mid 1970s and onwards. It is hoped that, one will be critically understand these economic metaphors of China, its causes and reasons, as well as its impact on China’s economic standing ability.


THE PLANNED ECONOMY OF POLICY OF SELF-RELIANCE (1948)

This Mao Tse-Tung formulated policy can be defined as ‘a principle that calls for Chinese to rely on their own efforts to achieve their political and economic goals.’[3] In a simpler word, Ross describes it as a mean of ‘regenerating China through its own effort,’ without holding any external source and influence onto its economic development. By asserting this to an illustration, the government (state)[4] will hold an ‘overwhelming shares of its economic and state control of economic activities, leaving market operation to a bare minimum.’[5]
This includes that the private individuals holds no ownership of the assets and their contributions and earning will mainly directing to the state rather than personal individual. In return, on the state side, it will administer an equal and fair distribution of public goods and wealth back to the society.

One might argue that it is a form of collective responsibility governance due to the equal distribution despite of variance in contribution. However, since the government control is dominating and prevailing excessively in this practice, it is doubtful whether the practice meant to put the public as a central agenda. The policy is believed to exist, considering these four possible theories:[6]

1) Having known the pain of dependence in the period of the Manchu Dynasty encounter with the West, the Chinese are determined to be totally independent;
2) Self-reliance appears to be related to China’s long tradition of cultural self-containment;
3) A key tenet of Marxism to which history and culture pushed by Mao is that internal factors are always decisive in a country’s affair;
4) Objective facts of China’s great size and agriculture economy have made self-reliance in part the rationalisation of necessity.

Study has suggested that, out of four, the fourth theory seems to be more acceptable. This is because China was in a transitional period after the World War 2, particularly in restoring herself with economic stability and prosperity. Also at that time, agriculture is one of the surviving industries for the citizens post war. Beginning 1956, the policy of self-reliance has been loosening up because of a strong Soviet influence on the Chinese Communist Regime (CCR). Research believes that the Regime had lost much confidence in the Maoist principle and decided to affiliate the self-reliance policy with a policy of ‘leaning to one side’ i.e. the Soviet. The CCR adopted a replica of the Soviet Union model in terms of its technology, education and thinking.[7]

However, the latter policy seems to be a fiasco as Moscow withdrew its technical assistance to China. Admittedly, the Research has found no solid evidence to this withdrawal but during the in the mind 1950s, ‘strains in the Sino-Soviet alliance (SSA) gradually began to emerge over questions of ideology, security and economic development.’[8] No doubt, the CCR leaders were unhappy about the U.S.S.R.’s Nikita Khrushcher’s approach ‘toward the Stalinisation peaceful coexistence with the West.’[9] They perceived it as a betrayal to the SSA established by two countries. In addition, Beijing was disturbed due to the following:[10]

a) Insufficient degree of support given by Moscow, in recovering Taiwan;
b) The Soviet’s proposal for a join naval arrangement which leading to a secondary position of China;
c) The Soviet’s impartiality on 1959 tension on Sino-Indian border.

The research concluded the peak of this conflict exploded from 1966 – 1969, where China blatantly condemning the U.S.S.R. and reduced trade relation drastically between the two countries. In a nutshell, the policy of self-reliance is a ‘dependence of China’s own experiences and resources, emphasising revolutionary zeal over scientific management, reducing China’s indebtedness, encouraging indigenous technological innovation as a substitute for the import of foreign technology.’[11]



CULTURAL REVOLUTION (OCTOBER 1966)

As a result of a total frustration of the Sino-Soviet Relations, the CCR was re-invited to observe its policy of self-reliance. However, the reversal to its previous practice is considered as an exaggeration due to the government’s extremism in closing ‘the doors of international relations.’ The Revolution is defined as a battle of power in the CCR that observed into a broad range of social, political and economy violence and chaos, which involves the public at large and subsequently leading to Civil War.

It was launched by Mao Tse-Tung on May 16, 1966, officially as ‘an urge to free China from its “liberal bourgeoisie” elements and to resume revolutionary class struggle by mobilising the thoughts and ideas of China’s youngsters.’[12] Cohn suggests that, the revolution became even more autarkic because Mao launched the “Great Leap Forward”, creating special communes (cultural nexus of power) i.e. utilising the country men’s human capital and mass mobilization. However, Mao fails to adequately provide a reasonable justification of his action which led the country to uproar.

Research has found that the Communist Party of China (CPC) leaders were only jumped to the conclusion that everything was the fault of capitalist-roaders.[13] It is alleged that, however, the main target of the Revolution was to reform the culture and education at the society level and the organisation arrangement at the government level. Thus, the government managed to list down the purported objectives, justifying the rationale of implementing the revolution.[14] The objectives were purported:

a) to change the mental outlook of the society;
b) to crush capitalist sympathisers within the ruling party;
c) to criticise and to repudiate the reactionary bourgeoisie academic authorities;
d) to facilitate the consolidation of development of the socialist system.


The effects of the Revolution can be felt both directly and indirectly to all Chinese citizen. It was a massive destruction to China because most (if not all) of the Chinese treasure were damaged and demolished. For instance, the Revolution had allocated the education system to a virtual halt where many intellectuals were discriminated and being expelled out of the city. It created the current generation of insufficient educated individuals.

The world regarded the destruction brought by the Revolution as ‘tarnishing China’s image in the West.’[15] The consensus feedback reported that the Cultural Revolution was a strong approach of the government, resulting to unmitigated disaster and event to be avoided in time to come. These assertions are believed to be based on reasons of lack of democracy and dangers of extreme rigidity.



ECONOMIC REFORMS (1978)

In 1979, the CPC came to realise that the Soviet style system they were implementing since 1950s, was contributing little success in improving the standard of living in China. The economic revolution was also accused for its failure to minimise the economic gap between China and other developing countries.

According to Shenkar, several lessons were learnt by the Regime, allowing them to retreat from the failed revolution.[16] The lessons, inter alia, taught the Chinese leaders that:

1) The combination of ideology and economy was explosive i.e. it is a risky take of the government to mirror economy with the concept of nation governance;
2) Technology could not be delivered more than routine. In fact, such transfer must be based on ongoing performance and focusing only on fundamental mental transformation;
3) The fortunes of the regime were intricately intertwined with those of the nation particularly economic prosperity. This reflects to the “Mandate of Heaven”[17] principle encapsulated by the Confucius.

This reform of 1978 under the leadership of Den Xiaoping aimed to generate adequate surplus funding to support the modernisation of Chinese economy. This is because, China has been receiving pressures to liberalise its trade and made its economy open to all firms, be locally or abroad. Hence, the government had divided the reforms into three phases,[18] which consist of:

a) The First Reform in the late 1970s and early 1980s.
It focused on opening the trade to other foreign countries, instituting the household responsibility system in agriculture[19], and the establishment of Town and Village Enterprises (TVEs)

b) The Second Reform in the late 1980s and early 1990s.
It attempted to create a pricing system[20] to decrease the role of the state in resource allocation.

c) The Third Reform in the late 1990s.
It struggled on closing unprofitable enterprises and dealing with insolvency in the banking system.

A lot of academics seem to suggest that the Chinese economy reform is not a form of capitalism but would be more to socialism with Chinese characteristics. This is because it was designed by highlighting the centralisation of its planning structure so that there were only winners and no losers. Second, the intention of this reform was to create a new system rather than revamping the old.

To conclude, Den’s economic reforms meets a considerably amount of success as it was proven to improvise the Chinese economic state, to restore the loss suffered by the citizens due to the failure of planned economy policy of self-reliance and cultural revolution.



INTEGRATION WITH GENERAL AGREEMENT ON TARIFFS AND TRADE GATT (1948 – 2000)

The research has not found solid, vivid evidence as to why China decided to join the General Agreement on Tariffs and Trade back in 1948. However, it is convinced that China’s decision to seek GATT membership indicated its seriousness to depart from the planned economy of self-reliance policy which has proven to be an unsuccessful.[21] Hence, one of the ways in reforming Chinese economy is to allow more exposure and more movement of goods and capital in and out of China. All GATT’s members will then acknowledge China’s liberalisation measures and grant a green light to have access to their exports and imports market. In fact, China’s involvement in GATT has witnessed an increase of its ratio of trade to GDP rose from less than 10% in 1978 to 30% in 1996.[22]

On the other hand, the GATT is alleged to carry many weaknesses, and to certain extent, frustrated its contracting party. [23] One of the accepted theories by experts is because GATT’s informality has opened to many of its weaknesses.[24] First, some of the trade sectors such as agriculture and textiles were excluded from GATT regulation, while these are the main economic booster for China’s achievement. By putting its hands-off from governing these two areas, many countries especially China seem not to benefit from the scenario.

Second, because of its informality nature, the agreement was seen as a toothless-tiger in binding the countries. For example, some states ignored the GATT ban on import quota through voluntary exports restraints, at the same time urging others to voluntarily decrease their imports.



Third, GATT’s seriousness in procedures settlements are often be argued and questioned. This has lead to the final weakness of it when it has failed to realise the emergence and the importance of regulating trade in services, intellectual property and investment. These four weaknesses have allegedly to affect China’s determination to stand globally as a world exporter for agriculture and textiles.

To contradict, some analysts had argued that GATT’s informality had made it more effective in assisting its member countries’ (MC) needs. Its informality has better served the countries in need because, as according to Cohn, its informality has proven to promote flexibility and in implementing adaptability.[25]



CHINA’S ACSESSION TO WORLD TRADE ORGANISATION
WTO (DECEMBER 2001)

China assumed its ‘willingness to make substantial concessions to join WTO reflected a recognition that it needs to continue (even intensify) its economic transition to protect the national security.’[26] The burden lies onto the Chinese government to secure its domestic market, when competing with foreign markets. The government must also ensure that its “internationalised” transformation will not put its domestic economy at stake.[27]

Hence, this part of the discussion will examine whether this trend of internationalising China’s economy has tremendously stimulate its domestic achievement, competing with alien firms. First, it is also worth to highlight, the lengthy period of negotiation in regards to China’s accession to WTO. There are several issues (considering China was never re-admitted to GATT post 1950) centralising its delay to the accession.

First, although China has stated its intention to liberalise its economy, such intention was lacking of transparency. Scott argued that, the Chinese economic liberalisation has not been materialised transparently because the ‘U.S. trade deficit with China increased from $17.8 billion in 1989 to $90.2 billion in 2001.’[28]

Second, there was a clash of interest, regarding China’s status in the WTO, which later would have major significance on its membership. China requested special treatment in the WTO that was ‘accorded to developing countries (DC) at similar stages of economic development.’[29] Many WTO members claimed that China should be granted the same conditions as DC considering its size and status as a world exporter. China, on the other hand, view its imbalance in market access was a serious concern and due to this, it fails to achieve the DC status.
Third, because of China’s poor record on enforcing agreements, the MC have lost their faith to China. For instance, its failures to enforce the 1992 U.S.-China agreement of intellectual property, has caused a rapid growth of piracy of computer programs and music recordings in Southern China and those were largely distributed to another MC.[30] China argued it has improved the monitoring to certain extent, but study has suggested such illegality was still rampant in Chinese big cities.[31]

Those were the impediments to China’s accession because the WTO will only operate with ‘mutual respect, equal opportunity, sharing advantages and open trade’ to all countries. Resulting from series of negotiation, China has agreed to undertake some important commitments to WTO members.

a) Non-discrimination.
China will carry-out non-discrimination treatment to all WTO members. All foreign individuals and enterprises, including non-China registered company, will be treated no less favourable than the one accorded in China. Everyone shares the same capacity in regards to right to trade. However, China will still maintain its exclusive rights of state trading for goods such as cereals, tobacco, fuels and minerals. Those restrictions are believed has been uplifted or considerably eased after a three year phase-out period.

b) Preferential treatments.
China will ban dual prices practices as well as different treatment accorded to products to be sold in China in comparison for exports. In other words, price controls will not be applicable for purposes of protecting the domestic industries and services. This is to provide an equal and fair competition to all.

c) Tariffs reduction.
China will lower their import tariffs on goods for other MC as agreed in the accession. Within three years of accession. All enterprise will have the right to import and export all goods and trade with very less restrictions.

As a result of this implementation, a report by WTO confirms that China’s bound tariff level decreases to 15% for agricultural product.[32] The industrial goods average bound tariff reducing down to 8.9% with a range of 0-47%.[33] Clearly this is not an excellent standard achieved through its implementation, but forecast has mostly agreed that more reductions are expected to take place in the near future.

China textile market will no longer enjoy a fixed quota as it was come to an end on 31st December 2004 as agreed during the Agreement on textile and Clothing. Similarly, agriculture’s subsidies have been limited to 8.5% of the value of farm output.[34] The farmers and land enterprises are expected to generate the income and boost the internal and external market free from government assistance.

Lastly, relating to services sector, there were a huge concerns from the domestic industries as to the survival of domestic enterprises in the world market. The CCR indeed had negotiated for a longer protection (according to other developing countries). However, WTO only permits a “shorter grace periods” for China after weighting all evidences and its prosperity records. For example, the Banking Sector will be completely open in 2006, rather than 8 to 10 years for others developing countries. For telecommunication services, foreign investments are expected to have no restriction after 5 years of the accession.

No doubt, the Chinese enterprises suffered greatest shock due to this drastic commitment of the Chinese government. They were forced to compete internationally without preparing themselves to do so.



CONCLUSION

The study on China’s economy liberalisation seems to be limitless as there are many hidden facts which yet to be revealed in this project. However the research manages to identify the reasons behind the transformation from the Communist style to the new Chinese Socialist System which believed to be an eye-opener to series of international integration between China and other MC. The research suggests that should be an empirical study on the impacts of Chinese economy after 7 years joining the WTO.

(2992 WORDS EXCLUDING TEXTBOXES, FOOTNOTES AND BIBILIOGRAPHY)


BIBLIOGRAPHY

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[2] The Chinese Century, 2005 p. 2
[3] Terrill R, China and the World: Self-Reliance or Interdependence?, Foreign affairs; http://www.foreignaffairs.org/19770101faesay%2098/10/ross-terrill/ viewed on October 28th 2008
[4] The Chinese Communist Party is the governing ruler in China after they ousted the Nationalist Party to Taiwan.
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[7] Shenkar O,The Chinese Century: The Rising Chinese Economy and Its Impact on the Global Economy, The Balance of Power, And Your Job, Wharton School Publishing, 2005. p. 33
[8] U.S. Library of Congress; http://www.countrystudies.us/china/128.htm viewed on October 28th 2008.
[9] U.S. Library of Congress
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[12] Cultural Revolution – Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cultural_Revolution
[13] Discovering China: The Cultural Revolution http://library.thinkquest.org/26469/cultural-revolution/beginning.html viewed on October 6th, 2008
[14] On August 8th, 1966, the Central Committee of the CPC passed its “Decision Concerning the Great Proletarian Cultural Revolution”. (Also known as the 16th points)
[15] Tucker, Nancy Bernkopf [2001] (2001) China Confidential: American Diplomats and Sino – American Relations, 1945 – 1996. Columbia University Press. ISBN 021106300.
[16] Shenkar O,The Chinese Century: The Rising Chinese Economy and Its Impact on the Global Economy, The Balance of Power, And Your Job, Wharton School Publishing, 2005. p. 33
[17] It means if the emperor failed to deliver prosperity, the citizen had not only the right, but also a duty to unseat him.
[18] Economy Reform in the People’s Republic of China: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/China%27s_economic-Reforms. Viewed on October 6th, 2008.
[19] Farmers were able to retain surplus over individual plots of land rather than firming for the collective: Yang, Dali, Calamity and Reform in China: State, Rural Society and Institutional Change since the Great Leap Famine. Stanford University Press, 1996.
[20] Some goods and services were allocated at state controlled prices, while others were allocated at market price: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/China%27s_economic_reforms
[21] Cohn T, Global Trade Relations (Chapter 8); Global Political Economy Theory and Practice (4th ed); Pearson International Edition, 2008; p. 221
[22] Hiddo H, “China’s Economy Reforms and Intergration into the World Trading System, “Journal of World Trade 33, no 3 (June 1999), pp. 4-5.
[23] One of the major weaknesses of GATT is because it was designed to be a provisional treaty, countries joining it were “contracting parties” rather than formal members of Agreement: Cohn T, Global Trade Relations (Chapter 8); Global Political Economy Theory and Practice (4th ed); Pearson International Edition, 2008; p. 221
[24] Barry Eichengreen and Peter b. Kenen, “Managing the World Economy Under the Bretton Woods System; An Overview,” Peter B. Kenen, ed., Managing the World Economu: Fifty Years after Bretton Woods (Washington, D.C.: Institute for International Economics, September 1994), p. 7
[25] “Many observers would now conclude that the GATT was the more effective arrangement. The strength of a formal arrangement such as the IMF is its rigidity; that of an informal, ideas-based institution such as the GATT is its adaptability. The greater success of the GATT thus illustrates the importance for postwar economic performance of an adaptable institutional framework.” Cohn T, Global Trade Relations (Chapter 8); Global Political Economy Theory and Practice (4th ed); Pearson International Edition, 2008; p. 235

[26] Moore T, China and the World Market: Chinese Industry and International Sources of Reform in the Post-Mao Era, Cambridge University Press, United Kingdom,2002. p. 311
[27] The idea was strengthened during the 14th National Congress of CCP on October 1992, encapsulating the refinery of China’s industry policy into a socialist market economy.
[28] Robert E. Scott, “WTO Accession: China Can Wait,” Working USA (September/October 1999), p.82: James C. Hsiung, “The Aftermath of China Accession to the WTO, “Independent Review 8, no.1 (Summer 2003), p. 95; and “The Storm after the Storm: China’s WTO Accession and the US-China Trade Relationship; Stanley Foundation Policy Bulletin (October 26-28), 2000, p.2
[29] Li, “Resumption of China’s GATT Membership,” p.10; and “China and World Markets: The Debate over Trade Status,” Congressional Digest 79 (June-July 2000)
[30] For instance Eastern Europe, Canada, and etc.
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[32] WTO successfully concludes negotiations on China’s entry; World Trade Organisation; http://www.wto.org/english/news_e/pres01_e/pr243_e.htm
[33] World Trade Organisation (2008)
[34] World Trade Organisation (2008)

Friday, October 24, 2008

A Thought For The Weekend

Hey there,


First a very happy diwali to all my Hindu mates including my ex-students in Taylors whom I believe in da midst of struggling (considering da final is at da end of da corner) May this festive season be cherished and be celebrated with the high spirit of togetherness and warmth.

At this point of time, Im not sure where will I end up dis weekend (eid open houses, movies and tonnes of assigments) but shud i din manage to update, u mite consider this as an entry while im away.

Honestly, I kinda like suffering from a multiple crisis of myself (invented by me Im afraid -grins-) Its sumting dat linger and haunt my mind and feelings all the time (n it becomes more transparent when i re-begin my uni life) I take dat as a tiny lil obstacle sent by almighty Lord to me (with the assumption i can handle this through)


so here we go ....

"Am i weird?"

One of my best soul's whisperer (shhhhhhh) was kinda upset when i label myself as weird. Pharaphrasing it, he says, im just a lil bit different from others.

"being difference doesnt mean u r weirdo," he stresses.

"they look all blardy same, innit?" I refuted

"Naaaa they arent. U r just not like em. but u are not a weirdo"

"so wat r u getting at? " my patience was fading and diminished.

"........."

"What?"

" U r juz so special being in ur own way zackie "

Speechless and my tears brimmed (without him knowing it cuz it was over da phone) Thanks

xxx

Monday, October 20, 2008

A Pic Speaks A Thousand Words

















18th December 2007 - 5th September 2008


Dearest team,

As you are reading these lines, I have set my footsteps to a new chapter of my life. I am embarking on my new journey, leaving behind thousands (if not millions) of memories in Taylors. Blatantly true, 9 months could be a while to some. But to me, 9 months have given me a lot of things to be cherished. Only now I have realised that, it doesn’t really matter how long u have spent ur time but how do u spend it matters the most. Indeed, God has destined our paths would only crossed for da past nine months, and I am now departing wif all of your blessings and prayers.

The great legendary Shakespeare I am not, but my sincere words dats spelled out from my lips are the truthful thoughts that I am thinking about you. Hence, these aren’t powerful words as E=mc2, but simply mean a lot to me. If I have a bunch of prezzies sealed off wif a red silver lining ribbon to everyone, dat wudnt even equalise how much I thank you for your presence once in my life.

I will now take this stage to give my profoundest expressions of gratitude to all of the lovely people who wished me, texted me, and sent cards on my farewell.

Mrs Hoe, Mrs Quek and Miss Prema,
Thank you from da bottom of me heart, since da first day we met. Also your patience in tolerating my ‘hard-to-adjust’ persistence is much appreciated.

Adelina,
Your advices and critical comments are truly an eye opener, and made me realise to always be cautious and careful.

Amarjeet,
Your motherly smile will always be remembered. U are a great colleague and a nice company to share and someone to listen to. Thanks for da cake. We enjoy it a lot

Zaidah,
Thanks for your support and your patience in ‘training’ and ‘adjusting’ me to this new system.

Miss Choo,
I will always remember your voice as I cudnt resist even one day for not hearing it LOL. And I know you are a dedicated and really into your profession

Mr Taram Singh,
Your industry driven advice in academic discipline is much appreciated. It’s a shame we failed to dine out together despite some arrangements been made.

Miss Phua,
Thanks for your courage. U have made me feel ‘not-so-bad’ upon leaving at this critical time.

Christine,
Dere we go. My learned adjudicators be with singing, debating and many more. All I can say – u are born to be an ‘all-rounded’ person Christine.and dats is so special of you dat the other dun have

Miss Yong,
Thanks for making me a gud citizen of Malaysia. I’ll consider to vote in da next general election.

Indra,
My partner and neighbour, as well as my deputy president for ‘Young Lecturer’s Club’ . shhhhh its an underground club. LOL

John,
Thank you neighbour, for wishing me, without fail, ‘Good morning’ everytime I was walk-in to my desk daily

Mr Chin,
An understanding neighbour. I definitely will recommend your ‘secondary’ service to my frens and future colleagues.

Mr Chong,
Your warmth smile will always be remembered

Mr Ng,
Even though sometimes I can hear your jokes from far, it already convinced me you are actually full sense of humour.

Prem,
Thanks for being my IT saver yah. U have helped me a lot since I am a ‘buta IT’ lecturer. And all da best with your new member of the family.

Geetha,
How shame, I cant even express my intention to leave to u personally. But we certainly will meet in the future.

Kevin,
My ‘ting-tong’ yet fun mate. We really had a nice time in Awana. And I will never forget our happiness, sadness and frustrations bcuz of da lousy management tour. And I think u can write well in BM.

Alice cum Dr Khaw,
Hey be strong yeah. Death doesn’t put an end to love somebody. See you in 5 years time as Dr Khaw

My respected mentor Wendy Loo,
U have been a great mentor all this while. Because of you, I am now have a basic in Australian Legal Studies.

Miss Ting,
If somebody ever sent u spam emails, lets beat him up ok.plus I will miss looking at you eating ur sandwich at 10 ish everyday.

Soffina,
I hope u will enjoy SAM as much as u enjoy ICPU. After all we are still an educationist.

Mr Munin,
I am planning to go hiking with you then. And make sure you dun quit =)

Rajani,
Thanks for da ride. U’ve been a great buddy. A gud colleague and a potential businesswoman. All da best wif your bawang merah, bawang putih and udang ok LOL

Santana,
How shud I say cuz I really gonna miss you. U r like a mother to me. our conversation will always light me up. And im wishing you a million of TGIF ahead in near future.

Sheena,
Knowing u spiced up my life in da orange room. Our ‘gila-gila’ mind seriously help us much when dealing with ongoing stress in work. Ermmmm dun forget to be my curtain designer shud one day I have my own house with own money. You are a gud fren and a bright businesswoman in near future.

Mrs Soh,
Should the ‘three’ heroes stay, I wish u all da best of luck in facing them =) they just somehow loss in their lives.

Mrs Goh,
Take care of L3 for me. Make sure they will study hard for finals and trial.

Mr Tong,
U are truly a reformist and I admire all of your effort and spirit. Dun wery Mr Tong, da surrounding will eventually listen to u. people will learn to appreciate if its been taken away from them.

Alicia,
Treat me starbucks upon ur masters graduation. And I will treat you secret recipe for directing me to Bukit Tunku eventho we din follow da directions LOL

Sue,
I love your whinings, I love your complainings, they are so neutral, funny and adorable. Say hi to the Baches for me yeah

Miss Tiew,
Our short conversation in AC (over lunch) will do for me.

Ms Doh,
Please forgive me for not controlling da class. They’ll never do dat again (bcuz im no longer to entertain them) haha

Rach,
Next time jupo, kito make budu deh. Mung jange royak kat semua ore. Hok pakat2 samo side2 kito jo.

Sharina,
Hi Big and Sexy Mama, u r still sporty and rocks. I’m sure ur kids will be happy having a cool mum like u.

Mr Lee,
Everytime I bump into u, u were heading for a breakfast (far far away from campus) ha ha

Ai Nee,
Berhati hati di jalan raya OK.hehehehe. sokay dear, shits just happened in our life. Just get over it cuz there always be a bright sun after a heavy storm.

Vijay,
All da best, mate. I trust you to carry on wif my unaccomplished mission in taylors – to educate the youngster for a better Malaysia in da future

Kalpana,
I miss your curry in hurry. Can u make me tandoori in hurry too? LOL

Mrs Ong,
U can now ask Vijay for any legal advices and I hope that u will never be victimised again.

Mr Yap Physics,
It’s a nice pleasure knowing you. I value ur frenship and all the things u have taught me before (particularly our conversation post-nuang tragedy) lol

Dr Santha,
I want to be like you. Holding a doctorate degree and I hope that one day I’ll be able to meet u and tell u dat I have being one.

Miss Ng,
How shud I say, that I really gonna miss you. Ur motherly care and advices simply be da second to none. U are like my mother when I go to work. And I wanna thank u for dat and please keep on sending me ur blessings and prayers. I need them, honestly.

Ange,
Im so happy u finally met da one. I ask God nothing but to give you a loads of happiness and beautiful memories in ur life and family.

Cherilyn,
My roomie (hehehe) ‘only in the staffroom’. Thanks for accompanying me all da nites we have spent together in the staffroom (opppsss but im sure they understand wat I mean) LOL U are such a dedicated lecturer and I always tell J8 dat they are lucky to have such a dedicated and passionate economic lecturer like u.

Miss Kwa,
Our Awana memories will remain forever. We are da black team yeah. BLACK IS FINE BLACK IS MINE.

Mahani,
It’s a relief to know dat someone is actually having da same thinking like you. and u are da one. We both enjoyed ourselves sharing da same (gila gila) idea, keep on rocking our lifes as it is too short for a tear.

Sidney,
My partner in crime. I like the way u approach ur current employment. And believe you me, u will treasure nothing else in dis world but da only son of urs.

Mr Yap Chemistry,
My life-saver, my rescuer. I dunno how am I gonna make it without u. and I wud like to apologise shud it became a troublesome for u dat day. Gunung Nuang allows us to know each other more rather than in da office. How true.

Miss Loke,
I’ll come for gong xi fa cai open house ok. Make sure u’ll deco ur house and make nice meals. Hehehe.

Miss Cheang,
Even though we talked less, but I know dat u r a nice person to befriend with and a gud teacher to ur students.

Azreena,
Trust me, judging you in Awana, u can be da next bond gurl.hehehehehehe (u simply have da style dear)

Mrs Lim,
Take care of sai jun for me. from now he has no one but you to turn on. As well as L3 and P3 which I think P3 needs most of ur attention. LOL

Mr Yong,
I gonna miss Sarah. Hey we are yet to talk about politics despite we have promised to do dat at da beginning of da semester. Lets go for a ‘the tarik’ soon after Ramadhan ok.

David,
I hope u will find yourself enjoyable with us. Students are always students and we were once a student before. And im sure we share da same wavelength wif them, they will treat us more than as a teacher.

Isabelle,
Ur nice and humble way-of-going clearly reflects on how ur religion has taught you. I can see a complete Christianity reflection in you as u demonstrate it all in your personality. Keep it up. U are born as an angel to the mankind.

Mr Woon,
Never give up Mr Woon. Da only reason why we keep on breathing is becuz we will keep on fighting. Don’t be afraid of others becuz u know wat u actually deserved for and wats da best for u

Mrs Banu,
I gonna miss your advices ur laughs, ur companionship and all. U are such a nice lady banu and I know ur daughters will always appreciate wat u have done to them.

Mrs Yapp,
Ur smile and ‘coolness’ are da facts dat keep you young and pretty. Dun loose them cuz even students can see those in your daily appearance.

Fui2,
Later I teach u new techniques ok. Do u still remember da old ones? LOL

Logesh,
Again, sorry for disturbing ur class the other day. P3 and me were over-reacted on da things we discussed and cant resist from having a big woooooooo.

Puan (Dr) Nor.
Ada barang tak? Hehe .we’ll definitely be in touch ok. We will meet and eat eat and eat. Cuz we both know how fortunate a human to eat what has God granted to us

Madhavan
There are so many to thank. But u guys r da greatest peeps in da world and potentially be da world class academics.-fingers crossed-

Judith,
Sokay dear. Take a pause here in taylors and im sure u will find you path soon. Dun rush because u are still young to figure wats da best for u. I was in dat situation too and I have overcame it.

Audrey,
Please take care of P3 for me. they are not a troublemaker. Its just dat they need someone to listen and to acknowledge their problems. And im sure u can do dat (considering ur position as Psycho lecturer)

Juliane,
U rock babe. Students will enjoy ur ‘coolness’ I bet. Take care of urself

Da rest of the White Roomers,
Im sorry da fact dat only little time spent in knowing you, i cant write much. My bad. Im sure shud I have more time given, I want to know all of u better. But hey, sometimes, we will know each other more out of employment attachment. And I believe dat we will somehow meet in near future.


To those I have missed out, dat doesn’t make u less special than above. I probably missed out your name due to the urgency of sending this email. U will still fondly remain in my remembrance and forever will never be forgotten. I am sorry should this email contains a lot of discrepancies, mistakes (especially grammatical errors and spelling … and I bet Miss Ng isn’t happy with this) and all, this is just the way of my creative writing when suddenly things cross my mind.

Those memories will fade never, as it will makes us feel stronger. I am thanking the Lord Almighty for His mercy and clemency beyond all compare for letting me to be once, be part of the team. Even I am now leaving and beginning a new chapter in my life, you will always be in my mind and in my heart. Believe you me, whether u have achieved success or encountered failures in your life, u always have a place to stay in my heart and in my mind.


Till we meet again,
Zokhri
1512 – Orange Room- September 7th 2008-09-07

(zokhri.idris@gmail.com)