In Memoriam of Nurin Jazlin Jazimin

-Al-Fatihah-




To My Dearest Nurin Jazlin,


As I am writing dis, Im sure u had set ur path to heaven. U mite be in da angels' guidance and care up dere.

Im speechless n my eyes were brimming in tears as I saw u in da tele dis morning. Hence, Im sending you to heaven wif my prayers n heartiest thoughts and I know da angels are waiting u wif open hands, smiling n bringing u to a nice throne which u were once denied in dis horrifying world.

I vow 2 u dat da sinner will never find peace and serependity in his/her own entire life. And we da Malaysians will never n ever rest unless we got dis moron arrested n tortured 2 death. We'll seek justice for u dear child.

Child,

May u rest in peace little one. U r now safe in da loving arms of God. All I know, u have now gone 2 a better place where no one can hurt u anymore. Da moment I saw u dead, U look so peaceful in ur sleep cuz I know da angel might have come personally 2 take u home.

U'll forever be in my prayers, dear princess

Dere's just one thing I ask - Cud u 4give us 4 not being dere in ur time of need?



Im just an ordinary,
XXX

Wat In Da Name of Human Are You ?!?!

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Dear Sado-Masochistic Phaedophil 'Beast',



Wat in da name of human are you ?!?!

U Son of the B****

I pray dat God makes u suffer, n will be cruelly tormented and be burnt in hell

HEAR ME !!!

U gonna lead a long terrifying miserable life for wat U've done. U wont find peace anywhere u go and in anything u do.

BELIEVE ME !!!

U completely insane-disgusting-sickening moron and do not worth for a living

And

I swear to God, if i got ya, I'll stake ur XXX wif saw and torture u appallingly - PUBLICLY- yeah publicly SOB n Im sure da rest will join me sending u to hell.

U'll never be safe !!!

God is watching ye !!!




F**K YOU !!!


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U dare to make dis woman in tears

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U ruin their happiness and I pray u will never be happy in dis life and thereafter. I'll make u suffer -grrrrrr-

A message to fellow Malaysians

Its in grief to learn da body belongs to Nurin Jazlin

Its da Unofficial-National Mourning Day in Malaysia.

It will end da awaiting period by all Malaysians dat care

Its da truth dat we hardly to accept

Its da moment we da Malaysians, launch our war 2 dis heartless sado-masochist paedophile SOB !!!

Truth be told, I refused to follow da stories of her, upon knowing da search is meeting an endless point, cuz I know da ending wud be a frustration.

But I swear 2 God, I never expect dis wud be da ending. Been sado-masochisted n molested (using cucumber n brinjals) is totally definitely disgusting-sickening-n da most UNFORGIVABLE!!!

The child's naked body was found stuffled in a foetal position inside a gym bag on Monday morning. Her intestines had ruptured after foreign objects were forced into her private parts.

Dis 'beast' really made my day bizarre !!!

U ruined my day!!!

He doesn't belong 2 our society. We shud get dis moron caught, allowing ourselves 2 do justice 2 dis poor child. Lets hold our hands 2gether, firming our hearts n minds - 2 drag dis SOB 2 justice. Dis is da very moment we da Malaysians regardless we Malay, Chinese, Indians and ors 2 show dat we dun tolerate Paeldophiles. At all !!!

We condemn sex abuse especially to children.

P/S Im sorry 4 da swearing words. but i cudnt help it. O Lord, pardon me.

Yours truly
Zokhri Idris

Just a note ...

Dear SC

No matter, even fate has taken us to different paths in life, you always stay in my heart forever and will be forgotten never.


Love always
XXX


p/s : besok wanzhu berbuka kat nikko hotel ngan committee MSLS. Jgn jeles. ngeeeeeee

In Memoriam: The Indonesian's Earthquake Aftermath

Dear Lord,


Hear our prayers


Give us a cheerful heart when we are discouraged.


Our hearts ache for those who are suffering.We pray for those whose lives were lost, the families who grieve for them, all those who must rebuild shattered lives, and for infinite harmony with nature.


Guide us when we do not know what to do





Give us strength when we are tempted





Help us to be persevering when things are difficult







Comfort us when life brings us sorrow





Grant us courage when we are afraid






May Your Love & Peace prevail so that nothing will take away our joy


They said " Our Lord, we have wronged ourselves, and if Ye do not pardon us and have mercy upon us, we will surely be among the losers"
Glorious Qoran: Chapter 7 (Al-A'raf); 23

Because You Loved Me

A lullaby cherishing da 100th entry anniversary of 'Asignofthecreator':



For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy that you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby


You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me


Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wing that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

XXX

Congratulations & Celebrations

Dis is 2 commomerate da 100th entry of 'Asignofthecreator'



Hurrah ...



Granted, it took place in da Holy Month of Ramadhan where pious Muslims devote themselves fasting, remembering da unfortunates and sacrificing their desires in da name of God (so no birthday cakes dis time lol)

I wud like 2 express my profoundest gratitude to God 4 giving me da clarity of mind n granting me serendipity thru out da whole course - da strengths 2 move my fingers drawing da words n stanzas, enabling em 2 connect us da mortals.

To all my learned readers n viewers (including da blog-hoppers) -grins- a mounting adulations 2 all da support n guidance given. Truth to be told, we've been 2 da downcast of hibernation period(s) (opps I did it again) but U kept on standing besides us n I can't re-pay dat loyalness shown, apart from saying a million thanks. Da fact is, we both growing n improvising wif da help of all of you.

YES YOU !!!


Even all presents in da world r gathered and sealed wif ribbons under da largest X'mas tree, dat wud still insufficiently amount my 'sincerest' appreciation 2 u, but deep inside me heart, da whole universe know dat I cudn't have reached 2 dis par without u.



U R DA BOMB !!!



Me n Asignofthecreator hope dat dis blog will flourish n blossom - bridging da hearts of entire humans (to sum at least) ngeeeee . Let dere be no war, no hatredness amongst all classes of homosapiens simply bcuz, we r da same b4 da eyes of God.


Thank you 4 being wif me thru hard n thin.



I love u more than u ever do.




Muahhhhhsss

xxx

Thot of D Day ...

Dear SC


"Everyday brings new hopes in life. Hence never stop hoping even how bad u've failed y'day cuz, as long as we still breathing, our hearts will always hoping ... "


XXX

My '07 Ramadhan Resolution

"On behalf of Her Majesty The Queen of England, Scotland, Wales and Northern Ireland I hereby declare dat all Muslims residing in The UK territory dat thy shalt fast commencing Thursday 13 Sept 2007 a.c" (Penyimpan Mohor Besar Ratu Elizabeth II versi UK) Heh




Mode: Alim n Wara' (Ngeeeeeeeeeeee)

2moro is da 1st day of fasting i.e. 1st day of Ramadhan al Mubarak (da blessing month). Asignofthecreator wud like to wish all Muslim readers n viewers a very happy blessed 142h Ramadhan. Hoping dat ye shalt gain pietiness and obedience while observing da rituals. most important, may Lord grant us heaven and close all da doors of hells -Amen-

Motion: Wat Ramadhan means to me ?

1) No more cookies during da day


2) No more skipping 'Tarawih' prayers (geeeeeeeeeeeeee ... it has been da same 4 da past 4 years)


3) Reciting da Holy Qoran from cover to cover (will try me best dis year after a failure attempt in da previous year)


4) No more tight-hugging clothes or 3-quarter pants. MUST DRESS PROPER !! (haruslaaaaa kene selongkar jubah n serban bagai dlm wardrobe kannnn) Hehe


5) Refraining contacts wif outsiders esp AngChoonSeong!!! He makes me swear whenEVER chatted which isnt gud for me. n he likes condemning too while he knows I cant do dat while fasting.


6) Praying punctually. Sum1 has to tell me dat Fajr/Dawn/Subuh prayer is @ 0600 instead of 0700 -grins-


7) A moment 2 remember da unfortunate ones. So please dun invite me 2 Ramadhan Buffet or I shall eat like croc (ha ha ) metapmorphosing myself into python in da end.



I wud like 2 thank those who've sent me offline msgs, mobile texts or emails wishing me a Happy Ramadhan. Im wishing da same too to ye.

May God forgives me -Amen-

XXX

Summer Crusher

0146


Currently listening: 'Leaving On A Jetplane' by Chantal Kreviazuk


Feeling: Unease and depressed


Whenever I listen 2 dis song, it must be on da occassion dat I'm leaving sum1 or sum1 is leaving me behind - including dis very moment -


Da Truth:
I've met sum1 in da last couple of months. Let dat sum1 be known as 'Summer Crusher' aka SC -LOL- dat SC mite not even realise dat I was eyeing on SC ever since da 1st time we officially met. But we already met once, when we both boarding a bus in Manchester (to different locations back then). It was juz a glance.


Da SC I've met 4 da 2nd time during Malaysian Student Leaders Summit @ Nikko Hotel Kuala Lumpur


Da same SC I've been working 2gether during Kalsom 13th in Perlis


Da SC who didn't have da chance 2 say gudbye to me after dat n left me wif full of disappointment


Da SC who have made me waiting calls n texts every single day


Da SC who once promised 2 b a company when I'm lonely, but being avoiding me all dis while


Da SC who gives me hope @ da same time leaving me


n finally


Da very same SC who's 2moro gonna fly back 2 da place where SC belongs to (for da rest of da academic year)


X


To My Summer Crusher:
How time flies so fast leaving me wif all of our memories. As its just less than 24 hours left, Im wishing u a very best of luck in ur remaining years of studying.


I mite not be da best person u ever met in ur life, but i assure ye dat, whenever u put urself up in dis world, whether in success or in failures, u always have a place 2 stay in my mind and heart.


U will never and ever love or miss me, but dat doesn;t put an end 4 me 2 remember you


U mite dislike or disgust da way I'm bringing up myself but in my eyes, u are so adorable just being in da way u r


U mite think Im juz a useless guy u've met, n will bring u no benefit 2 u but @ least Im always support and hoping u can give da best 2 entire mankind


U will never know how much I gonna miss u, but I certainly know dat U'll never be forgotten even miles n miles away.


I've found ye and thank God 4 sending me an angel ...





So be happy !!!


Yours truly,
XXX

Malaysian's Budget of 2008 (excerpts)

I was one of da hundreds, if not thousands, of Malaysians who yawned and whined after 10 mins the Prime Minister on air. In compensating, Ive looked for da excerpts (wif a hand of a fren) in my mails and found one. So folks fellow Malaysians, below are da extracts from 2008 Budget tabled at da Parliament. Unfortunate, I cudnt consider myself receiving benefits from any of the classes tabled. shame =(

Salient points in 2008 Budget

Corporate tax slashed to 25%.
Corporate tax will be reduced to 25% in 2009. The government announced the first cut in corporate tax in nine years in last year’s budget, reducing the company tax rate to 27 percent this year and 26 percent in 2008, from 28 percent previously.


Reduce government red tape
Reduce the period for refund of income tax from six months to between 14-30 days for e-filing applications. Immediate registration of companies instead of three days previously.
Reduce the approval time for Environmental Impact Assessment from three months to five weeks. Cutting the processing period for work permit to seven days for skill workers, compared to 14 previously.


Multiple entry visas
Indian and Chinese nationals can apply for multiple entry visas in the country where they are residing or working, instead in their country of origin. This facility will be made available in international financial centres, such as New York , London , Hong Kong and Singapore , effective January 2008.


50% stamp duty exemption for houses.
A 50% stamp duty exemption on documents of transfer will be given for the purchase of one house of not more than RM250,000 per unit. This will rduce the cost of buying a house by up to RM2,000. An initial fund of RM400 million has been earmarked to increase bumiputera property investment in Iskandar Development Region in Johor.


More flexibility for SMEs
Small and Medium-side Enterprises (SMEs) will have the flexibility to pay taxes at the end of financial year instead of monthly instalments.


Education fees abolished.
The annual fees for primary and secondary schools will be abolished, effective 2008.The Text Book Loan Scheme will be provided to all students, irrespective of their families' income and with no restrictions on the number of eligible children. With this, schooling in Malaysia is now completely free.Free uniform for uniform activities for those students from families with monthly income of RM1,000 and below.


Increase allowance for teachers
Increase the allowance for special education teachers from RM100 to RM250 per month.
Raise the allowance for graduate substitute teachers from RM85 to RM150 per month.
Provide an allowance of RM60 per hour for degree holders and RM50 per hour for diploma holders teaching Chinese and Tamil languages in national schools.


More scholarships for higher education
The number of undergraduate students sponsored by Public Service Department in local universities from 5,000 students to 10,000 annually, beginning 2008.The cost of living allowance (Cola) for government-sponsore d students in local higher education institutions will be increased between 23% and 84%.The Cola for government-sponsore d overseas students in US, UK and Canada will be increased by up to 97%, almost double the current rate.


Tax relief for post-graduate students and sports equipment
Tax relief of up to RM5,000 on education fees be extended to all post-graduate students.The law will be amended to allow employers to provide financial assistance to enable workers to pursue post-graduate degrees, especially in new and high technology areas.Individual tax relief of up to RM300 a year be given to the purchases of sports and exercise equipment.


Encouraging ICT
Last mile network facilities providers be given Investment Allowance of 100% on capital expenditure incurred for broadband up to Dec 31, 2010.Import duty and sales tax exemptions be given on broadband equipment and consumer access devices.Tax deduction for employers on benefits in the form of new computers and broadband subscription fees for employees. Such benefits received by employees will also be tax exempted. Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission has allocated RM45 million for the implementation implementation of SchoolNet project to provide Internet services to schools.


Monthly withdrawals for EPF contributors
EPF contributors can make monthly withdrawals from the balance in Account 2 (30% of total contributions) . This will be effective from Jan 1, 2008 and for the financing of one house.This is for those who have to pay off their housing loan.


Stamp duty exemption for husband-wife property transfer
Full stamp duty exemption on the transfer of property from husband to wife.In cases where the wife wishes to transfer property to the husband, the same exemption applies.


More spending in public transportation
Over the next four years, RM12 billion will be spent to improve public transportation in Kuala Lumpur and Penang .To alleviate traffic congestion in Penang , the Penang Outer Ring Road (Porr) will be implemented on a tender basis shortly.


RM2 bil bond for senior citizens
A RM2 billion bond will be issued by Bank Negara Malaysia to be subscribed by senior citizens aged 55 years and above, who do not have permanent jobs.The maximum limit per person is RM50,000, with a maturity period of three years and a rate of return of 5% per year.To reduce the financial burden of the poor and needy senior citizens, the Government will increase their allowance from RM200 to RM300 per month, effective from Jan 1, 2008.


Higher allowance for the disabled
The disabled workers monthly allowance to increase from RM200 to RM300.A special assistance of RM300 per month for eligible persons taking care of the disabled, who are bed-ridden and patients suffering from chronic illness. Tax deduction on renovation costs in the work place incurred by employers for the disabled to encourage the private sector to hire more disabled workers.


Budget deficit down to 3.1%
The government has said that it will reduce its fiscal deficit in 2008 to 3.1% of gross domestic product from 3.2% in 2007. While it was estimated that the deficit is around 3.4% this year, it appeared to have been revised to 3.2% due to unexpected high income from oil exports and an increase in tax revenues.The budget deficit, the 11th in a row, has seen a progressive reduction since 2000 which stood at 5.5% then. The government has not set a deadline in its effort to wipe out the budget deficit, which as a share of GDP is the biggest in Southeast Asia . The budget deficit is due to the government spending more than it earned over the years.


Economic growth between 6% and 6.5% in 2008
The goverment is bullish on economic growth for next year - expected to be between 6% to 6.5%.Growth was 5.9% in 2006. It slowed to about 5.8% currently, but the government is maintaining its forecast for this year at 6%.


Total expenditure for 2008 Budget
The total expenditure for 2008 Budget is RM176.9 billion - 10.9% higher than the spending in 2007.Of this, RM128.8 billion is for operating expenditure while RM48.1 billion is for development expenditure.The development expenditure was RM46 billion in last year’s Budget.


What's not in 2008 Budget

No cut in income tax -
The income tax will remain at 28% while corporate tax will be slashed to 25% in 2009. There is also raise in the minimum taxable income level and the provision of higher tax relief for spouses, children and insurance payments.

No increase in sin tax - the government has already increased the excise duty on tobacco products by 25% two months ago. There is also no hike in alcohol duties.

No implementation of GST - the long-delayed goods and services tax will be put off to 2009. The GST was announced in 2005 and was to be implemented in January 2007.

No bonus for civil servants - Unlike last year, the 2008 Budget did not mention any bonus for civil servants this year.


XXX


P/S Full text of 2008 Budget Speech in PDF is available upon request (which admittedly, i dun bother to go down each lines of it) =)

W-H-Y

WHY ?

Why, dear Lord?

Why, ye acccurst Fates?

Why its been so hard for me?

Why I've been left mercilessly?

Why?

{thanks 2 mon paccka3, mon namrtb, mon xn3hb}

disturbing thoughts ...

Tuesday nite saw da whole of ss19 territory in midst if darkness. Upon listening 2 my favourite ‘beautiful girl’ by Sean Kingston, da blink of darkness suddenly comes to my eyes. Cudnt even shut my laptop properly. daym!!! (hopefully its alrite) .
Now wat to do?

Cant watch tele neither my astro
My phone batt is low hence I cudnt make calls
My MP3 player still not being charged

I cud have died in boredom. Fark arrrr ( owh pardon me, I shudnt swear, luckily its sya’ban still not ramadhan – so I will be forgiven) lol


So I walked around da area just to make sure everything’s safe; checked all da windows and doors (manalah tau rompakan terancang ker) haha. Feeling satisfied, I went back to my room, thinking ‘now wat’?


Even da whole house was in a complete black out, da moon was shining brite. I cud even see my neighbour houses vividly from my windows in my room. Da moonlight was showering all over. All praise due to God, despite a complete darkness in my house, it was so clear outside – as if like when da sunsets.


Without being told, I grabbed my chair and sat facing da window. Looking straight upwards, mermerising da god’s creation up above da sky. No wonder moon cud be so beautiful at nites. I thanked da moon. Without it, nites cud be so hallow. I praised God for such miracles. ( I bet if my parents weren’t around, I will climb up over da roof and lie down till dawn - enjoying da beauty of da nite)


Witnessing da hidden secret of da moon, invites me to do self-thinking .arghhhhh not again. I was asking myself – why up to dis moment I cudnt have made my parents happy?


Why all da days passed was full of quarrels and disagreements?

Why r they love to pick up on me even wif small stuffs?

Am I really bad juz because im jobless?

Does jobless mean im hopeless??

-Sobbing-

Mum dad, why do u hate me so much?

I know im not a gud son. But im trying my best to be da one.

I know I cant be a syariah lawyer or even a legal practitioner for u to proud of, but dats because I wanna do sumting else

I know u hate me seeing my frens, but they are just da ones dat I have in dis world after u


I know I always stay outside, but dat doesn’t mean Im engaging sumting bad

I know ive changed and u claim da change is in bad direction, but im just being myself and not being pretentious

I know I always procrastinate in praying, but im praying still (even my fajr prayers are always at 7) n trying 2 improve

I know I cant be like other ordinary guys, but im so tranquil in da way I am now

I know im not a gud muslim, but at least, im still ur son and forever will be ur son.


At dat moment, I cant help myself. My cheeks were painted wif delicate pearls of water which ever constantly merge to form tiny streams which I cud even feel a warm liquid merrying down into lines on my cheeks dropping one by one onto my lap. I cudnt take dis anymore.

I know u r hurt, but can u just feel how hurt I am inside.

Dad, why u being so harsh to me?


Perhaps, coming back home was a wrong decision. Yup, I shud have just stayed in d uk and leading my own personal life (which was really happy back then ). Perhaps I dun belong ere, despite dis is my hometown. Maybe, Malaysia isn’t for me to stay and live on.


At dis very moment, I wish cud fly back to uk and leaving all my sorrowness behind. I regret for taking decisions to come back home dis year. Its just not rite. Wrong timing, wrong situation hence wrong decision. I wish I cud just turn back da clock and remained in Manchester.

In da end, I dun care if all of u dun feel sorry 4 me. I am a bad son enw. So be it. I ve tried to patch things up wif my family but it seems all of my efforts pay no value in their eyes. And I had enough of trying. So be it.. carpe diem !!!

I dun care if u hate me cuz I know sumone out dere is waiting to love me.


At nites I cry
xxx

From Da Sea of Love

Dear Adik2 Kalsom,



Its 0323 in da morning


Its just a week after we have gone to different paths in life. How mine cud be so empty without ur presence around. How I miss ur smile, ur tears, ur naughty jokes (especially dedicated to da boys) n everything. U mite have no idea, dat every single day I've been thinking da moments dat we've spent 2gether. Everything is juz so fresh & real and will dilute and fade never.




I miss my monsters. U guys spiced up my life. Even we had undergo sum 'cold' relationship @ first, but we managed 2 break da ice. Thanks 2 K. Faezah n A. Faisal aka A Jambu 4 such a gud cooperation. Without them, monsters wud never be as merrier as we had. Blatantly, I cud never have succeeded without a hand from them.


Dearest Adi, Akram, Hasbullah, Wani, Nisah, Afzan, Ieka, Tika, Iema, Mira, Farhana n Syafiqa,





The last day saw our dreams fell apart n broken - 2 be da best group in Kalsom 13. I've tried my best 2 instill da spirit of grouphood and da sense of belonging amongst us, but I guess it wasn't enough. But I'm truly proud dat da MONSTERS have proven, we belong 2 each other other; like da 3 Musketeers' "One 4 All, All 4 One"


U guys r my heroes. Even we loss, but I think da bound of hearts between us dat matters. Violaaaaa ...




Kalsom taught me 2 be sincere on wat u feel and 2 express our feelings b4 its too late 2 tell da person how much u admire @ love him/her. n da person who taught me is Siti Syoffia. I wud never imagine a minor like u possess a strength in expressing ur feelings. As for dat, I do admire u, same goes 2 Aiza and another gal (which I seem 2 fail remembering her name...sorry)



I also learnt dat, been religious or studying in Islamic Skewls doesn't discommunicate u from joining da rest. We know dat ISLAM isn't as strict as we thought n it never promotes one being an extremist. 2 all my dearest from from SMKA Arau n SMKA (P) Kangar, do remember, no matter wat n who r we amongst human, we remain da same b4 da eyes of God; pietiness (at-taqwa) dat matters {Al-Hujurat aka 'the rooms': 13 }


Syafiq, I just love ur smile ( I hope dat's not so gay ... haha). Da smile dat shows being a muslim is not 2 fear ppl, but 2 get 'em closer 2 us n more important 2 God. Never stop smiling cuz smiles are charities. Its da simplest n cost-less effort 2 bridge ppl. n we shud bridge one another 4 a better world 2 live on.





Thirdly, I've learnt dat everyone is born wif his/her own uniqueness. Never and ever underestimate ppl who come from different class from urs. I may now seek apology 4 feeling frustrated on ur ability n now u've proven dat English doesn't belong 2 middle classes, da urbans n elites, n da westerners but also 2 all class of homosapiens. I'm truly amazed by ur ability in embracing da language. da treasure hunt was a blast, wasn't it. Im sorry guys , n I know u cud improve in da times 2 come. Always remember - no matter how fluent we speak English whether wif da Brit's Cockney accents or wif da American's, Bahasa Malaysia wud always be our mother tongue n da former will remain as our 2nd language.










To all my future lawyers, thanks 4 dropping by 2 our law booth n I hope my lame explaination boosts ur interest in pursuing law in da future. da job is demanding and comes wif various hardships n challenges. Law wud never be easy. It is driven wif passion 2gether wif high determination. n I hope dat all of u will bear da ups & downs 2 achieve wat u aimed for. Not becuz of me @ WanZhu a lawyer, but becuz u r meant 2 be it.
C U in court in guys.



To my trainee look alike MC (u know who u are) -grins-, thanks 4 cooperating. I wud never train ppl unless I know he/she got da potentials 2 stand up n speak. And I see da potentials in u. Please dun let 'em die in u. Remember da things I've taught n and use it wisely. Hey, we were really a good duet, bro. "Ladies n Gentlemen, please welcome on da stage, ur mc - Muhamad Suhayasir Ahmad" -applause-



Ashraf n Fadzli ,dun be so cheeky yah. U been a bit naughty ( haha, in a gud way I mean ) n Ashraf, I know wat u did on da last nite of Kalsom. Dating wif faci(s) is not tolerable and would lead to serious offence =) [da faci(s) will be punished too] LOL

Maryam n Faiz (Derma), dun let da fear seal ur words to be spoken. Speak out as much as u can cuz u'll find da strength n braveness of doing so.

Syifa n Wan Norafarahanim, trust me, U'll find sum1 better than me, who able 2 speak better, act wiser. Dee (Rosdi), I admire ur dual characters. I wud never imagine 'da-other-side-of-u' on da stage. but it was a good try tho.

n to da rest whom da names arent mentioned, dat wud never make u less special. Indeed u r so precious in my life. I may now take dis stage to give my profoundest expressions of gratitude 2 all of you who been wif me since da day we met. Even each and every tiny drops of the rain cud not sufficiently amount my greatest thanks to u.








My dearest Adik-Adik,



I vow dat I will never let our memories dry n die, simply becuz, its not drawn on da sand, fearing da wave will sweep 'em away, neither on da clouds, afraid da winds mite blow but I've sealed it everlastingly in my heart. N no one cud ever take dat away untill da very day I close my eyes leaving dis mortal earth.

I love you more than anyone wud do. I believe dat, things happened wif a reason. I am now profusely thanking God, 4 bringing me back home. Had da fact dat I remained in da UK, such memories are yet to exist. Destiny has brought us 2gether, flying over da lands n sea, crossing da boarders n countries.
I thank God for everything.





Adik-Adik Sekalian,

Percayalah, saya benar2 menyayangi anda semua. Andalah permata hati saya. dan saya tidak akan meninggalkan anda walaupun sesudah tamatnya program ... kerana Kalsom adalah selamanya





Its getting dawn now. I may pen off and preparing 2 dream all of u in my sleep. Goodbye my loved ones; sweet dreams n sleep tight.



As Much As U Miss Me, I Love U Even More ...





Lots of loves,

xxx WanZhu xxx

A Coming Back Note

Dear all,

I know I've made it again

I know I've been disappeearing without informing reason(s)

I know it has been ages

I know I've made ppl wait (n I hate to do dat)

I know my procastination disorder hasn't been totally cured

I know I shudn't have to leave u dis long

I know readers will start loosing faith on the virtues potrayed in my blog

I know things r hard 2 b re-adjusted

As 4 dat,

Zokhri Idris is kneeling on da ground n sed
"I'm so sorry 4 not updating my blog dis long"

Even he can't promise such invisibility will never happen again, he aims " I vow dat I'll change and improve"
(ala ala statement Paris Hilton kuar prison gituh) -peace-


He knows dat dere r so many things 2 say, stories 2 tell, n stuffs 2 share, n his self-defence was "I wuz juz so SCREWED UP"
D-A-Y-M !!!


Happy 50th birthday 2 Tanah Melayu


From da office of da owner - few hours left 2 Merdeka Eve

XXX

Lonely ... n I'm Mr Lonely

Currently listening 2 Lonely by Akon
n
surprisingly 2 Malaysians' Best Kept Secret of Erra Fazira's 'Berteman Sepi'
(Erra U rawkz)

A Memoir

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why I was chosen?
Why am I left without?
The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by my name
Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Life is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find

At nites, I cry

0237 of July 24 2007

XXX

Attention please

I'M BACK

N

I KNOW WAT U DID LAST TIME !!!!







-GRINS APPALINGLY-

While I m still A-L-I-V-E

I'm hereby wud like to seek thousands if not, zillions of apologies 4 a very damn long silence. Loads of things happening which took me a time 4 reflection. I even faced a moment of truth where I simply loose da will 2 live. My my - life cud be so tormenting and despondencing

...

But, all in all,, I appreciate my life still. Da melancholic stanzas dat has appeared wudn't chagrin my hope for a better day to come. Da day where sorrowness go away and tranquils unveil.

in da end, I've come up wif a list. 4 me 2 adhere n 2 guide myself wif. n I vow dat 2007 wud be a year 4 success n full of glory ... no more love , no more tears bebeh
( Chayyokkkk ... Aja Aja Fighting )

So dere u go


While Im A-L-I-V-E, I want @ will

1) Get 2 know myself more n find out who I am really

2) Choose my goals carefully

3) Be honest with meself

4) Always believe in meself - dat I can do it

5) Find many interests n pursue 'em

6) Find out wat is important 2 me

7) Find out wat I am gud @

8) Don't afraid 2 make mistakes

9) Work hard 2 achieve successes

10) When things arent going rite, dont give up - just try harder

11) Give urself freedom 2 try out new things

12) Laugh n have a gud time

13) Open urself up 2 love (euwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww) horny mode now LOL

14) Take part in da beauty of nature

15) Be appreciative of all dat u have

16) Help those less fortunate than ye

17) Work 2wards peace in da world - let dere be no war,discrimination and prejudice

18) Live life to da fullest

19) Create ur own dreams and follow them until they are a reality

20) Be the world to da people






p/s : Credit 2 Susan Polis Schutz 4 shooting me dis idea. Sounds simple but means a lot



Standing still,
xxx

Izzit Wrong 2 B A British?

Sorry for da long silence guys. bit busy sorting out life at da mo (well its never gonna be sorted enw) lol

Got dis from frenster. Its been in my bulletin board for couple of weeks and recently I thot its worth sharing. (after browsing whatablog!!) credit 2 Ang ...

To all (especially my mesian frens) have a heart and a sincere thought on dis. Da owner does not intend to create any sort of racism or ‘I’m-hollier-than-thou’ atmosphere ere. But da guds shalt not be ignored, as everyday is a lesson to us. After all, da English aren’t dat gud for everyone has a lacking part in their own ‘respective’ lifestyle

After been studying/staying in great Britain for 4 years, (n da remainings in Malaysia) dis is wat I found:


WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS


Britons: I'm sorry, Sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.

Malaysians: No Stock.

RETURNING A CALL


Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone page for me a few moments ago?

Malaysians: Hello, who page?

ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY


Britons: Excuse me, I'd like to get by. Would you please make way?

Malaysians: S-kew me

WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY


Britons: Hey, put your wallet away, this drink is on me.

Malaysians: No-need, lah.

WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION


Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?

Malaysians: (pointing the door) can ar?

WHEN ENTERTAINING


Britons: Please make yourself right at home.

Malaysians: Don't be shy, lah!

WHEN DOUBTING SOME ONE


Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money

Malaysians: Where got?

WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER


Britons: I'd prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.

Malaysians: Don't want la...

IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION


Britons: Err. Tom. I have to stop you there. I understand where are you coming from, but I really have to disagree with what u said about the issue

Malaysians: You mad, ah?

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE


Britons: Excuse me, but could you please ! lower your voice, I'm trying to concentrate over here.

Malaysians: Shut up lah!

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU


Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for some time. Do I know you?

Malaysians: See what, see what?

WHEN ASSESING A TIGHT SITUATION


Britons: We seem to be a little bit of a predicament at the moment.

Malaysians: Die la!!! (Mine is 'matilamak' ) LOL


WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED


Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?

Malaysians: What happen? Why like that?

WHEN SOMEONE DID SOMETHING WRONG


Britons: This isn't the way to do it. Here let me show you..

Malaysians: Like that also duno how to do.. (mine: 'tau makan jer')


WHEN ONE IS ANGRY

Britons: Would you mind not disturbing me

Malaysians: Chilaka you!!! (Mine is Wot Da F**K)

CONCLUSION: dats y I miss UK so much =(


p/s…
I feel much relieved learning dat Azlina Jailani @ Lina Joy’s application to revert from Islam has been struck down by da Malaysian Federal Court. Even legally speaking (I must say) Tun Fairuz and Datuk Alaudin have acted unconstitunionally in line wif da Federal Constitution 1948. More updates comin up soon …


U are not forgotten
xxx

A Moment of Joy

@ dis very moment, da clock ticks showing - its 5 to 12 ... almost midnite
which also mean my birthday celebration is coming to an end ... =(

2 sum ppl, birthday is just a day .. wif moist choc fudge cake, balloons, whistles, hats and last but not least - P.R.E.Z.Z.I.E.S yippeee

REFLECTION

But 2 me, its not only dat aka more than dat
A birthday means:-

- a thanksgiving moment 4 da life God has granted
- a mark of ur life chapter i.e Goshhhhh Im in Chapter 24 now
- a point where u become wiser n more mature from 365 days b4 (@least better i supposed)
- a reminder dat death is approaching
and
- a moment of witness where u're hitting adulthood n self-reliability stage (nges nges ...4 I can take da former but hard 2 swallow da latter) =)

MILESTONE

I'M 24

Hitler is 118, Lady Di cud be 46, Winston Churchill is 133 n Dafi AF5 is juzzz 19!!!

LOL -guffawing- Wot Da Heck

n da Holy Prophet (pbuh) is 1437 year old

I thank God 4 enabling me 2 c da dawn of my 24th birthday

DA DAY OF DA YEAR

I must tell, da birthday 'party' has been taking place even on da day b4 where a fren of mine invited me 4 an advanced birthday High-Tea @ one of da Thai cuisine experts exist on dis planet..(abis aku ber'khon khun kap' semalam) tellin ya, da meal nearly made me bloated.
On top of dat, she gave me 'The Morning Melodies' comprising Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart Overture, Johann Sebastian Bach Allegro, Antonio Vivaldi Spring, Luigi Boccherini Minuet n bla bla bla -da list goes on-
(disclaimer: dun whine if u arent into classic - uve been warned) =)

n my birthday is ornated by dis musics played by my notebook. am loving it every single melodies. seething da ears n minds enrapturing da souls.

n 2 me mum, who is unable 2 find my 24th buzzday prezzies ( cuz she definitely knows dat I wud 'abandon' her choices - reason being, our taste are extremely different) but had given me some £££ in return. yeay
Thanks Mum
Even I know, @ dis age, I shudn't have taken any money from me parents, but birthdays are exceptions 2 dis
"Dun wery mum. I promise I'll pay 4 ur 2nd honeymoon wif dad 1 day"


RUMBLES @ KONFLIK DALAMAN

On top of dat, I'm searching sumting missing in my life, trying 2 fill da hollow space in life I undergone (n will undergo). Still, da emptiness in my soul is wat I feel.

"O Lord, wat do I really want in life?" -Que Sera Mode-

even Im fully aware of His famous excerpts dat He hadn't created da Genies n Mankinds except dat they may serve Him. (Qoran 51:56)

Pardon Me n To Ye I Seek Repentence

ACKNOWLEDGMENT

I will now take dis stage 2 give my profoundest expressions of gratitude 2 all of da lurvely ppl who wished me, texted me, rang me, sent cards on me birthday. Also 2 sum1 who blogged my birthday in one of her entries at sarahmohdshukor.blogspot.com

dere r so many 2 thank. but u guys r da greatest bunnch of ppl in dis world.

n I thank God 4 His Mercy n His Clemency beyond all compare, 4 letting me get dis far, despite I have not been very gud 2 Him in da past.

Muacks ...

Love Alwiz,
xxx

p/s Due 2 high demands of invitations, please b informed dat I will only take any makan2 or dayout calls on '1st come 1st serve basis'
cehhh .... sempat lagi perasantan fofular x sedar lagi yg umah kata pergi kubur kata mari ...

LOL

Taught 4 d day

Thought of d day ...


" The difficulty is not so great to die for a friend
as
to find a friend worth dying for"

applause 2 HakunaMatata 4 teaching me dis. she further taught me dat

"Each friend represents a world in us
A world possibly not born until they arrive
And it is only by this meeting that a new world is born"

n I thank her for dis beautiful lessons


xxx

O Zokhri, Have A Heart

I found myself astoundedly startled upon reading his words.

To all, enjoy ...

H-E-A-R-T

I regard not the outside and the words

I regard the inside and the state of the heart

I look at the heart if it be humble

Though the words may be the reverse of humble

Because the heart is substance, and the words accident

Accidents are only a means

Substance is the final cause

How long will thou shall dwell on words and superficialities?

A burning heart is what I want; consort with burning!!

Kindly in the heart the flame of love

and burn up utterly thoughts and fine expression


xxx Jelaludin Rumi xxxx

PhD: Mission Accomplished !! Hurrah

Oh Yeaah!!

I'm hereby 2 declare dat I've accomplished da misssion (proof-read) a thesis submitted 2 da University of Manchester.

Satisfied ...

Title: "Simulation of acoustic partial discharge signal propagation in a model transformer and its usage for partial discharge location"
Pages: 650
Words: God knows ( I bet I dun understand it till now. even a bit!! LOL)

Finally, da work's done.
After a long time of struggling and passion.
I wud like 2 expres my special thanks 2 every1 who has lent me their support and courage - 4 da long non-updated asignofthecreator 2 be bearable. thanks 4 ur patience.

I earn:
1) Basic pay (as a junior proof-reader) shhhhhhhhhhhhh
2) Lurvely evening meal @ Jati (one of da nicest Malay-touch cuisine in Manchester)
3) Niu vocab list (have u ever heard flabbergasted-tabulated-extrapolate-impedance etc) *
4) Knowledge n experience (countless)

PLUS: it wud be helpful 2 prolong my experience list in my CV.

Blessed, I thank God 4 giving me time - affirming my passion and granting me passion during the course of action.
Without ye O Lord, I wud never succeed ...


Zokhri Idris reports,
xxx

p/s: To all my fans and readers, my silence now is justified !!



* Flabbergasted - gobsmacked,astonished
Tabulated - To arrange in tabular form; condense and list
To cut or form with a plane surface
Extrapolate - to infer (an unknown) from something that is known; conjecture
Statistics. to estimate (the value of a variable) outside the tabulated or
or observed range
Impedance - A measure of the opposition to the flow of alternating current through a circuit. Impedance is measured in ohms. The resistance of a circuit to direct current (also measured in ohms) is generally not the same as its impedance, due to the effects of capacitance and induction in and among the components of the circuit

Bravo Class of 2006

Taken from UniLife Issue 7: Volume 4: Dated 5 March 2007

MANCHESTER'S STUDENTS REMAIN MOST WANTED!!!

The University of Manchester has retained its place as da most targeted university by the UK's top 100 graduate employers, according to a niu survey.

University of Manchester students are being targeted by more top recruiters 4 2007 graduate vacancies than are any other UK university students, according to High Fliers Research Limited's Survey, ' The Graduate Market in 2007. ' The survey questioned employers listed in The Times Top 100 Graduate Employers 2006, which includes a range of both private and public sector employers.

Jane Ratchford, Director of the MLP, Careers and Employability Division, said: "Improving the employability of our students and graduates is a key 4 the University." At the MLP, Careers n Employability Division, we work wif colleagues throughout the University and graduate recruiters across the globe 2 develop and manage a variety of projects n evens, all dedicated 2 equipping students wif key career management skills n knowledge vital 4 future career success.

"The results of dis survey testify 2 da enduring excellent reputation which Manchester graduates enjoy wif employers."

The MLP, Careers n Employability Division consistently maintains an excellent reputation amongst graduate recruiters. It has been voted da best higher education careers service in da country for 4 years running in da annual Association of Graduate Recruiters/Barkers National Gaduate Media Audit.

xxx

Proud 2 Be A Product of Manchester (^_^)

MANCUNIANS RULE !!!

~ To All My Female Frens ~

Currently playing: Beautiful by Punkd1


Following Minci (thanks dear, u're my source of inspiration) n on commomerating da Belated International Women's Day which took place sumwhere last week, I'm writing a letter 2 all of my female frens who have come 2 my life till dis very moment I breath.


Dear Female Frens,

I wished I've told all of u about dis sooner but dere was never a gud time 4 me 2 say it. Plus, I'm scared 2 hurt u by bursting all da larva which been kept boiling 4 ages deep inside my volcano heart. Take dis 2 da heart cuz I've no intention 2 hurt u, but for telling da truth; nothing da truth but only the truth.



To My Female Frens Who Left,

Did I hurt You? Have I offended u in anyway? Let me know. Allow me 2 fix it. Ask m dat question if its an answer dat u seek. Why did u leave me just like dat? Did I not treat u as a gud fren? Wat were U not happy about?

Wat Wud U ..... (inspired by Amanda)

"I would close my eyes. And pretend that we're alright. And thinking that we're still together. I would try to free. From the battles all inside me. When every wrong seems so right. Are we better off as friends. I don't think we understand. Words that cut so deep left on the way. What would you say to me. If we have never met before. If I still feel the way I do. I would sing a song. If that's what you hope to hear. A melody is but a minor. All the nights above. Sharing each other. Chasing cars in a cycle"


(I cud feel warm liquid merry streams racing each other down my cheeks)




To My Female Frens Who Have Drifted Away,

Why izzit dat I feel dat we have grown apart? Why do u have 2 strengthen da myth dat if a single male fren will loose all his frenships n frens once he's seeing sum1 new? Don't u know dat I may still need u 4 advice n comfort? Have I changed tremendously eversince I'm in a relationship?

I just wanna u 2 know, no matter wat happens, Frens R Forever. Its not built upon status - whether u r single or non single.




To My Female Frens Who Always Used Me ...
(4 watever reasons such s 4 Religion n da'wa, in study, 4 my money ... etc ... )

I forgive U. I'll try (@ least). Even da wound is still bleeding inside. I'll try 2 heal it. yeah, by meself. Even da scar will remain everlastingly. I' ve been thinking n asking, why r u doing dis 2 me? Did I give u any harm in ur previous life dat lead u 2 pay dis 'merciless' revenge in my current life?

I just wish I'll b da very last person 4 ur 'heartless' action. Please stop doing dis 2 others as it hurts deeply n severely. In da end, ppl will learn 2 hate u and u'll be left alone. God knows how hard one's trying 2 cope after been deceived badly. by a devil with an angel look.





To My Female Frens Who Starting 2 Hate Me,

Please DONT. becuz I cud feel u hate like a bitter cold of da nite. Its da worse ever punishment dat U cud ever give 2 me. Tell me, izzit worth punishing me just beciz I turn up not in da way u expected? Am I deserved 2 b punished just becuz me want being myself? Is sum1 punishable on da grounds he isnt able to opt out - race, religion,belief, way of life or even his sexual orientation? Or izzit da reason I cant be in love wif u justify ur action 2 leave n hate me?


(sobbing ...)

I who adored u, who thinks of u as a perfect fren any1 cud asked 4. I'm sorry 4 da pain I've caused u. I dun mean 2 hurt u, but I cant take it anymore.




To My Female Frens Who Starting 2 Fall 4 Me,

Please DONT. Just DONT. Befriend me just 4 da sake of being frens. Nothing more, nothing else. Treat me s a fren for i'll treat u s my world.
And please dun put any ope I'll fall in love wif u just because I treat U more than any1 else cud do. As I said, be my fren, and I'll be ur world. Do not ruin our frenship 4 I like just da way it is.








To My Female Frens Who Always Being Dere,
especially in da time I need da most.

No matter wat, whoever u r,whenever and wherever, I LOVE U.
No matter how far da distance keeps us apart, U r always in my mind and heart.
I thank you 4 ur presence thru thick and thin, thru da stormy weather of my life we've sailed 2gether.

As Much As I Love U, I'll Miss U Even More.

All in all, I adore all of my female frens. May our frenship lasts and stay pure from any conflicts and misunderstandings. U gurls complete me !!!

'Kerna Dirimu Begitu Berharga'

Yours truly,

Zack Idris

xxx

Ambition v Passion

Mode: Still in cluttered mind.


Subconsciously, life cudn't be fair for us da microscopic mortals.

We might have encountered moments where we accidentally obtained da things we dun really want, but on the other hand, failed to grab da dreams we r truly dying for.

How irony.

Perhaps, lawyering job isn't 4 me

Perhaps, I shud have taken Law & History

Perhaps, I shud have minored in journalism

Perhaps, I shud have pursued my piano lesson since I was twelve

Perhaps, I shud have applied 4 Tele broadcasting trainee

Perhaps, I shud resume studying history untill doctorate level.


Granted, U mite say, being a self-sponsored stud makes ur career options widened. n u can explore more choices n flavours. How true. But truth be told, it also leads 2 a prob (of mine) -
the uncertainties in life

Have u ever felt da enthusiasm of 'i-wanna-do-dis-wanna-do-dat' but u dun know where 2 start wif???

or

a morale battle where ur parents want u 2 b a commercial solicitor but u dun give a crap being dat??? n ur quandary state of mind has made u feel damn inferior 2 handle.

If I cud just have endow da strength 2 tell me mum:

"Mak, I dun want to take my bar*. Im applying 4 Media Prima Talent-Pro Trainee Programme"

I wonder.

which brings me 2 justify da reasons I'm backing off from law:-

who gives a shit how an aggrieved party cud apply 4 promissory estoppel?

who gives a damn 2 examine da loss resulted from the 'Act of God?

who gives a crap 2 Lord Hoffman's guidance 2 prove whether a company's director has acted in good faith?

who gives a flying f**k to 'deserted wife's equity' n why was it rejected by the House of Lords in National Provincial Bank Ltd v Ainsworth [1965]?

whoever said dat I want 2 be a f**kin lawyer after saying all these.

On top of dat, I just cud feel being a lawyer doesn't make sense if u're 2 help ppl. Ever heard of no money,no claim?! 4 now, I managed 2 break myself from being keep on indoctrinated on 'da holiness n greatness being a lawyer'.

Amongst other things I've been brainwashed b4 :-

I wanna b a lawyer 2 admin justice

I wanna b a lawyer 2 fight corruptions

I wanna b a lawyer 2 save da injusticed chap

I wanna b a lawyer 2 defend da innocent mortal

I wanna b a lawyer 2 help da agrieved party

I wanna b a lawyer 2 change da law 4 a better living

Telling ya, its all bulls***s.

Nowadays lawyers (most of them) dun speak as they were used to be. They no longer seek justice, love mercy n walk humbly wif God. Da muslim lawyers (some of them) on d other hand, fail 2 observe da verses of

'Verily! Allah doth command thou to render back your trusts. To those to whom they are due; And when ye judge between people that ye judge with justice; Verily how excellent is the teaching which He giveth you! For Allah is He Who heareth and seeth all things' {The Women:58}

'O ye who believe! Stand out firmly for justice, as witnesses. To God, even as against yourselves, or your parents, or your kin, and whether it be (against) rich and poor. For Allah can best protect both. Follow not da lusts (of your hearts), lest ye swervr, and if ye distort (justice) or decline to do justice, verily God is well-acquainted with all dat ye do. {The Women:135}

Da Christian lawyers (mostly) no longer demonstrate God's character through its love n justice, neither be inspired by the call of da prophets Amos 5, Isaiah 3 n Micah 6:8

Lest they forget

"I'll lead da blind ... along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn da darkness into light b4 them and make the rough places smooth... I will not forsake them {Isaiah 42:16}

"For this is the covenant that I'll make with the house of Israel after those days, declares the Lord; I will put my laws into their minds and write them on their hearts and I'll be their God and they shall be my people {Hebrew:10}

4 all these reasons, I submit, lawyering isn't 4 me

n

I shall just follow my heart n stay focus on my dreams

2 all those people who have high hope on me, wishing me 2 put da black frilled gown wif a wig on me head,

I'm sorry. I cant. Just cant.

I know I've disappointed you. 4 dat i'm kneeling down.

Still I dun know wat I wanna be. da uncertainty of my future is wat I'm facing now.

God knows. Time tells (muting mode)

O God

I'm rambling too far now and sum1 has to tell me 2 stop or otherwise I'll keep on whining and swearing profusely. lol.

I admit dat. I apologise.

I just have 2 let dis out b4 it kills my brain cells

(myth of d day: thinking and worrying much cud damage ur brain neuron)

Lol

May God guides us thru.

x

*A bar examination is an examination to determine whether a candidate is qualified to practice law in a given jurisdiction.